Letter #113 - "Do I look okay?"

The Melodies of My Soul - Letters To TVXQ
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Posted on 02/03/10  

 

 



When I close my eyes, I wish that it is you who I think of.
When I close my eyes, I wish for you to appear in front of me.
When I am tired and worn out, I wish that it is you who cheers me on.


I wish that the only person who can do something for me is you.

There are so many things I expect from you,
but I am not able to do anything for you.



I can't even comfort you and tell you not to cry when you cry,
I can't nag and tell you not to drink when you are drinking alcohol,
I can't tell you that your body is ours when we fear you might drive your body too hard.


There is really nothing I can do for you.



What you look like right now,
What you are thinking right now,
What expressions you show right now...



I can't even see those with TV and Radio around
If even that disappears, what am I supposed to see and think?



You have never asked me to love you.
All you did was debut to sing, and work hard to achieve your dreams.



I was the one who fell for you who worked so hard,
and I was the one who chose you.



But I detest you right now.
I hate this detest for making me so tired.
I hate this detest for making me hurt so much.



Who are you to make me hurt so much,
Who are you to make me cry,
Who are you to mak
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meemow123 #1
Chapter 8: OK it's midnight and I'm crying my eyes out in bedz no surprise
How is it possible for me to miss them this much when I wasn't even there during the Ot5 years?? I only came into them in 2016, (or actually when I was ten), and I don't know everything about them, I don't know all their songs, and I feel like I can't call myself a Cassie, it just never feels right because I wasn't there, but I still get shivers every time I see the pearl red ocean, I still cry every time I see them, I still hurt with the memories, and every time I see a red balloon ... Thank you for posting this ...
yunjae2024
#2
Chapter 154: When I fort found this I was a baby, now I'm already legal. So many years have past!!!!!! I still love TVXQ, and this story because of the feels that this gives me.
Loveyoulikealovesong
#3
Chapter 151: Supporting my Idols is one of the few things that keeps me upright somtimes *-*
Their words their smiles I want them to be happy and for that we must be happy
so I hope all of you try your hardest to lead a happy life :3
~Always keep the faith and hope until the end~
XOXO
DivinaKim #4
Chapter 13: Hi, I'm reading chapter 13 and you put wrong person as yoochun photo... Thanks for all these trans. It made me cry.
yunjae2024
#5
Chapter 126: I hope she's still a fan to this day. K just realize that my three year anniversary is coming up. And this year will my fourth year of knowing KPOp, even though I'm not a fan anymore, I can never leave TVXQ-especially the love of my life, Kim Jaejoong.
yunjae2024
#6
Chapter 13: Umm...the picture for Yoochun is not of...Yoochun. Hahaha, it caught m of guard and now I can't help but find it funny.
yunjae2024
#7
Chapter 148: I'm rendered to tears every tie I read a chapter here.


Would it be possible to share this story on Cassie^^World, please. G check it out and see if you might want it shared there.
SalehahSally #8
Chapter 13: Dear author, the picture that you've uploaded for Yoochun in letter #13 is not him. Can you change it?
hananii19 #9
Chapter 139: Because Tvxq is Tvxq.
dbsk_cassie
#10
Chapter 139: Those answers are completely true, we like them because they're them.