Posted on 14/03/10 

 

 

TVXQ...

There are times when I feel like I am dreaming.
The eternity I dreamed of with them, there are times when I wonder if that is all it is. A dream.

Walking along this road, I used to think that I had gotten stronger and better,
but I must still have so much more to go. Seeing myself shake and quiver.
I must still have a long way to go.

I hoped that my wish would not just be a dream.
But I am scared. A lot of things to do with you scare me these days.
I'm scared that if I love you too much, I'll be hurt too much.
I'm scared because the only person to get hurt from being unable to forget you is me.
But how could I not love you, it scares me how much I love you.
I'm scared this love will never stop,
I'm scared that even if reality changes, I will still be here I still have a long way to go. Right?
Seeing myself shaking like this when I swore I would not crumble

But I don't know why I'm acting this way.
You can't control a person's heart.
I see myself slowly taking in reality and trying to find closure, waiting for the sadness.
Seeing myself like that scares me and saddens me.
It hurts that even when I try to find closure, I still love you so much.


This is what I'm thinking. What am I doing?
I want to ask myself. What am I doing?

When everything disappears like flames of a candle