Chapter 42

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EUNHYUK’S POV

I heard screaming from outside so we hurriedly go out from the room with sungmin since we put hyunnie to sleep. As we go out from the room we saw everyone in their worried state and seeing Xian on the floor and siwon hugging him looking at me

I ran towards them and get closer to them and look at siwon

“he’s having a headache and lost consciousness” he said looking at me

“why?” I ask looking sternly to siwon looking for acceptable explanation

“I don’t know.. he acted like that when I told about kyu” he answered and carry Xian at walk to the stares as he go to one of our rooms

“I think something is not right” hae said looking at the walking figure of siwon

“yeah.. something is not right” I said as I look at siwon

We sat on the sofa as we wait to siwon to go back and as soon as he got back we look at him with the “tell-us-everything” look

“siwon-ah” leeteuk hyung said with the voice of authority

“ne hyung?” siwon said as he walk towards us

“sit here” leetuek hyung responded as he pat the sit in between him and kangin hyung

He sit and look at us

“you’re lying are you?” kibum said as he look at siwon and siwon just look at the floor

“Xian is not your cousin he is kyu right?” I said and siwon look at me

“hyung” he said as he look at me

“don’t worry I’m not mad at you.. just that why?” I said seeking for an answer

“I don’t know hyung.. I don’t know.. it’s he’s idea..” he answered

“what?” everyone said as he look at siwon

“guys.. calm down let siwon-ah explain everything listen to him first” leeteuk hyung said as he look at siwon and patted his shoulder

“thank you hyung” he said as look at leeteuk hyung and smiled

“uhmmm.. the time kyu ask hyukie to leave that is the time he planned everything.. he accepted the cure and accepted the fact that he will forgot everything.. he contacted our relatives in China and ask if we can live there after the operation..” siwon said as he look at me

“go on” I answered

“after the operation he totally forgotten everything even me.. I told him I was his cousin and he is a Chinese and we decided to go back to China.. and that is the time I escape from all of you guys.. everything is ok that time believing that I was an only child and he is my cousin he open up his heart to me..” he said

“until I decided to go back here.. and he said he would like to come with me since he was alone there and I was the only one he was close to so I accepted and we got back here… and now he already remembering things which is the first time since he never remember everything before” he said

“I think it is because he saw hyukie and the thought of who is kyu..” leeteuk hyung said as he loo at me

“why did you told him that he was you’re cousin and not he is kyu?” I ask siwon

“because it was his wish.. before the operation he told me that once he forgotten everything pretend that I was his cousin and I’m an only child by that time he was thinking about you.. so that you will accept the fact that he died and you will never remember him so you won’t be sad at all” siwon answered me

“hyukie.. I’m sorry I’m just doing what he told me..” siwon said as he lowered his head

“no.. it’s ok.. I understand” I said sadness painted on my face

“but I think he likes you hyukie.. not as kyu but as Xian” siwon said as he look at me

“I agree” leeteuk hyung said

“after all mind might forgotten everything but not the heart.. his heart recognize you hyukie” hae said as he smiled

I smiled at them.. I don’t know what to feel sadness since kyu is gone and happiness because his heart still recognize me.. but how should I face him without doing something.. after all those years I waited and cried for kyu and knowing kyu is alive how should I act in front of him without freaking him out..

I think as everyone keep silent as they all look at me.. until a door open and everyone look who came out from the room

“the baby is crying” Xian said as he was carrying the baby on his hand

I look at him and he just smiled at me and look at the baby

“the kid inside might get disturb if the baby continue to cry” he said as he go down

“she’s cute” he said and give me the baby

“thanks” I said as I get hyukhyun and kiss her

“she looks like you” he said as he sit down beside siwon

“are you ok?” siwon ask as he look at Xian

“im ok gege.. it just I don’t know why people are flashing in my head and talking about kyu” he said as he look down

“relax Xian..” leeteuk hyung said as he smiled and Xian smile and nod

“hyukie.. can I talk to you for a second?” siwon said and stand up

“sure” I said as I gave hyukhyun to leeteuk hyung

“we’ll be upstairs.. if hyunnie woke up accompany him” I said and walk towards siwon

As we enter the room I look at siwon

“what is it?” I ask as I sit down on my bed and him sitting in the chair

“I need your help” he said while looking at me

I nodded and look at him telling I accepted it

“help me bring back kyu’s memory” he said and I look at him getting the right thing on my mind

“what?!” I said as I look at him

“you’re the only one I think who can help me bring back kyu’s memory hyung.. please” siwon said as he hold my hands

“I.. I.. I don’t know if I can do it” I said and look at siwon

Then that was the time we feel the presence of the person standing in right beside the open door

We look at the person and saw no other than Xian

“Xian!” siwon said

He look at us like we do something wrong and that I the time it registered in my mind that siwon was holding my hands

“aaahh.. gege.. uhmmm..” Xian said as he look down saying those words we don’t understand

I pulled my hands and look at Xian

“sorry gege.. I will go out now” he said and close the door and we can hear the running footstep of Xian

“he misunderstood everything” siwon said as he sigh loudly

“I think so” I said as I lie down on my bed closing my eyes

Thinking if I should do what siwon told me and the pros and cons of it

-XIAN’S POV-

“hyukie.. can I talk to you for a second?” siwon gege said and I look at eunhyuk

Something is btheing me and I don’t like how siwon gege pronounce eunhyuk’s nickname

“sure” eunhyuk answered as he give the baby to leeteuk gege

Before he followed siwon gege he told leeteuk gege

“we’ll be upstairs.. if hyunnie woke up accompany him”

I don’t like the idea og eunhyuk and siwon gege alone in the room but why?! I don’t know eunhyuk at all it’s our first time meeting but I feel like I own him

Everything is bothering me that I didn’t notice that everyone beside me is noticing my facial expression

“Xian? Are you ok?” Sungmin gege said and that is the time I lost on my own world

“eh? Aaah.. ne!” I answered as I panic a little

“seems like something is bothering you..” leeteuk gege said and I look at him

“ne.. leeteuk gege.. can I ask something?” I said as I think first before I ask

“sure” leeteuk gege said

“siwon gege is all your friends right?” I ask and they all nod

“is hyukie close to siwon gege?” I ask again and everyone gave me a weird expression

“why Xian?” hae ask me

“well to tell you the truth I don’t like seeing them together and I don’t know why.. its just.. its bothering me” I said honestly

“well.. siwon is close to hyukie.. since kyu the first time kyu left hyukie when he found out that he was sick siwon is there for hyukie he never leave his side and I think siwon fall for him.. but when hyukie know about kyu’s condition he choose to be with kyu but still we know that siwon love and care hyukie until now” kangin gege answered and I look at him

I just nodded and think again

“yah!! Kui Xian!!! Why does it affect you!! You don’t know eunhyuk for so long and yet you act like you love him!!! Siwon gege love him.. love him.. love him..” I said to myself

And I suddenly stand up without noticing it

“what wrong?” hae ask

“uhmmm.. I need to go to the bathroom” I said as an excuse and walk away

As I walk towards the room I saw the room where they enter and I stand there for so long thinking if I should act like I need siwon gege to check them.. I think for so long until I decided and open the door as I think they don’t notice me..

“I.. I.. I don’t know if I can do it” I heard eunhyuk said

I look at them and saw that siwon gege holding his hand and a pain in my heart occurs

I stand there I cant run or walk away but the pain in my heart is there.. why is it like this?!

Until bth of them look at me and I can see their shocked faces

“Xian!” siwon gege said as he look at me

And I cant find the words I need to tell him..

“aaahh.. gege.. uhmmm..” I said as I cant find the right words

And I can sense that siwon gege is waiting for what I should say

“sorry gege.. I will go out now” I said as I run away

I cant take it anymore.. I walk downstairs and couple of eyes looking at me as I sat down near leeteuk gege

“are you ok?” he ask and I just nodded

“are you sure” he ask again and I just keep silent

Minutes after siwon and hyukie walk downstairs and I just look at them and I can see that eunhyuk is looking at me and like he was telling me something I don’t know

“hyung!” siwon gege called leeteuk hyung and he look at him

Siwon gege whispered something which gain leeteuk gege a nod

“so how are doing?” a voice came beside me and it almost gave me a heart attack

“opps.. sorry did I gave you a shock?” he said and I look at him and he just smiled

“im fine” I answered coldly and stare at sungmin gege

“umma!” someone came and I saw the child from before walking downstairs rubbing his eyes

“baby..” eunyhyuk said as he gave the child a hug

I smiled on what I saw and the child look at me

“annyeong” he said as he wave at me

“annyeong” I answered back and he hug me

I just hug him

“name?” he ask as he look at me

“Kui Xian” I answered

This kid is not like a child when he talk!! As I stare at the kid I found something.. he looks like me!!

“you look like me” I said as I rub his face

He just smiled at me and walk towards siwon gege

“hyung!!! I miss you!!” he said as he gave him a hug and a kiss

I feel jelous of gege.. he have all!!!

And I don’t know why.. I don’t know why I act like this!!

TO HYUNNIE..

AND TO EUNHYUK…