Chapter 38

-Before everything happens-

We woke up in early morning since we heard commotions outside our room as I look kyu who was also woke up from the commotion..

“good morning baby” he said as he kiss me in the forehead

“good morning.. kyu.. can you check what going on outside?” I ask as he smile and nod

He got up from the bed and walk to the door and open it.. I sit up and look outside seeing teukie hyung running as he pass by our room then sungmin running too..

“what’s going on?” I said as I look at kyu

“I don’t know.. get ready so we can walk outside” he said and I nod as I got up from the bed and walk inside the bathroom and prepare myself..

We got outside and we saw everyone running inside the house some are screaming moving things in and out..

As teukie hyung pass by I stop him and his was like he saw a ghost or something

“oh! hyukie” he said as he return on his own pace

“what’s going on hyung?” I ask as I look at him and kyu just nod on my side

“we are preparing for today’s vacation” he answered

“what?!” I said as I was shock since its not a big deal after all

“hyukie look..” he said and pointed at everyone

“sungmin already cook our food.. kangin and everyone was just getting the stuff we need in our trip..” he continued

I can see it with my eyes.. but its look like a robber stealing our stuff and not like getting our stuff for the vacation.. I laugh when I realized what I just thought and I saw leeteuk hyung run towards the other and everyone look at us

“oh! Good morning!!” sungmin smiled and wave at us

“morning” I answered

I roomed my eyes trying to look where is hyunnie but never saw him at all

“where is that kid?” I murmured

“looking for me?” someone said beside me and saw hyunnie standing beside me smiling

“umma is looking at you a while ago hyunnie” kyu butted in and look at him

“wae umma? Need something?” hyunnie ask and look at me

“nothing..  I’m just checking if you are already ready for the trip” I said and he smile and nod

“we better fix our things babe” kyu whispered at me and smile

“ne..” I answered and look at hyunnie

“hyunnie.. go with leeteuk hyung we will just fix our things” I said

“ne umma.. just hurry up we will be late” hyunnie said as he run towards leeteuk and me and kyu left and go inside our room

As we already piled everything that we needed we go out of the room seeing everyone set up already and ready to go

“ready?” I ask

“YEAAAH!!!” every one yelled like a child

We ride on the car as we load up everything nd as expected to leeteuk and kangin hyung they rented a bus for us to feel comfortable during the trip

“waaah!! This is expensive hyung” hae said as he entered the bus and saw a karaoke and foods inside

“karaoke!!!” sungin and wookie yelled as they saw it and happily jump while entering

The rest entered quietly and observing the bus and I really see that it was expensive.. I wonder how teukie hyung can afford all of this..

As everyone settled down the driver start the bus and out travel started at this moment..

The first thing we all think was the karaoke as soon as it started to operate sungmin yelled and get the mic as he put his song and started singing.. well as what you expected from sungmin he really is a singer

As the song ended everyone cheered and sungmin bowed since he know he did sing well and then another song played and everyone stop..

“who’s song is this?” I ask and no one answered

Everyone nodded as no when I look at them then someone yelled at the back

“THAT’S MINE!!!” everyone look at the owner of the voice and saw hyunnie playing at his psp and then stop as he walk infront

“7 years of love” kyu read the song

“ooh.. that song is nice” I said to kyu and he nodded

As soon as hyunnie started singing everyone stop on what they are doing and look at his way.. I had to admit he has a nice voice and he can be a singer someday.. I smiled as I close my eyes and listen to my son’s voice as he sing the song.. even though the song is a bit sad I can feel every lyrics he sings.. he’s voice is like his father.. so calming.. as he finish the song everyone smile and I open my eyes and smiled at my son..

“appa.. you next!” he said and gave the mic to kyu

“sing something for me” I told him

He started to click numbers and the title of the song appeared it was super junior’s song “all my love”

He msiled at me and started to sing.. hyunnie did get his voice.. such a soothing one.. as he finish singing he smiled at me..

“hyukkie-ah..” he said and I look at him as a response

“ne?” I answered

“thank you for always being with me.. even though I leave you, you still choose to be with me.. what may happen in the future please accept it.. don’t let your heart close completely.. allow someone to enter and love you.. but always remember that cho kyuhyun is always there with you.. I’m not saying this like I want to die or something I want to endure and fight for this illness but I don’t know if I can make it.. curing this illness will lose everything to me and I’m not ready if I can do it and accept to lose my memory..but no matter happen please don’t do things that you know I don’t like.. arasso?” he said and I look at him with tears in my face

“what are you saying?” I said looking at him and I can see the despair in his eyes

“you know what I’m saying hyukkie.. please hyukkie understand my situation” he said as he put his hands to cover his face

I know he was crying.. it’s good that everyone is busy and no one can see us in this state.. I don’t want this conversation at all.. everything was fine.. why did he suddenly came up with this thought?

“please hyukkie.. I don’t want to leave you” he said and I look at him and hug him

“you won’t.. I know that you will be always on my side” I said as I put my face on the crook of his neck

He didn’t talk at all and stay on the position we are into.. I want to be with him forever.. this illness. I don’t want it to burden him.. I know that he was feeling lonely thinking about this illness and the possibility of leaving us but I don’t want it to happen.. I will make sure that he will never leave us..

Everything was on its place as we arrive on the venue.. everyone started yelling as they see completely the sea and I can sense that kyu was sleeping..

“let’s go down now guys” teukie hyung said as he open the door and everyone started jumping up outside

As everyone was out teukie hyung look at me

“not coming with us?” he said and I nooded as no

“we can go to the room when kyu woke up” I said and he smiled

“he might be tired.. his body Is weak and easily get tired” teukie hyng said and leave

I put kyu’s head on ym lap and make sure his position is not burdening him from sleeping.. as I saw his peaceful state and brush the hair that covering his face I smiled on the sight..

“you must feel pain” I said as I can see how his face crutch a bit

“everything will be alright” I said and kiss his forehead

Even though kyu didn’t told us what he feel I know he feel pain from his illness.. his state is fin but I know that his illness is getting worst.. teukie hyung told me that kyu is secretly sneaking out going to the hospital.. I don’t want to discuss it to him cause I know he don’t want me to get worried and all.. and I understand it.. but I want to share the pain he was feeling.. it’s been so long after he got out from the hospital and I know it was getting worst.. from the way his body reacts it shows that he was weak.. he gets tired easily and feel pain from his body.. one time I caught him crouching in the floor and I know he feel pain but  I don’t have the courage to comfort him since I know he don’t want me to see that state of him..

As I think about everything he started to move and I look at him and saw he was already awake

He smiled and look around

“where are the others?” he ask as he sit down

“out” I answered and smiled

“oohh.. you must wake me up” he said

“nah.. it’s ok.. it’s more fun looking at you sleeping than playing with them” I said and started to move going out but he grab my hand and hug me then kiss me

“I love you” he said and I nodded

“me too” I answered and go out waiting him to go out too

As we walk towards the others everyone smiled seeing us coming towards them

“so.. you already woke up sleepy head” kangin hyung said and laugh

“neh.. I don’t know why I feel tired recently” kyu said and think

Everyone look at him and I can see that they are aware why is that and you can see that they are worried for kyu

“maybe I’m working too much.. hyukie kajja! Let’s put our bags in our room” he said and grab my hands and walk away

-TEUKIE’S POV-

I look at the retreating back of kyuhyun as he walks away.. I’m so worried to him since I know that his body is getting weak and soon it will collapse..

“don’t worry too much angel” kangin told me and I look at him and force a smile

“don’t force a smile when you don’t mean it.. you know how I hate it”he said and I sigh

“ne” I answered and bow my head

“y the way.. I don’t know what exactly is kyu’s condition” he said as we leave the others and walk towards the room

“later kangin..” I answered as we headed the room

As the time we arrive the room I sat on the bed and got followed by kangin who sat beside me

“as you can see kangin.. kyu is not healed already.. never was.. his body is getting worst and weak everyday.. I’m worried if someday his body will collapsed and something might happen.. I saw him sneaking out few times and going to the hospital for check-ups.. I talk to the doctor.. and told be that kyu’s body is in the state that is very dangerous.. if he tried to do work that will trigger his body to collapse he was in a high risk” I told him and he nodded

“is hyukie aware of this?” he ask

“he was aware that kyu’s body is getting weak and the sneaking out thing but he was not aware of the consequences of kyu’s action.. I’m afraid that if I told hyukie about this stuff  kyu will get mad a me.. I think kyu has the right position to tell him about those things” I said and sigh

“but what If kyu didn’t told him aobut his condition and everything happen?” kangin said and hug me

“I don’t know kangin.. I don’t know” I said and tears started to fall in my eyes

“I don’t want him to die..” I said and he hug me tighter

“no.. angel he will not die.. remember that.. kyu will fight it.. he will never allow it to happen.. he will never leave us” he said and I cried to release the pain I was feeling from the day I found out everything

As kangin sooth me and I Calm down.. we heard a scream and I know who it was

“KYUUUUU!!!!!” hyukie shouted

From hearing the name he shouted both of us look at each other and started to run outside

-EUNHYUK’S POV-

We were walking towards our room.. facing kyu’s back as he walk I smiled as I know he was feeling well today

“kyu!!” I called him and he stop as he look at me with a smile

“wae?” he ask and I just run towards him and hug his arms

“nothing.. let’s go” I said and walk

“you really look like a monkey doing that..” he said and laugh and I pouted

Showing him affection then telling me I look like a monkey?! Aish!!

As we reach the room he put the bags in the floor and walk towards the bed as he lie down

“ahhh.. I feel tired” he whispered and I look at him and walk towards him

“tired? We just walk and you fell tired?” I said as I sat next to me

“I don’t know.. but I feel tired” he said and I can see the rise and fall of his chest

I know his body is weak but just simple things like that makes his body tired? Is that normal? I look at him as his breath calm down but still his eyes close and sweat are running in his forehead.. I brush the sweat on him and he open his eyes and I smiled.. I kiss him he sigh

“wae?” I ask as I look at him

“taking advantage when I’m tired..tsk tsk I didn’t know you’re like that hyukie..” he said and laugh

I move away and look at him in disbelief I grab the pillow and throw it on him

“aish!!” I said and walk towards our bag to unpack

“I’m just kidding monkey..” he said and sit down

“go take a shower your soaking in sweat” I said and he nod

He enter the bathroom and I was finish unpacking when I heard a loud noise coming from the bathroom I look at the door and instinct brought me I run towards the room and saw kyu lying in the floor unconsciously and sweat all over his face..

“KYUUUUUUU!!!!” I yelled as I grab his back and motioned him to wake up but didn’t

I tried again but failed.. I heard noise from outside and the moment I turn back I saw teukie hyung standing with kangin hyung beside him and seeing them tears falling in my face non-stop

“hyung…kyu..” I said as I don’t know what to say as I saw my lover in the state that I never encounter before

“kangin.. call an ambulance we need to go to the hospital..NOW!!!” leetuek hyung yelled and kangin hyung run outside and leeteuk hyung walk towards him

Leeteuk hyung carried kyu in the bed as I walk towards the direction they go into as worried are plastered in my face

“hyung..” I muttered as I get weak seeing him like that

“hyuk.. he’s going to be alright” he said as he hug me

“they are here” kangin hyung said and leeteuk hyung nodded as he carried kyu and run outside

“kangin tell everyone that we are leaving but don’t get too worried everything is alright.. get siwon he need to come.. hyunnie will be with the others ok?” leeteuk hyung said as he run and kangin hyung nodded as we go inside the ambulance and leave

As we are on our way.. I grab kyu’s motionless hand and hold it tightly..

Kyu.. are you leaving me.. you said you are ok right? You said you won’t leave me.. not now kyu.. not now.. I’m not ready for this yet… I need you right no.. I don’t have the strength if you leave me..please kyu.. fight for us..

-KANGIN’S POV-

“kangin tell everyone that we are leaving but don’t get too worried everything is alright.. get siwon he need to come.. hyunnie will be with the others ok?” leeteuk told me and nodded as I follow them towards the ambulance

As soon as the car leave I run towards the hotel and tried to find them but failed

I get my phone and texted everyone to meet me in the lobby and not a minute or so they are approaching me

“hyung.. wae?” kibum said as he walk towards me

“kyu..” I muttered

And they all look at me and also at the surrounding finding kyu

“what about kyu?” siwon ask as he look at me with hyunnie in his arms

“he was rush in the hospital a minute ago..” I muttered as I lowered my head and they all got shock

“leeteuk told me to tell all of you not to get worried and siwon..” I said as I look at siwon with those eyes I don’t know what’s the meaning

“come with me.. he needs you..” I said and he nodded

“hyunnie baby..” I said as hyunnie go and hug me as I hug back

“papa kangin.. what happened to appa?” he ask I can see tears in his eyes

With this strong kid right now I never know he can cry like this..

“he’s going to be ok.. don’t worry.. you stay with other appas ok? We will be back” I said and he hug me tighter

“I don’t want.. I want to come with you” he said

“mianhe hyunnie you can’t.. the surroundings there is not appropriate for you.. if everything ok you can visit your appa arasso??” I said with an authority voice

“arasso.. come back quickly” he said as he release the hug and siwon came back

“hyung..” he said and I nodded

“kibum-ah..youre incharge here arasso? Take care of hyunnie” I said as I stand up ready to leave

“ne hyung” he said and I nodded and walk towards the door of the hotel

As we on our way to the hospital texted by my angel to me everything was turning my head in to a disaster..

Kyu.. I know you to well.. you’re not giving up right? Fight for everyone specially for your family.. they are badly worried about you.. fight ok?

As those thoughts came into my mind I drive towards the hospital too fast that in a minute we got there and run inside..

I wonder what happen in the first place.. did his body give up already?Chapter 38

-Before everything happens-

We woke up in early morning since we heard commotions outside our room as I look kyu who was also woke up from the commotion..

“good morning baby” he said as he kiss me in the forehead

“good morning.. kyu.. can you check what going on outside?” I ask as he smile and nod

He got up from the bed and walk to the door and open it.. I sit up and look outside seeing teukie hyung running as he pass by our room then sungmin running too..

“what’s going on?” I said as I look at kyu

“I don’t know.. get ready so we can walk outside” he said and I nod as I got up from the bed and walk inside the bathroom and prepare myself..

We got outside and we saw everyone running inside the house some are screaming moving things in and out..

As teukie hyung pass by I stop him and his was like he saw a ghost or something

“oh! hyukie” he said as he return on his own pace

“what’s going on hyung?” I ask as I look at him and kyu just nod on my side

“we are preparing for today’s vacation” he answered

“what?!” I said as I was shock since its not a big deal after all

“hyukie look..” he said and pointed at everyone

“sungmin already cook our food.. kangin and everyone was just getting the stuff we need in our trip..” he continued

I can see it with my eyes.. but its look like a robber stealing our stuff and not like getting our stuff for the vacation.. I laugh when I realized what I just thought and I saw leeteuk hyung run towards the other and everyone look at us

“oh! Good morning!!” sungmin smiled and wave at us

“morning” I answered

I roomed my eyes trying to look where is hyunnie but never saw him at all

“where is that kid?” I murmured

“looking for me?” someone said beside me and saw hyunnie standing beside me smiling

“umma is looking at you a while ago hyunnie” kyu butted in and look at him

“wae umma? Need something?” hyunnie ask and look at me

“nothing..  I’m just checking if you are already ready for the trip” I said and he smile and nod

“we better fix our things babe” kyu whispered at me and smile

“ne..” I answered and look at hyunnie

“hyunnie.. go with leeteuk hyung we will just fix our things” I said

“ne umma.. just hurry up we will be late” hyunnie said as he run towards leeteuk and me and kyu left and go inside our room

As we already piled everything that we needed we go out of the room seeing everyone set up already and ready to go

“ready?” I ask

“YEAAAH!!!” every one yelled like a child

We ride on the car as we load up everything nd as expected to leeteuk and kangin hyung they rented a bus for us to feel comfortable during the trip

“waaah!! This is expensive hyung” hae said as he entered the bus and saw a karaoke and foods inside

“karaoke!!!” sungin and wookie yelled as they saw it and happily jump while entering

The rest entered quietly and observing the bus and I really see that it was expensive.. I wonder how teukie hyung can afford all of this..

As everyone settled down the driver start the bus and out travel started at this moment..

The first thing we all think was the karaoke as soon as it started to operate sungmin yelled and get the mic as he put his song and started singing.. well as what you expected from sungmin he really is a singer

As the song ended everyone cheered and sungmin bowed since he know he did sing well and then another song played and everyone stop..

“who’s song is this?” I ask and no one answered

Everyone nodded as no when I look at them then someone yelled at the back

“THAT’S MINE!!!” everyone look at the owner of the voice and saw hyunnie playing at his psp and then stop as he walk infront

“7 years of love” kyu read the song

“ooh.. that song is nice” I said to kyu and he nodded

As soon as hyunnie started singing everyone stop on what they are doing and look at his way.. I had to admit he has a nice voice and he can be a singer someday.. I smiled as I close my eyes and listen to my son’s voice as he sing the song.. even though the song is a bit sad I can feel every lyrics he sings.. he’s voice is like his father.. so calming.. as he finish the song everyone smile and I open my eyes and smiled at my son..

“appa.. you next!” he said and gave the mic to kyu

“sing something for me” I told him

He started to click numbers and the title of the song appeared it was super junior’s song “all my love”

He msiled at me and started to sing.. hyunnie did get his voice.. such a soothing one.. as he finish singing he smiled at me..

“hyukkie-ah..” he said and I look at him as a response

“ne?” I answered

“thank you for always being with me.. even though I leave you, you still choose to be with me.. what may happen in the future please accept it.. don’t let your heart close completely.. allow someone to enter and love you.. but always remember that cho kyuhyun is always there with you.. I’m not saying this like I want to die or something I want to endure and fight for this illness but I don’t know if I can make it.. curing this illness will lose everything to me and I’m not ready if I can do it and accept to lose my memory..but no matter happen please don’t do things that you know I don’t like.. arasso?” he said and I look at him with tears in my face

“what are you saying?” I said looking at him and I can see the despair in his eyes

“you know what I’m saying hyukkie.. please hyukkie understand my situation” he said as he put his hands to cover his face

I know he was crying.. it’s good that everyone is busy and no one can see us in this state.. I don’t want this conversation at all.. everything was fine.. why did he suddenly came up with this thought?

“please hyukkie.. I don’t want to leave you” he said and I look at him and hug him

“you won’t.. I know that you will be always on my side” I said as I put my face on the crook of his neck

He didn’t talk at all and stay on the position we are into.. I want to be with him forever.. this illness. I don’t want it to burden him.. I know that he was feeling lonely thinking about this illness and the possibility of leaving us but I don’t want it to happen.. I will make sure that he will never leave us..

Everything was on its place as we arrive on the venue.. everyone started yelling as they see completely the sea and I can sense that kyu was sleeping..

“let’s go down now guys” teukie hyung said as he open the door and everyone started jumping up outside

As everyone was out teukie hyung look at me

“not coming with us?” he said and I nooded as no

“we can go to the room when kyu woke up” I said and he smiled

“he might be tired.. his body Is weak and easily get tired” teukie hyng said and leave

I put kyu’s head on ym lap and make sure his position is not burdening him from sleeping.. as I saw his peaceful state and brush the hair that covering his face I smiled on the sight..

“you must feel pain” I said as I can see how his face crutch a bit

“everything will be alright” I said and kiss his forehead

Even though kyu didn’t told us what he feel I know he feel pain from his illness.. his state is fin but I know that his illness is getting worst.. teukie hyung told me that kyu is secretly sneaking out going to the hospital.. I don’t want to discuss it to him cause I know he don’t want me to get worried and all.. and I understand it.. but I want to share the pain he was feeling.. it’s been so long after he got out from the hospital and I know it was getting worst.. from the way his body reacts it shows that he was weak.. he gets tired easily and feel pain from his body.. one time I caught him crouching in the floor and I know he feel pain but  I don’t have the courage to comfort him since I know he don’t want me to see that state of him..

As I think about everything he started to move and I look at him and saw he was already awake

He smiled and look around

“where are the others?” he ask as he sit down

“out” I answered and smiled

“oohh.. you must wake me up” he said

“nah.. it’s ok.. it’s more fun looking at you sleeping than playing with them” I said and started to move going out but he grab my hand and hug me then kiss me

“I love you” he said and I nodded

“me too” I answered and go out waiting him to go out too

As we walk towards the others everyone smiled seeing us coming towards them

“so.. you already woke up sleepy head” kangin hyung said and laugh

“neh.. I don’t know why I feel tired recently” kyu said and think

Everyone look at him and I can see that they are aware why is that and you can see that they are worried for kyu

“maybe I’m working too much.. hyukie kajja! Let’s put our bags in our room” he said and grab my hands and walk away

-TEUKIE’S POV-

I look at the retreating back of kyuhyun as he walks away.. I’m so worried to him since I know that his body is getting weak and soon it will collapse..

“don’t worry too much angel” kangin told me and I look at him and force a smile

“don’t force a smile when you don’t mean it.. you know how I hate it”he said and I sigh

“ne” I answered and bow my head

“y the way.. I don’t know what exactly is kyu’s condition” he said as we leave the others and walk towards the room

“later kangin..” I answered as we headed the room

As the time we arrive the room I sat on the bed and got followed by kangin who sat beside me

“as you can see kangin.. kyu is not healed already.. never was.. his body is getting worst and weak everyday.. I’m worried if someday his body will collapsed and something might happen.. I saw him sneaking out few times and going to the hospital for check-ups.. I talk to the doctor.. and told be that kyu’s body is in the state that is very dangerous.. if he tried to do work that will trigger his body to collapse he was in a high risk” I told him and he nodded

“is hyukie aware of this?” he ask

“he was aware that kyu’s body is getting weak and the sneaking out thing but he was not aware of the consequences of kyu’s action.. I’m afraid that if I told hyukie about this stuff  kyu will get mad a me.. I think kyu has the right position to tell him about those things” I said and sigh

“but what If kyu didn’t told him aobut his condition and everything happen?” kangin said and hug me

“I don’t know kangin.. I don’t know” I said and tears started to fall in my eyes

“I don’t want him to die..” I said and he hug me tighter

“no.. angel he will not die.. remember that.. kyu will fight it.. he will never allow it to happen.. he will never leave us” he said and I cried to release the pain I was feeling from the day I found out everything

As kangin sooth me and I Calm down.. we heard a scream and I know who it was

“KYUUUUU!!!!!” hyukie shouted

From hearing the name he shouted both of us look at each other and started to run outside

-EUNHYUK’S POV-

We were walking towards our room.. facing kyu’s back as he walk I smiled as I know he was feeling well today

“kyu!!” I called him and he stop as he look at me with a smile

“wae?” he ask and I just run towards him and hug his arms

“nothing.. let’s go” I said and walk

“you really look like a monkey doing that..” he said and laugh and I pouted

Showing him affection then telling me I look like a monkey?! Aish!!

As we reach the room he put the bags in the floor and walk towards the bed as he lie down

“ahhh.. I feel tired” he whispered and I look at him and walk towards him

“tired? We just walk and you fell tired?” I said as I sat next to me

“I don’t know.. but I feel tired” he said and I can see the rise and fall of his chest

I know his body is weak but just simple things like that makes his body tired? Is that normal? I look at him as his breath calm down but still his eyes close and sweat are running in his forehead.. I brush the sweat on him and he open his eyes and I smiled.. I kiss him he sigh

“wae?” I ask as I look at him

“taking advantage when I’m tired..tsk tsk I didn’t know you’re like that hyukie..” he said and laugh

I move away and look at him in disbelief I grab the pillow and throw it on him

“aish!!” I said and walk towards our bag to unpack

“I’m just kidding monkey..” he said and sit down

“go take a shower your soaking in sweat” I said and he nod

He enter the bathroom and I was finish unpacking when I heard a loud noise coming from the bathroom I look at the door and instinct brought me I run towards the room and saw kyu lying in the floor unconsciously and sweat all over his face..

“KYUUUUUUU!!!!” I yelled as I grab his back and motioned him to wake up but didn’t

I tried again but failed.. I heard noise from outside and the moment I turn back I saw teukie hyung standing with kangin hyung beside him and seeing them tears falling in my face non-stop

“hyung…kyu..” I said as I don’t know what to say as I saw my lover in the state that I never encounter before

“kangin.. call an ambulance we need to go to the hospital..NOW!!!” leetuek hyung yelled and kangin hyung run outside and leeteuk hyung walk towards him

Leeteuk hyung carried kyu in the bed as I walk towards the direction they go into as worried are plastered in my face

“hyung..” I muttered as I get weak seeing him like that

“hyuk.. he’s going to be alright” he said as he hug me

“they are here” kangin hyung said and leeteuk hyung nodded as he carried kyu and run outside

“kangin tell everyone that we are leaving but don’t get too worried everything is alright.. get siwon he need to come.. hyunnie will be with the others ok?” leeteuk hyung said as he run and kangin hyung nodded as we go inside the ambulance and leave

As we are on our way.. I grab kyu’s motionless hand and hold it tightly..

Kyu.. are you leaving me.. you said you are ok right? You said you won’t leave me.. not now kyu.. not now.. I’m not ready for this yet… I need you right no.. I don’t have the strength if you leave me..please kyu.. fight for us..

-KANGIN’S POV-

“kangin tell everyone that we are leaving but don’t get too worried everything is alright.. get siwon he need to come.. hyunnie will be with the others ok?” leeteuk told me and nodded as I follow them towards the ambulance

As soon as the car leave I run towards the hotel and tried to find them but failed

I get my phone and texted everyone to meet me in the lobby and not a minute or so they are approaching me

“hyung.. wae?” kibum said as he walk towards me

“kyu..” I muttered

And they all look at me and also at the surrounding finding kyu

“what about kyu?” siwon ask as he look at me with hyunnie in his arms

“he was rush in the hospital a minute ago..” I muttered as I lowered my head and they all got shock

“leeteuk told me to tell all of you not to get worried and siwon..” I said as I look at siwon with those eyes I don’t know what’s the meaning

“come with me.. he needs you..” I said and he nodded

“hyunnie baby..” I said as hyunnie go and hug me as I hug back

“papa kangin.. what happened to appa?” he ask I can see tears in his eyes

With this strong kid right now I never know he can cry like this..

“he’s going to be ok.. don’t worry.. you stay with other appas ok? We will be back” I said and he hug me tighter

“I don’t want.. I want to come with you” he said

“mianhe hyunnie you can’t.. the surroundings there is not appropriate for you.. if everything ok you can visit your appa arasso??” I said with an authority voice

“arasso.. come back quickly” he said as he release the hug and siwon came back

“hyung..” he said and I nodded

“kibum-ah..youre incharge here arasso? Take care of hyunnie” I said as I stand up ready to leave

“ne hyung” he said and I nodded and walk towards the door of the hotel

As we on our way to the hospital texted by my angel to me everything was turning my head in to a disaster..

Kyu.. I know you to well.. you’re not giving up right? Fight for everyone specially for your family.. they are badly worried about you.. fight ok?

As those thoughts came into my mind I drive towards the hospital too fast that in a minute we got there and run inside..

I wonder what happen in the first place.. did his body give up already?