(W) How Hard It Is
A Farewell
My baby Jonghyun did well, he worked hard , saved me from depression - when I heard "lonely" it hit me right. For the past 3 years I have been depressed and it was severe back in 2015, I collapsed many times and one time it caused me Hemiparesis. I’m the type to never let anyone know about my pain, an introvert person, so I know how hard is it. Even now I’m still having issues, so I know how it pained him way more because of being a celebrity which made him end his own life. He just couldn't take it anymore, he went to the point of not going back. I'm still in denial and can't accept that one of the people who made my worst days into good ones is gone. I always go watch Shinee being dorky and funny to get through my ty everyday life. I will miss him sooo ing much. I would be lying if i said I wasn’t disappointed, I felt betrayed because he did that at first, But I get sometimes you just let yourself go and let everything go you think that it’s time for you to rest ,I love you jonghyun I will always do <3
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