Chapter 9

-the confession-

As I walk in our house I immediately walk inside my room..

“not now noona”  I said as I saw noona walking towards me

I went to my room and make sure I lock it.. I lay down on my bed as I keep on thinking about what happen outside a while ago..

“hyukie?

Did you know loving you is like being so breathless?” he said

“eh?” I look at him with a confuse eyes

“I can’t breathe hyuk” he said

He cant breathe.. he cant breathe..

And a word came into my mind..

Did you know loving you is like being so breathless?

Loving me… loving me is like being breathless.. and he cant breathe… then…

I stood up with a shock face.. I look at my reflection in the mirror..

“Lee hyukjae.. is it possible that Cho kyuhyun.. is inlove with you?” I said to my reflection

No no.. it can’t be! He will never love me.. I said as I sit down in the corner of my bed..

But he said he can’t breathe and loving me is like being breathless..

I can’t think properly.. i blush as I think about kyu being inlove with me..

Didn’t I notice that I grab my phone and dialed his number..

Ring…

Ring..

Ring then..

“hyuk?” he said

“kyu.. about a while ago.. are you ok now? You said you cant breath right?” I said

There is a pause on his side..

“hyuk? You didn’t understand it don’t you?” he said as I can hear him sigh

“well.. I don’t know if I understand it.. but something is on my mind a while ago” I said as I can feel nervousness right now

“what is it?” he ask me

“Cho Kyuhyun are you inlove with me?” I ask in a straight forward manner

“woah! That’s so straight forward hyukie”he said then laugh

That’s it.. my mind deceive me!! I know it won’t happen.. he will never love me.. now I cant see him since its so embarrassing!!!

“yes” he said as if it was a whisper to my ears

“eh?!” did I hear him say yes?

“im inlove with you hyukie.. im inlove with you eversince I first saw you” he said

After hearing that I ended the call and run outside my room.. outside our house.. I immediately go to the playground near our house.. I need to think.. I really need to think..

Is this some joke? Well if it really was I will kill him for sure.. I wasn’t a nice joke after all.. loving someone with your own gender is something that people cant accept easily.. ok in our school its ok but what about outside the school? What will people say? And did I actually think about this stuf?? Of course.. I already said that I love that person! Well I don’t really want to tell him.. since I want it to be a one sided love since I know I will be hurt if I said it knowing kyu only see me as a friend.. but now?! He actually said he love me.. he said he love me.. the first time he saw me.. as I was deep in thought I feel droplets of water coming from the sky..

“its raining” I said and look up in the sky

Maybe this sky is giving his sympathy to me.. as I was looking on the ground which is wet now.. I don’t feel any droplets anymore but I can see droplets continue to fall in the ground.. as I look up.. I saw kyu soaking wet and holding an umbrella

“what do you think your doing?” he ask in a cold voice

“im thinking so leave” I said as I look away

“you really don’t get it?” he said as he sit beside me but still holding the umbrella

“I get it.. but my mind don’t accept it” I said as I lower my head down

“your mind don’t accept it.. but does your heart accept it?” he ask

“I don’t know.. I really don’t know.. mianhe kyu” I said as I look at him I can see his sad smile

“its ok.. after all I manage to be your friend right?” he said to me

Seeing him like this almost break my heart.. I don’t like him being like that but look at me saying things like that to him.. im that one who makes him sad.. I love him but why cant I accept him??

“well.. it was the first time I saw you with hae and sungmin I was like got stunned at you..” he said and I look at him

Is he probably telling me how did it happen.. him being inlove with me?

“I fall inlove with you that time.. but I put it to myself knowing you might reject me since its not proper to have a boy to boy relationship.. all I can do is look at you in a far.. looking at you happy makes you happy.. when I first saw you cry while hae Is kicking you hard I was like I want to go there and punch hae but since he’s your friend.. I might end up being a silly one there.. but really seeing you that time makes my heart break…” he pause and look at me and smile

“it was a normal to us.. but really hae did pissed me off that time” I said and look at the ground

“and the accident regarding wookie and sungmin.. I got happy since I saw you so close but I know I cant just walk infront of you and say my name.. well remember wookie ask your number? Wookie knows I like you and he do it for me.. so that I can contact you but you immediately run away from us and for some reason I think you don’t like to be with us…” he said and sigh

“I got the courage to get your number to hae..and because of the bribery I got it.. its my chance to be closer to you and here am I now being close to you and saying I love you.. but I think its ruined” he said and look away

I can completely see his eyes being watery and a minute or so I can see droplets coming from his eyes and he keep on drying it up..

“im sorry.. hahaha.. my eyes get watery… hahaha” he said with those dry laugh from him

“kyu?” I said

And after he look at me.. I immediately claim his lips.. those lips I want to kiss.. well I’m not like this after all but hearing him say those words.. telling me the truth and loving me for a long time.. I feel that I should give him a chance and as a reward a kiss will do..

As I move my lips away from him.. I smiel and said

“nadoo.. saranghae”I said and kiss him again but not that long it was just a peck

I saw his eyes got wide and a shock is really visible from his face

“kyu? Are you ok?” I ask while laughing

His face is really priceless..

“wha.. wha.. what did you say??” he said as he got back from reality

“sorry.. I wont say it again.. after all those cheesy movements I do you don’t pay attention?!” I said as I glare at him

“you love me?” he said still in shock

“well.. I don’t love you as much as you love me.. but I still love you..” I said and look away

“really?” he said

“no I was just joking.. of course I do love you!! Do I need to say it again in again?!” I said

I really don’t like saying it many times it make me embarrass!! But now I can see him smile and he immediately hug me.. hug tightly

“then can you be my boyfriend hyuk?” he ask then look at me

“no.. you should court me you idiot!!!” I said

“but you kiss me!! You should take responsibility about that!!” he said then grin

“sorry.. that’s your reward but you need to court me.. if you don’t like then forget me being your boyfriend ok?” I stood up and walk away.. after all the rain already stop

“LEE HYUKJAE!!! I WILL COURT YOU!!! I REALLY DO LOVE YOU” kyu shout and I can hear it event hough im far away already

“really? Me too I love you” I whisper to myself and went back to my house..

This confession is really something.. what do you expect from that guy..hahaha!

I wonder how he will court me.. as I think about stuff like that I continue to walk back home and wait for the morning to come and the time he will do his courting..