The Ten Year Old Me Crying For You
A FarewellI woke up today, hoping I've woken up from a nightmare I've experienced on the 18th.
It wasn't.
It's real.
You're gone.
I thought I wouldn't cry, it'll hurt just a bit because I've known you since I was only ten years old. I've stanned for a long time and I still love you, I still do, it's just that a lot has been going on and how can I keep up with you when I couldn't even keep up with myself? But this was the ten year old me crying.
This was the ten year old me crying for you.
I broke down in the middle of the day, skipped my meals and locked myself in a bathroom just to stare into nothing. The tears were choking me, and I just couldn't find the energy to do things anymore. I loved you, I love you, I still do.
I just wished I could've checked up on you once this year.
I was too busy fixing myself.
I'm sorry.
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