Posted on 17/04/10

 

Do you feel uneasy?


That you may never see the five of them together again,

That you may never hear TVXQ's songs again,


Do you feel uneasy?


If there are people who can think 'Because I firmly believe in TVXQ, I am not uneasy at all.'

then you are amazing.


To tell you the truth, I'm very uneasy right now.  

That I may never see the five people I love most in the word sing on one stage together again.


At first, I felt ashamed that I felt uneasy even though I said I believed in them.

I even thought that,

maybe it was because the time I had liked them was too short,

maybe it was because I didn't believe in them enough to be shaken like this.


But, now I think differently.

I feel relieved seeing myself uneasy.

Because

The reason I feel uneasy isn't because I don't believe in them enough.


I feel uneasy because I believe in them too much.


I treasure the promise TVXQ made to us that they would be eternal.

I treasure the times we spent with them.


I feel uneasy right now because I believe in those precious things.


What if the promise we made breaks?

What if I won't be able to hear their songs anymore?


What if our precious TVXQ can no longer be together?



I feel uneasy.



But

If I had not believ