How Good
A FarewellIn light of Jonghyun's passing I know all of us are mourning. I am not a fan, and I can't even say that I understand and feel what shawols are feeling right now. But I have been following shinee for years now. My sister is a shawol. and I've been listening to their songs, every news, every comeback every controversy. I gifted her their album for her birthdays, special occasions and for whatever reasons. I have been hearing stories about them, about him growing up. How good of a person he is.
I have heard all the hardship they went through, every act of kindness they did, all the problems that they went through. I have praised them time and time again for their talent. For their perfect sync whenever they're dancing. Yes I have always referred to them as them. It has always been the five of them. Never it occured to me that there could be less. My sister has always been proud. Proud that she is a fan of such talented, awesome and kind idol. She always brag about being them being the most behave idols, and their fandom being the nicest among others. And it breaks my heart to know that the guys whom I have been hearing stories for years is just gone now.
Those five boys lives I've been listening to, is a member less. They are closer to my heart that other idols since they are my sisters bias group. It shows in my story. They actually have a role in my story. What happened is just pure sadness. I have lost a loved one before, it is painful, and I know no words can be used to say what his family and s are feeling right now. Our only consolation is that he is not suffering anymore. No more suffering for that guy.
I mourned in my own way. not the way others did. But in my own way I did. I learnt about his death on our christmas party. I passed on that party, knowing it wouldn't be right and would be disrespectful to party. I know I'm just talking to myself. Messages like this is all over the net right now. Nobody even reads this long author's note. I know, I just want to let this out.
Jonghyun, you did well, it's okay. Good bye.
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