I Don't Usually Write
A Farewell Idon’t usually write... it’s just ridiculous but somehow, I really want to pour my heart out. The night the news broke out, I was studying for my finals and suddenly I just.. I felt so empty. I didn’t cry, I didn’t think too much, I studied until three in the morning with an empty heart, thinking to myself that oh... Jonghyun is really gone, right? But the feels hit me the following day when I thought back about the first time I saw SHINee, you have been my bias ever since. I love you for your puppy-like appearance, your cute smile, your voice, your personality. You are just simply amazing. I love it, the guy who was always grinning and cracking jokes, the diva, the one who always seemed to be the brightest star...
It pains me, knowing that you have suffered a lot. The time people hated you just because you fell in love.. The time you held a teddy bear and cried, talking about how you were hurt by other people. You looked like a kid and i cried with you.. But now that you are smiling with the life you choose, I respect your decision and I will smile with you. I will always support you and stay with you, even if you are no longer here.
I was so upset but I wouldn’t want you to live through every day feeling like dying. So Kim Jonghyun, if there’s an afterlife, let’s just be a normal boy. You don’t have to become a superstar or anything. Let’s just be someone with an ordinary life yet every day will be filled with laughters and love.
You lived well.
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