I Hate It
A FarewellHmm. Where to start?
Anyway thanks for making this space for us who affected by this amazing person
I became a shawol on Dream Girl era. I was watching weekly idol and found this man. I was really amazed by his personality which is opposite to mine. He was bright, funny, even his voice and the way he dance are so cool. And he is handsome. I officially became a shawol and started to find out who's this group. Since then, even though I started to love other groups like exo, infinite, cnblue etc, He was still my ultimate bias.
But, they started to promote as solo and I was like.. well okay.. my interest was lil bit drop for them.
Since then, I've loved many other groups and started to leave these boys.
I was shocked by the news, but not crying yet.
Then looked all the articles, watched the funeral, and read those letters were made me feel that this is real. He was gone. With tragic way. And finally the tears are drop. I realized that all this time, I was denying the fact.
I just wanna put my thoughts here, although I know it won't reach him
Oppa how come it end this way?
I know you want to end your pain, but as much as I loved you, I hate it
Will you be happy there? I hope so
Thanks for everything. You made me smile when I was down. You don't know me but I still love you. I hate the fact that what makes me happy was burden of you. I'm sorry for that.
Thank you for always shows your smile and your hard work, even though it hurts you so much. Again, sorry for not recognizing your feelings.
Saranghaeyo oppa. May you rest in peace.
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