Jonghynahhh Saranghae <3 I love you ... I'm missing you ... <3
I entered to kpop world through Shinee.... My first song was lucifer .... Though I entered this world by holding onto them I became a hardcore Exol because... - I don't know why...Shinee is my 3rd bias group .....I'm an kpop from 2014 May.... Jonghyun is my 4th bias in Shinee but now I'm feeling guilty because I'm feeling like I'm one of those people who were the reason for his depressions... I know it's too late ..it's too late to say sorry... but I hope somehow my apology will reach him... I'm so so so sorry Jonghyun...God please give him all the peace he deserves.He's an angel with a beautiful smile...
lonely, Don't let me go, Breath are some of those songs I always listen to calm myself...to stop crying...these creations of him helped me all the time in all my up and downs...I never thought that maybe the person who is helping us to get out of depressions can also be depressed.. I'm sorry I never noticed that ...I was always a selfish fan who always cared only for her ownself... Thank you a lot for helping me all the time ... I hope my thanks will also reach you ...
I'm crying... My friends and family are shocked...they even scolded me for crying...but I can't stop them from falling...After you're gone now I know how much I love you ,i cherished you ..how much you meant to me ...and now I know you are one of my biases.... not my 4th bias or something that I used say to everyone..... but my bias from my bias list... and now I know everyone is equal from that list for me ... there's no ranking ....because you all worked hard for us...for me and..for all your fans.. I can't rank my biases ... you guys are my life .. that I cherish... now I'm feeling the emptiness...now I'm crying like a mad dog... Now I'm screaming and I'm saying you worked hard ... you are my fav..my bias...you all are equal for me ....but now its too late ... you're gone... I'm feeling so guilty... I'm crying... because one of my biases is gone... its feels like a bad dream very bad dream ... from what I wanna wake up.. The hardest thing for me is to say goodbye... I know you are not here... I know you won't make anymore songs ...bt you're still alive for me ...in your Mvs,songs,shows. Well we never met in real life ..you never saw me ..so I'm gonna pretend you're still here... my bias ...And I'm gonna love you and cherish you ... from now on I'm gonna introduce you as one of my bias ...not as my 4th bias ...I'm not gonna say goodbye... Because your songs are still there ....I can feel them...so you're alive ... I love you ...and I won't cry anymore ... You're my bias not<3
Trying to advertise this for the 18th but someone else is bidding really hard so I am running out of karma (already bought more for over 30dollars) so if you have some spare you are willing to donate, I would be really thankful.
I'm aware that it isn't December but I just thought of this post. December will never be easy for a lot of us. I'm more aware of my depression around that time. I just became an adult and the realization that a lot can change has finally hit me. I'm not sure how to feel. People within my family have died or are dying and it seems like the only thing I'm allowed to do is move on. I'm no longer given the luxury of grieving the way I had with Jonghyun. There are so many fond memories that I can go back to with Jjong but for them I only have memories. So much has happened these past few years and while I'm not completely okay I can say there's plenty of room where I've healed.
As year 6 approaches I want my fellow Shawols to know that healing is hardly a linear task. It's okay to not be ready but where you are there's always going to be SHINee.
And Dear Author thank you for keeping this space for all of us.
Thank you for keeping this space for us for so many years <3 This milestone hit me a lot harder than expected, but seeing this brought so much comfort. Miss you to the moon and back, Jonghyun <3
It’s been five years today and just a few days ago I turned 27, the age Jonghyun-ah was when we had to say goodbye to him. I have long since had to “become an adult” and learn what growing up means; yet every year I come back to this little space, and read some of the messages that people wrote for him, and think back to the letter I wrote at 22 and never shared with anyone. I think back to a memory of me looking at the full moon and talking to him for hours, telling him I missed him terribly. We still miss you, friend. I still remember you fondly. I still remember me at 17 dancing to Replay in my room. I’ll always cherish those memories of our Spring.
Author, I hope you have been doing well. Thank you so much for keeping this space running for so long, it brings comfort to some more than you’ll ever know.
Chapter 818: I just really paid attention to SHINee this August. Yet, when Jonghyun passed away four years ago, I felt sad that another beautiful and caring person chose to leave this place. In fact, I didn't want to listen to any SHINee songs then.
Now, watching SHINee's MVs, I feel like I have accepted what happened and hope that he is really happy now.
Time keeps moving on and I wonder why I can't just go back and fix things to when it was so peaceful. So much has happened in the last four years and it feels as though there's only SHINee left to comfort me. Jonghyun for so long I've written my letters to you and I couldn't this year because I couldn't find the strength or will to when I was feeling down. I haven't cried this much since I was a baby. I promised last year that I would tread the new year with caution and that didn't work out so great. There's more I wanna say but I just wish you knew how much I love you. Thank you for being born and sharing your light with the world. Sincerely I love you. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 ❤️
It’s been 4 years now and so it’s hard to believe that you left us, but I still do remember you as SHINee’s Blingbling Angel and as the brightest star that shines in the sky.
I used to feel so lonely after knowing that you left us, that I was listening to Lonely everyday for about a year, but now I just remind myself that you’re still with us, as the bright shining star watching over us from the night sky. ❤️
I will always love you.
i was InMemoryOfJonghyun!
just thought i'll let you know so you don't add this username again~ =]
anyways, good luck with the add and for all those who come here and are thinking of Jjong and of others and themselves.
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