That Rare Diamond Hard To Pass By
A Farewellgood morning, jonghyun-ah *my place already passed 12 a.m* hehehe how are you doing up there? are you still looking at us? you might be, right? or probably you're sticking with your brothers. I don't know, I don't know.
jonghyun-ah. to be honest, I don't keep up on you for these past months. I was too busy to keep up of any groups, I also had forgotten you. but I still listened to your song released on my birthday, 16 September 2015, End Of A Day. I still have it till the end, I guess hmmm.
I really liked that song, jonghyun-ah. I loved it.
you've been gone for 5 days now. I still find it hard to believe actually. I can't believe it, that on the evening I was laughing so hard with my friends, suddenly your song showed up in my playlist after being almost forgotten, it was the same evening you decided to leave. I don't know what to feel at that time. just speechless.
I had my class for the whole week, I restrained myself from reading any articles or watching any videos, because I was afraid, that I cried until I'm exhausted. I don't want people to see how much the news have affected me, since I wasn't your true fan to begin with. but from the moment I knew shinee since I was little, I know that you're that rare diamond hard to pass by.
but yet again, shinee is everyone's favourite, and you, leaving us, was really, speechless.
so yesterday I went home for Christmas, eagerly waiting for midnight, to open everything that I've saved before. and I let myself cry until my tears dried out. I really cried like a baby, hahaa. I never cried like that.
I cried so hard so that today and tomorrow and the next day, whenever I see any videos of you, I won't have to cry anymore. I'll just smile for you.
jonghyun-ah, I don't cry anymore. I won't cry anymore. you would want us to feel happy, right? that's why you made those songs. you want us to be happy, you don't want us to feel the darkness.
I'm sad but at the same time, I'm happy.
you really work so hard, even in afterlife, jonghyun-ah.
I'll write to you someday, somewhere, no, everyday if I have too, to let you know that I am happy, everyone's happy too. but I don't think.you would read it, won't you?
cuz you're always up there watching us. ?
I have to sleep now, jonghyun-ah. come and visit in my dream, in minho, taemin, onew and key's dream too. we'll be fine, you just rest well, okay?
good night, jonghyun-ah.
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