Chapter 40

-last-

As times go by kyu became weaker and weaker.. everything on him was a mess.. I never leave his side.. as I want to be with him every single time he left in the world.. yes.. I know.. he’s going to die.. even the operation that only left to make him live was no use at all.. it’s too late to do the operation.. it was just making the left memorable among  us..

“hyukiee!!” kyu said

And as soon as I look at him a flash of light came from the camera he’s holding strike my eyes

“yah!!!” I yelled and he just laugh at me

“give me that!!” I sad and snatch the camera away from him

“you always take pictures of me…” I said and walk beside him

“I want to take both of us” I said and pose then take a picture

“hyukkie.. no need for me to take pictures I’ll leave soon remember?” he said and laugh but I frown on what he said

I don’t want to hear those words anymore.. I don’t want to to remember that the time is very near.. that he will leave me..

But my thoughts are cut when hyunnie and the others came and barge in the room with those noise they can’t handle..

“yah!!!! You’re so noisy.. you’re in the hospital remember?!” I yelled and glared at them

“why so grumpy monkey?” hae said as he close the door

“kyu.. what did you said to hyukkie?” leetuek hyung ask and look at kyu

“nothing..” kyu said as he flash another shot among us

“seriously kyu.. stop taking pictures on everything” kangin hyung said and laugh

But everyone didn’t bother to hear what he said.. since everyone is not interested

“hyunnie come here” kyu said and hyunnie immediately jump off his sit and walk towards his father and we all look at him

“say monkey!!!” kyu said and position his camera on hyunnie

“ummmaaa!!!!” hyunnie said and I galred at the two and we all laugh and a flash can be seen again

“silly kyu” I murmured

“by the way.. kyu how are you??” leeteuk hyung said

“worst” kyu said and everyone look at him

“I feel weak and pain is everywhere.. too much pain is killing me bigtime” he said and I walk towards him to hold his hands

“but don’t worry I can manage the pain” he added and everyone look at him in disbelief

Of course no one will believe that he’s ok and he can manage the pain.. after all his illness is worst.. and anything can happen..

“cut the crap kyu.. we all know that what you are saying is not the truth” leeteuk hyung broke the silence and we all look at kyu

Kyu just remain silent and no smile is visible in his face

“hyunnie lets go out.. uhmmm lets go to Minnie!!” siwon said and hauled hyunnie out and I know hyunnie knows everything so he didn’t argue about it and go out

“leeteuk hyung..” I said as I can see leeteukh yung worried face

“don’t make the atmosphere happy if it’s not kyu..” leeteukh yung said

“then what hyung?? Make it worst?? Make you all worried and look for me.. think things that make you sad and down?! Is that what you want hyung?!” kyu said as he look at leeteuk hyung and we all look at him and I can see tears are forming in his eyes already

“no.. just tell us what you feel.. we don’t want lies kyu” leeteuk hyung said as he sit down and make his self calm down

“what?! That I feel horrible.. that every night I feel too much pain that sometimes I wish I would die immediately so I don’t feel any more pain?! That’s what you want?!” kyu screamed and soon pain can be visible in his face and he put his hands in his head and he screamed

“aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!” he yelled and everyone run towards him and look at leetuek hyung

“kyu..” leetuek hyung said as he look at kyu and soon kibum run towards the door and yelled looking for doctor

Soon the doctor came rushing as he look at kyu and injected something as he soon calm down and go to sleep

“don’t stress him too much.. it’s bad for his condition.. it’s getting worst actually” the doctor said and we just bowed our heads as we look at kyu sleeping

“to tell you the truth I think his time is near.. please make it his time memorable… it might be today or tomorrow.. we wouldn’t know so just make him happy” the doctor said and we all look at each other

As soon as the doctor leave we all sit down and look at kyu as he still sleep on his bed

“hyukie..” leeteuk hyung called me and I look at him

“ne?” I answered

“always stay on his side” he said to me as he lean on kangin hyung

I just nod and look at kyu who is sleeping peacefully

I walk on his side and and hold his hand and bow my head as my tears slowly falls on his hand

“kyu.. please don’t leave us.. im not ready yet.. I don’t know what to do if you leave me..” I whispered and cried

I feel a hand on my head and I look who is it and saw weakly smiling at me

“I won’t” he said

“kyu..” I whispered and cried more

“hyung..” kyu called leeteuk hyung as he look at me

“please leave this room for a while I need to talk to siwon hyung” kyu said and leeteuk hyung nodded and I look at kyu with those questioning eyes

“hyukie.. come with leeteuk hyung ok?” kyu said as he kiss my hands and I just nodded in response

As we leave the room  I glance at kyu and saw siwon walking towards him

We waited outside the room since kyu ask us to leave

“hyung” I called leeteuk hyung

“ne?” he said as he was looking at the floor and tapping his feet

“what are kyu’s plan?” I ask since I don’t really have no idea on what he wants

“I don’t know.. maybe siwon knows but it’s good if kyu is the one who told us” leeteuk hyung said as he look at me with those sad eyes

“hyung.. I don’t what to do if kyu leave me” I said as I look down

“don’t will never leave you.. ok? Believe in him” leetuek hyung tap my shoulder and I weakly smiled on him

As time goes by the door open and we saw siwon smiling at us but we know that he cried since his eyes proves it

“you can come in now” siwon said and smiled

I never saw him smiled like that ever since we know that kyu is sick I wonder why..

“hyukie.. can I talk to you?” siwon said as he walk towards me

Everyone look at me and I look at leeteuk hyung who was also looking at me

I look at siwon and he smiled at me

“ok..” I said as siwon walks out the room and I joined him going out

We enter the garden area as we seat at the bench and I look at him as I sit down

“what is it?” I ask as I look at him

“hyukie.. can you do me a favor?” siwon said as he look at me with those desperate eyes

“what is it??” I ask heart beat so fast as I look at him

“leave my brother” he said and I look at him with those shocking eyes

“what?!” I ask making sure I hear the wrong thing

“leave my brother hyukie” he said as he look at me

I look at him measuring things as he told me that.. is e making fun of me? he know how much I love kyu and I will never leave him no matter what!

“no” I said as I look at him

“hyukie.. please.. it’s for your own good..” he said as he look at me and I know he don’t want to say those things but something is making him say that

“no siwon! No! I love him.. I don’t want to leave him!! I promise that I won’t no matter what!!” I yelled at him and run as fast as I could as tears falling on my face

As soon as I reach the room I collapsed and cried.. didn’t I know that siwon chased me

“hyukie” he called me

“please siwon.. don’t say that.. I won’t leave him.. he needs me!!” I said as I cried and cried

“but hyukie.. you need to..” he said as he walks towards me

“no..” I whispered

“come inside hyukie..” siwon said and I look at him

He pull me up and carry me inside as everyone look at me with those eyes..

They know right? They know what’s happening..

I know my state right now is miserable but I don’t want to do it..

I look at kyu and he was looking at me with those eyes..

No.. kyu.. not again.. I won’t leave you.. I promised!! Don’t ask me to leave.. please..

As I walk towards him he sat down and smiled at me..

“hyukie.. siwon told you?” he said as he grab my hands and kiss it I just nodded as tears rolls down my face

“promise me you will do it ok?” he said

I look t him and cried

“no.. no.. no.. no kyu.. please” I whispered

“hyukie its for your own good.. and for hyunnie too..” he said and I can sense that he is crying too

“but kyu.. please.. I don’t want to do it..” I pleaded

“I know you love me.. no matter what I know that you’ll protect me inside of me, my love for you won’t grow old.. so trust me on this hyukie.. trust me” he said as he look at me with those tears in his eyes

“I won’t leave you hyukie.. ok?? But we need to do this” he continued

I hug him and cried

Do I need to do it?? Should I leave him and never be on his side??

“hyukie.. I love you.. no matter what.. I love you with all my heart remember that.. everything might forget my love for you but my heart wont” he whispered and I just nodded non-stop

“I love you too kyu.. I will wait for you.. I will trust you.. and never look for someone else” I said as I hug him

“leave me ok??” he said as he push me to look at me and I just look at the ground

“thanks hyukie” he said and kiss my forehead

Starting tomorrow I will never see him.. I will never hear him or touch him.. never see his smile and cry.. his voice calling me.. his touches and kiss.. there will no more Cho Kyuhyun.. no more kyu in my life..