Chapter 30

-meeting again?-

I cried that time.. the time I read kyu’s writings in the board.. I don’t know where he is but the thing is he is near me.. he can go in our secret room without me knowing it.. even sending me that book.. how? Why kyu?? Why don’t you show yourself to me and let me hug you.. I want to hug you.. I want to see you.. I want you..

It’s been years but the promise we did still remain.. what is it?

Remember the rose whom we buried?? We promise to leave something there.. every 24^th of the month I visit the place and saw a thing.. I know it’s bad but I keep those things.. I get those things because I know it came from my lover.. he still remember the promise..

Its 24^th of November and here I am standing in the house thinking if I can see kyu in the place..

“hyukie?” the person called me and I know who it was

Siwon.. he always accompanied me on going there.. ever since the day kyu left me he always come with me.. and he know that every 24^th of the month I go to the garden and let myself be there for the rest of the day and he never leave me..

“hyukie.. its 24^th of november” he said and I look at him

“I know” I said as  stood up and look at him

“let’s go” I said as I walk outside the room

It’s been a routine to me that every 24^th of the month I will leave everything and spent my time in the garden and wait for someone there.. but ever since that person arrive earlier and leave something there without me seeing him..

I rode the car and sit silently on the car as siwon drive and only look at me worriedly

“I’m ok siwon-ah” I said as I look outside to assure him

“ok” he answered and look on the road while driving

We reach the school grounds and I walk outside the car and wait for siwon to park the car and we both walk in the garden..

As I enter the place as usual there is a bouquet on the ground to be exact on the ground where we buried the rose

“he’s been here” I whispered which I know siwon heard me

“I think so” he said and lowered his head

I walk towards the area and kneel down looking at the flower

“where are you?” I said as I grab the flower and smell it

“why are like that.. please.. let me see you” I said as I cried and hug the flower

The thing I didn’t know is that someone was looking at me from a far and crying

-SIWON’POV-

I look at hyukie crying on the ground hugging the flower kyu put as a sign of his love

I scan the area and saw someone on the trees not far from us..

“kyu” I whispered as I look intently on him and I know he was crying from the sight he was seeing

He look at me and and gave faint smile

“thank you” he said as I can read those lips of him saying those words

After saying it he walk away and soon only shadow from the trees can see as he vanish from the woods

-HYUKIE’SPOV-

I look at siwon and saw him looking at the woods I immediately look at the place he was looking and saw a shadow leaving..

It strike my reality as I stood up and run to it

“KYU!!!!” I yelled and run towards the woods but as soon as I run the shadow vanish I someone captured my body and saw siwon hugging him

“siwon-ah.. it’s kyuhyun right? It’s him right?” I said as I cried on his arms which my knees weaken as I cried

“he’s gone hyukie.. he’s gone” he said while I cried

He’s gone..i never have the chance to see him.. I cried more as we walk towards the place and I sit on the ground as I silence myself and look at the space

“why is he like that siwon?” I ask siwon as I look at the ground

“sorry to tell you hyukie.. but I don’t know either” he answered me and pat my shoulder

I don’t know why but even if he’s like this.. I don’t find myself to hate him.. I still wait for him and love him with all my heart.. why does I fell those things..

I stood up and put a locket on the ground where we buried the rose..

“rose.. this is for you.. you can look inside if you want.. it’s your parents after all.. before your father leave me” I said as I open the locket and saw the picture I shared with kyu and close it again before putting it in the ground

I hope someday I can see him..

I walk away without looking at siwon and walk towards the ground..

“siwon” I called him and he look at me

“where do you think kyu was?” I ask again as I know it’s the nth time I ask everyone those words

“I don’t know.. I wish I knew” he said and grab my hands as he led me to the car

I sit on the car without saying something until we reach the house

“forget about him hyukie.. he only hurts you” he said as he look at I just shrug and leave the car

I walk inside my room and look for the room and get the solo picture of kyuhyun.. smiling kyuhyun..

“yah!! Babo!! Where are you?! I was suffering without you.. it been years but I still misses you.. I really love you” I said as I was staring the picture I was holding

As I was looking in the picture the door open revealing hyunnie..

“umma?” I said as his head pop out in the door and when he saw me we walk inside

“hyunnie” I said as I brush the tears since I don’t want him to see me crying

“crying again umma?? Aish… whoever the reason of that tears will surely receive a punch from me” he said and show fist little fist on me

I laugh as I lift him and place in the bed

“umma” he said as he place those little fingers of him in my face and place a kiss from my forehead

“don’t cry..”he said and flash a smile

He really act like his father.. he really was..

I nod and smile

“ne” I said as he smile and look at me saw a picture I was holding

“appa?” he ask as he get the picture form my hand

“yes.. he really looks like you hyunnie” I said as I move closer and I nod

“where is he umma? Heaven?” he said as he look at me

“no hyunnie.. he was somewhere I don’t know where..” I answered he just sigh

“comeback appa.. umma is crying and we need to protect him arasso?” he said as he kiss the picture and I smiled at the gesture he showed me

“umma!! You have class right?” he ask as he look at me

I noded and he sigh

“wae?” I ask him and he look at me

“let’s g to the beach.. to the amusement park..” he said as he think on some places

“I can’t hyunnie” I said as I look at him and pouted

He looks like kyu as he do that

“ok umma” he answered as he surrender on me

“maybe next time honey” I said as I hug him and he smiled and nod

“umma.. you know someone always go here.. and talk to me.. he was wearing a mouth mask so I don’t see his face but he was really nice” he said as he was playing on my fingers

I got stuck on what he said and i look at him..

Kyu..

“what did he do or say?” I ask him as he look at me and think

“nothing in particular umma.. just talk to m.. as something or even gave me strawberry milk.. umma.. I know I love that drink.. then he told me he was your friend so I told you that” he said and smile at me

That definitely kyu..

“hyunnie baby..” I called him and he look at me

“ne umma?” he said

“when that guy came back can you tell him to stay or make a way to see his face” I said and he nod

“but umma.. why?” he said

“it might be your appa” I answered and he look at me in shock

“appa?!”  he said and he stood up and look at me

“yes.. he was gone baby.. we are looking at him.. but until know only things that he usually do is left” I said and showed the pictured kyu given me courtesy of noona

“this is one.. he gave it noona without showing himself” I said as I showed hyunnie

“umma.. you look like a monkey” he said as he laugh and I pouted

He really is kyu.. aish!!

“umma.. appa loves you” he said out of nowhere and I look at him

“he will never leave you with no reason.. he love you so much..” he continued and look at me

“are you really a child?” I ask him looking at him

“UMMAA!!” he yelled and I laugh

This kid.. he act like a grown up man already.. talking with me like I was talking with teukie hyung.. he was really something..

“look at this umma.. appa shows how much he love you” he said as he pointed all the pictures

“he will never show effort to someone who was nothing to him umma” he said as he smiled at me and I nod

I hug him and I can feel a little hand on my back

“thank you hyunnie”  I said as I hug him more

“you’re welcome umma” he said and I look at him and yawned

“sleepy?” I ask and he nod

I place to the bed and put the blanket on him as he close his eyes he murmur

“love you umma” he said as he close his eyes

“love you too baby” I answered back and place a kiss from his forehead

“umma.. don’t cry for appa.. he loves you” he said as I know after saying that he fallen to sleep again..

I smiled as I look at my baby.. he really know how to make me smile..

Kyuhyun.. our child.. he grew up like you.. definitely like you..

Come back and make him smile kyu..