'Hyung?'

'No. It’s J' I said as I enter the room before closing the door and walking towards Junsu who is seating at my bed. Sitting beside Junsu, I look at the space that he is staring at.

'Feeling better?' I ask but I receive silence as the answer, guessing that he is not feeling better yet and he is not ready to tell me how he really feels. Staring at the white walls, I wait patiently for him to be ready to open up.  

'J. Do you think that they as in them are going through what I’m going through? I mean do you think they miss us? I know I did and I am missing them badly, really bad.' Junsu said breaking as he stares at the blank space.

'I’m sure they are feeling that way too hyung and it’s not only you.' I comfort him, patting his shoulder.

'You’re lying right? If they feel the same way, how can they still smile in every performance? How can they?' Junsu said shaking in head in disagreement looking at me with tears rolling down.

'Hyung, believe me. They did experience what you are experiencing it. Even if they smile from ear to ear, you would never know what and how they feel inside. It’s ok... I’m here for you and will always be. Jaejoong and Yoochun hyung also are here for you, they won’t leave you. But please promise me something. That whatever happens, don’t injure yourself ever again and be happy. Promise?' I said as I show my pinky to him.

He is hesitant about making the promise but after hesitating for a while, he brings out his pinky and we pinky promise. Instantly, a smile is form on his face.

‘Why don’t you go to sleep? Rest you mind and remember that I’ll always be here for you.’ I add as I get up from the bed so that he can lie down on my bed to sleep. Nodding, he lie down on the bed as I take a stool and sit beside him.

‘J. I’m sorry if I’ve hurt you. I’m…’ Junsu said as he looks at my palm.

‘It’s alright. I’m fine. Listen closely ok?’ I assure him with a nod as he close his eyes. I begin by humming a melody and continue to sing a song that is special to us.

< Give Me A Smile>
Give me a smile, Don’t be sad

It’s going to be alright. Don’t shed a tear

The song that I am singing now

I hope that it can bring you a bit of comfort

Give me a smile, Don’t get hurt

It’s going to be alright, although you are going through a hard time now

Time will pass

Everything will look up again

Give me a smile

I am right here by your side

I love you, can you hear my heart?

Close your eyes

No matter what, I believe you

I am always here for you

Give me a smile, look into my eyes

I love you, I have always been looking at your heart

It has never changed

You can lean on my shoulders

Take a rest,

Give me a smile.

I am here for you,

Me who believes in you

Always and forever