(W) See You Later Kim Jonghyun
A FarewellI woke up today at 4:00am today afraid; afraid of the noises outside, afraid of the darkness, afraid of everything. My heart felt heavy and I wanted to cry, I felt that horrible shadow in the back of my head that is always following me, always stocking me and I felt scared, I always feel scared of that shadow and what it can do to me, how sad and anxious it makes me feel. Im scared because sometimes I think it's stronger than me and that his voices is louder than mine . With great effort I took my cellphone and I saw a text messege, a friend of mine telling me the news. It seem you too had this shadow with you, you were afraid too, you were sad too, you felt scared too. You were one the people in this world that gave me strengh and still I couldn't see your shadow as clear as I see mine and feel bad and sad about it. I cried a lot. In the meantime my shadow is still with me but its okay...I will live one day at a time, I will get stronger and run faster I so can leave my shadow behind. I will do it for me, for the people that care for me and I will do it for you, Jonghyun. I didn't now I had depression until a couples of months ago, I though this was just regular sadness and it would go away, but it wasn't so easy - so I understand why and I now you would have peace where you are now. I would keep doing my best here and I would keep using the strengh you gave me with your songs and I hope you don't get mad, because despite this shadow and bad thoughts, I still want to keep living I still want to keep doing my best here even if sometimes it hurts...I would keep living. See later Kim Jonghyun.
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