Yunho walk through the short tunnel way through the large brick wall. There were other people also walking through the tunnel from one sunflower field to another. Everything he sees as he made it to the other end was exactly like the images he just saw.

The flowers on this side were taller, bigger and more beautiful. He walked the same path way as how he saw it, wondering from the pathway and into the thickness of the sunflowers. He gentle moved them aside exactly how he saw them being moved by the pair of slender hand in the image. As he walked he felt his heart racing loudly as he became more nervous. At the thought of seeing jaejoong turn toward him with a smile brighter than the sun made him feel excited. As Yunho reached the end, the bright blue sky came into view exactly like the images. He took a deep breath and prepares himself before slowly lowering his gaze from the sky to the endless field of flowers and lower to the ground below this hill top he is standing on. However what meets his gaze wasn’t the angelic smile he had fallen for but rather the empty space where he was expecting jaejoong to be. There was nothing but endless sunflowers that meet his gaze for as far as he could see. There wasn’t anyone else here except him almost like he is the only human left on earth surrounded by such bright flowers. The disappointed expression could be seen upon his face as a gentle breeze blew pass causing his hair to sway back and forth. Compare to the other fields, this one was quiet as not a single sound could be heard. It could be that he might have wondered further then he should until all the sounds have disappeared.

Yunho stood there before a pitiful chuckle escaped his lips. He couldn’t help but scolded himself for expecting too much for putting himself through this. What he saw are images and memory of someone else’s, who is he to expect the same thing will happen to him. He turns around and was going to continue his search for the missing man when suddenly jaejoong appear before him. Upon the sudden appearance, it startled Yunho so much that he ends up stepping back and his foot slipped on the edge of the hill. Jaejoong was as startled as Yunho was because he didn’t expect anyone else to know of this spot. When he saw Yunho slipped and started to fall backward, he reached his hand out to try and pull Yunho back but it was useless. They both end up tumbling down the hill and started to roll. Luckily this hill wasn’t steep or high. It was a short fall but the impact of hitting the ground below was enough to send a sudden sting of pain throughout their body. They both groan painfully as they landed side by side aching from their back where they end up landing.

“Are you okay?” Yunho asked as he turns toward jaejoong with worry “you didn’t break anything did you? No bruises? No cuts?” he started to examine Jaejoong like a worry mother over a fallen child.

“I’m fine…” jaejoong managed to respond as he forced his body to sit. Even though he said that, he could feel his ankle throbbing.

“Sorry…it was my fault…” Yunho apologize

“It wasn’t your fault…I startled you…”

They both sat on the ground staring at each other before they broke out in laughter. Now that they got the time to think about it, the fall was pretty unexpected. It must have been ages since they last roll down a hill.

“How did you find this place anyway?” Jaejoong asked still seated on the ground

“By luck I guess…” Yunho lied as he sat next to jaejoong

“Luck? Not everyone wonder off of the pathway and enter through the sunflowers you know…”

“Well…this is the outcome of searching frantically for you”

Jaejoong look at Yunho a bit surprise “why are you looking for me? Did you need me for something?”

Now it’s Yunho’s turn to look at jaejoong with a surprise, could it be that this guy didn’t even know he had caused them to worry when he suddenly disappear?

“It’s nothing…forget about it” Yunho sigh

Jaejoong only raised his eyebrow before turning his gaze from Yunho up to the blue sky. They both just sat there enjoying the beautiful view while the cool breeze dances around them.

“By the way…where did you go? Junsu stated you had wondered away?” Yunho finally asked after his curiosity got the best of him

“Nowhere in particular…just here and there….Junsu was dragging that Yoochun around like a food addict girlfriend wanting to try all kind of food…doing all kind of things…so I just left…I wondered around for a bit by myself….compare to before this place have changed a lot…there are more to do and more to see…”Jaejoong paused as his mind wondered back to the past when the first time he came here with the others. It was so much fun, there weren’t that many people yet so it wasn’t crowded like it is now. Even this area was still under construction and block off from the public. But Geun suk didn’t care as he convinced jaejoong to sneak into this area

Yunho could tell that jaejoong must have been reminded of his past time here base on the sorrowful expression on his face. Even though Yunho had wanted him to come here, he can’t help but feel guilty for bringing him here if this place holds memories that he wishes not to remember. Yunho wondered what he could do to turn that frown to a smile. Jaejoong was still deep in thoughts when he heard a few snapping noise and before he knew it, a large sunflower is brought into his line of vision surprising him. He turns his gaze from the sunflower to Yunho who is smiling at him brightly.

“I don’t know what kind of memory could be causing you to look so sad and full of pain…but please cheer up….”

Jaejoong look at the flower in Yunho’s hand before his lip curved into a grin “the sad one here is this poor flower stripped away from its live force…”

Yunho made a guilty expression as jaejoong accepted the flower

"Do friends usually pick flowers to give to their maile friend as a way to cheer them up?"

“not really...but...that is all i have to work with..." smile Yunho "...I have known you for a few weeks now and I have already seen you smile, laugh, irritated, angry, sad and even cry…” said Yunho

Jaejoong pulled the flower closer to his face to hide his embarrassment of that night

“but compare to all the expression that I have seen…I very much prefer your smile…I don’t like to see you in pain…I don’t like to see you be sad…so if…you are sad…if you are in pain…if you aren’t sure of what to do or feel lost…please let me know…I will listen to you rather it’s to let out some anger…stress…or just need someone there with you….if you need me for anything…just let me know and I’ll be there…Even if you need a drinking buddy in the middle of the night, I’ll be more than happy to drink with you until we passed out…” Yunho smiled “people say that it’s hard to forget the person you loved…the person whom you have given your all to…..it is especially even harder when that person died before your feeling could be known by him or her….that person died leaving you to wonder of what to do with these feeling of love…it makes one person feel lost for a very long time…to have your feeling be acceptable is wonderful…to have it rejected is a satisfaction of having an answer to your question of possible love…but not to get an answer at all leaves an empty void inside of your heart leaving you to always wonder about the possibility of it being return in full…but regardless rather you received an answer or not…love is still love…it is not wrong to love someone even if that person will never know it…all you have to do is held your head high and move forward acknowledging that you have loved…that is better than knowing you have never loved….”

Jaejoong became speechless unsure of what to say. Even Yunho’s radiant smile got his heart pounding differently than usual. He kept his gaze low as Jaejoong started to think about everything that Yunho had said, even now he still don’t understand why Yunho will try so hard to cheer him up or why out of all the people in this world would he choose jaejoong to be friend with. It could be fate that he meets Yunho that night at the karaoke. He had gone there like every other night trying to sing again but at the end it was a waste of time. He had wondered through the hallway before coming across two hall ways. Unsure which way to take, something deep in him was urging him toward his right. It was at that time that he heard the clinging of the door handle and heard a voice calling out for help. But he never expected that the day he opened that door was the day Yunho entered his life. Even the moment he first made eye contact with Yunho, it made him feel like this is was the person he was searching for, someone who will come to understand him. Jaejoong look at the sunflowers as memories of Geun suk flashed before his eyes.

“I wonder…” jaejoong spoke

“Wonder what?”

“If I should let go of this one-sided love…” he smiled

Yunho felt his heart filled with joy. He wanted to tell jaejoong ‘yes’ to let it go completely but he knows by saying this he will make himself look bad.

“To be honest…I don’t think anyone could ever let anything go…they will forget about it…it will not be as painful as before…it will just become a memory…but it will always be there…”

“So what should I do...?”

Yunho paused as he started to think before smiling at jaejoong “Engrave it here…” he pointed to the heart “mark it as a memory of love rather it was return or not…be proud of it rather than be disappointed or sadden by it…”

“Sounded almost like I should wear it like a badge”

“Exactly…even if the love you wanted wasn’t return, even if you never received the answer to your feeling…still wear it proudly not as a horrible memory but as an honor of being able to love this person with all your heart for what he have done for you…to love him from the sideline…to support him and be there for him…is more than enough”

Jaejoong paused as he look at the sunflower and remember when he came here with Geun suk chasing each other in this very spot ripping petals off of the sunflower.

“Oh right…I still need to text changmin that I found you…” said Yunho as he reached for his phone and was about to text when he heard a soft voice singing causing him to pause. He turns his gaze from his phone to jaejoong who had his eyes close as he started to sing.

(Song: Healing for myself)

Yunho law his gaze lower as he sat there in silence listening to jaejoong sing of love and lost. Like before, the lyric was sad and meaningful filled with so much pain. He could feel his own heart breaking along with every word that is singed by jaejoong. Just sitting there listening to this beautiful man sing of lost love tighten his chest. Yunho turn his gaze from his feet toward jaejoong expecting to see an expression of sorrow however he was taken aback by a gentle smile. Jaejoong was singing with a smile on his face, a gentle expression that doesn’t seem to fit the meaning of this song. It got Yunho to wonder what exactly is going through that head of his. After a few minutes, jaejoong concluded the song with a satisfying smile as he open his eyes staring into the bright blue sky. Yunho couldn’t take his eyes off of him, it was as if a new light was glowing out of jaejoong filling him with so much warmth and beauty.

“Thank you Yunho…” jaejoong turn to him and smile feeling like another burden has been lifted

It took Yunho a few seconds before responding “you’re welcome…”

“Should we head back to the others?” jaejoong asked

“y-yea…they probably worried about us by now…” said Yunho as he stood up and dust the dirt from his pants.

“you said that I can ask of you for anything right and that you will be my support?”

Yunho raised an eyebrow “yea…”

“then I’m going to need you to carry me” said jaejoong a bit embarrass

“why?”

Jaejoong pointed to his ankle “looks like I might have sprained my ankle upon the fall”

Yunho look at jaejoong is complete shock “Yah!! You should be telling me these kinds of things in the beginning!” he snapped before bending down

“I’m fine...it doesn’t hurt as much but…”

Before jaejoong could finish his sentence, Yunho had already lifted his injured leg to be examined startling him. Jaejoong could tell Yunho was worried as he looks at his injured ankle. He couldn’t help but chuckled a bit upon the seriousness reflected on Yunho’s face

“This is not a laughing matter jaejoong ah…” Yunho snapped

“Sorry…sorry...please carry on…”

Yunho did just that as he rolled up jaejoong’s pant and removed his shoe before looking at the little red pump on his ankle. From the look of it, it wasn’t that serious or that bad but it will need some ice pack. Yunho figure it’s better not to put the shoe back on as he held on it. He then bends down and offered his back to jaejoong.

“Come on...I’ll carry you…”

“I was just kidding you know….just let me hold onto your shoulder as support” said jaejoong as he attempted to stand up.

Yunho was not having it as he lifted jaejoong off of the ground in a bridal style. This shocked jaejoong so much that it took him a few seconds to realize what happen.

“Hold on okay…” said Yunho as he started to try and climb back up the hill top

“P-p-put me down Yunho…I can walk” jaejoong spoke as he tried to get Yunho to release him

“Stop moving…I don’t want to drop you…” said Yunho in a worry and serious tone of voice

Jaejoong look at him one bit before sighing “fine…but please don’t carry me this way” he spoke of embarrassment

“Why?”

“It’s not right for one guy to carry another guy in this position”

“I don’t see anything wrong with it”

Jaejoong sigh once again “please…just carry me on your back…otherwise I don’t know how to face you afterward”

Feeling like maybe jaejoong really doesn’t like this position; Yunho finally let him down gently before turning around and offered his back to him. Jaejoong sigh once more before leaning down over Yunho’s back. He circled his arm around Yunho’s neck as Yunho reached back and held onto Jaejoong’s two slender legs. With one quick move Jaejoong is lifted from the ground surprising him. He had never been carried this way before. Being this close to Yunho he could feel that even though Yunho looked weak, he actually packs some well-toned muscle. Before Jaejoong could prepare his mind, Yunho tossed him up a bit before holding onto him tightly against his back.

“ready?” Yunho asked

“y-yea..”

“Your leg okay?”

“Yea...”

“Good…” Yunho smiled at jaejoong making him speechless as his heart started to beat loudly.

With determination, Yunho climbed the hill top hoping to get to the top without any difficulties. Along the way, Jaejoong was cheering for Yunho waving the sunflower in his hand back and forth.

“You know jaejoong ah…” Yunho spoke after making it up half way

“what?”

“You really shouldn’t stop singing…”

“you going on about that again…”

“I really mean it…you have a gift…a beautiful voice....”

Jaejoong paused a bit before speaking “you really like it that much? Even though you had only heard me sing twice?”

“Since the first time I hear you sing…I found myself unable to forget it…it makes me want to keep hearing more…and I know I’m not the only one who feels this way…” said Yunho as he nearly slipped but didn’t. From his point of view, it wasn’t only the flower that got taken care off but even these soft and slippery grasses.

Jaejoong didn’t say anything for a few seconds before speaking “if you make it up this hill top...I’ll consider not giving up…” he grinned thinking Yunho will not be able to make it up there carrying such a heavy baggage like him.

“Really?!” Yunho asked with so much excitement that it will make Jaejoong feel bad to take that back.

“Y-yea…”

Feeling like he got the motivation he needed, he held onto jaejoong tightly before forcing himself up the hill. Before jaejoong knew it they are now standing at the top of the hill where there had taken the fall.

“You better stick to those words jaejoong ah…” smile Yunho brightly as he tries to catch his breath.

“y-yea…” was jaejoong’s only response feeling like he was starting to lose to Yunho on everything.

Meanwhile Changmin stare at the object that had escaped the safety of the little blue box. It laid there a feet away from the blue box visible to the eyes.

“Hurry up changmin ah” Junsu called to him

Without wasting anymore time, changmin quickly reached down and picks up the object and the box. He stuck them into his pocket and quickly made his escape just a few second before one of the staff who monitor the place walked by. She looks at them strangely and gives changmin a questioning glance considering the fact that he was trying to catch his breath.

“I hope you guys aren’t up to something” she asked

“Nope…nothing at all madams…we are just…admiring these flowers…” Junsu smiled

She only glances at them before walking further toward the exit. Once she is out of sight, they let out a relief sigh.

“so did you find it?” Junsu asked

“yea…I found it…”

“well…let me see it”

Changmin hesitated a bit but none the less he took out the box for junsu to see.

“You two were digging for this?” Yoochun asked unimpressed

“Did you see what is inside?” Junsu asked

“nope..” changmin lied

“then lets open it up” smile Junsu as he was about to open the box but changmin stopped him by taking it back from Junsu

“You can’t…not yet anyway…”

“And why not?”

Changmin sigh “Junsu ah…whatever is in this box is not meant for us to see…if it was for everyone to see, Geun suk wouldn’t have buried it here…far from where we all lived…”

“Wait…Geun suk buried this thing?” Yoochun asked

Changmin only glared at him before walking forward as he stuffed it into his back “either way…I think we should not open it yet…”

Junsu could tell changmin is hiding something. There is no doubt about it, changmin must have sneak a peek inside behind their back and doesn’t want them to see it. They made their way out and back toward the front gate. Changmin received a text from Yunho stating he had found jaejoong and is on their way back. This was the meeting place for everyone. After waiting for a few minutes, they could see Yunho walking toward them not too far away. What surprises them is the fact that he is carrying jaejoong upon his back that have a sunflower in his hand. For one thing could they even pick a flower? Changmin watched as Yunho and jaejoong talk to each other without even noticing them at the gate. They were smiling while chatting and even shared a few laugh together.

“Don’t they look like a couple?” junsu blurted out the words that was going through changmin and Yoochun’s head

“Why is Yunho carrying Jaejoong?” Yoochun asked a bit jealous of Yunho

Changmin couldn't help only grinned at Yunho wondering what he pulled to be able to carry the so call ice cold law student

“His shoe is missing…” said Junsu “could jaejoong have injured himself?”

Junsu’s question was answered when Yunho reached them and confirmed that jaejoong had sprained his ankle when they fell down the hill. Junsu was as worried as Yunho was before scolding jaejoong for wondering off on his own. Jaejoong could only apologize to him like a child who wondered off even though his parent told him to stay put.

“Did you find it?” Yunho whispered to changmin

“y-yeah…I did…”

Yunho waited but didn’t get anything else “well? Where is it?”

“oh…uh…it’s in my pocket”

“let me see it…”

“I was thinking…let’s wait till we get back home…after we drop you know who off…we will look at it…”

Yunho on the other hand didn’t seem to agree with changmin but he didn’t want to argue about it considering that jaejoong is injured and need to go to the doctor to get his sprain ankle look at. After everyone is ready, they started to head on home. The drive back was more exhausting but as quiet. Junsu and Yoochun had fallen asleep while Jaejoong is looking out the window deep in thoughts. Yunho could see jaejoong’s reflection upon the side mirror. It wasn’t until jaejoong also took notice of Yunho using the side mirror to look at him did Yunho quickly averted his eyes and look to the front.

“Will you stop that” whisper changmin

“Stop what?”

“Stop gawking at him…”

“I was not…”

“Yes you were…it’s disturbing…”

“How so…”

“It’s like you are a stalker…so cut it out…”

“How is that like a stalker…?”

Changmin only sigh “you know what…never mind…do whatever you want…”

Yunho only look at changmin strangely wondering why he is so snappy all of a sudden. After 2 hour drive back to Seoul, changmin made a stop at the clinic for jaejoong’s sake. As they expected, Jaejoong did sprain his ankle as the doctor placed a wrap around his ankle advising him to be careful. The recovery will take at least a few weeks before it is completely healed. Yunho on the other hand still felt like it was his fault. If he hadn’t fallen, jaejoong couldn’t have fallen with him.

It was junsu and Yoochun who was dropped off first before stopping in front of jaejoong’s large house that still amazes Changmin every time he sees it. Yunho got out of his seat as he helps open the door for jaejoong and gently help him out of the car. Yunho was extra careful not to accidently bang the injured ankle on the car. Jaejoong was more than happy to receive such help but he thinks that Yunho might be exaggerating this little sprain a bit too much.

“will you be okay?” Yunho asked

“Yea…I can make it to the front door…after all…the doctor did give me these crutches…” said jaejoong

“I see…” Yunho spoke a bit disappointed as jaejoong started to make his way toward the front gate.

“Yunho…”

“Yea...”

“thank you….for taking me with you…even though I didn’t want to go…it was probably what I needed…” smile jaejoong as he went inside

Yunho could feel his heart flattered with joy before getting back into the car.

“You look happy?”

“Of course…he smiled…” said Yunho happily

Changmin on the other hand thinks Yunho is getting to happy; he is basically setting himself up for a heart break. Being such a longtime friend of Yunho and someone who had always been with him, he can’t help but worry.

“Yunho…can I ask you a question?”

“Sure what is it?”

“Do you still want to be friend with jaejoong?...”

“Of course…”

“Let me finish….do you still want to be friend with jaejoong or do you want to be his lover?”

“L-lover? Why are you asking that? Me and jaejoong is just friend…”

Changmin didn’t smile or laugh…he had on a serious expression as he kept his gaze toward the front “I need a serious answer from you Yunho so I’ll know what I need to do…I don’t want a half assed answer or an answer from being influenced by those images you have seen…I want a honest answer directly from your hear…”

“What do you mean?”

“Please just answer...”

Yunho look at changmin a bit before turning his gaze to the front “You know that I am attracted to the blonde man in the images that I saw…you know that I might actually fallen for that guy…but meeting jaejoong was a different case…I wanted to be his friend but…now that I know the blonde guy is actually jaejoong…it’s as if those feelings I have been feeling took over the feeling of friendship…”

“In other words…you were influenced by those images to love jaejoong…”

Yunho didn’t say anything as he recalls all t hose images he saw of the blonde jaejoong and then his own memories of being with jaejoong. It’s as if his memory is merging in with those images blending them together that sometime it makes him feel like those images were his memories.

“It did start with the images….but the more I spend time with him…the more I learn about him…the more my heart couldn’t keep still…even without seeing those images…I will still love him” Yunho spoke softly

Changmin became quiet as the rest of the drive was in silent. When they got to the apartment, Yunho stepped out.

“Yunho…” changmin called his name “here…I think you should be the one to keep the box…”

He handed the little blue box to Yunho who took it.

“Whatever decision you make…is now up to you…I won’t interfere anymore then this…but be prepare if you wish to open that box” changmin smiled before waving good bye and drove away.

Yunho stood there a bit dumbfounded by what changmin had just said as he looks at the box in his hand. It was smaller than he expected it to be. He turns until his eyes laid on the little lock on the front. He traced his finger over it and a part of him wanted to open the box but another part of him didn’t want to, fearing what could have been buried inside. To be honest, he might be scare to find out what is inside….what if it’s something that will forever take Jaejoong away from him? What will he do then? Should he just bury these feelings that are starting to make sense? After much debate, Yunho decided not to open the box feeling like it wasn’t his right to look inside when this box isn’t even meant for him. It will be like he is invading someone’s privacy for his own curiosity. But then it leads to a question, what is he going to do with this box? Should he give it to jaejoong since it has some ties to him?

When jaejoong made it inside, his family was shock to see that he had sprained his ankle. His mother was making a big deal about suing that place but jaejoong wouldn’t let her stating it was his fault. They were going to lecture more but jaejoong wasn’t going to hear it as he made his way up the stairs and toward his room. Once the door closed, he could breathe freely again. He placed the flower onto his desk before hoping toward his bed and lay on his back staring at the ceiling. Even though the day didn’t start out as he expected it to, the end he couldn’t deny the fact that he had fun being carried around by Yunho until they meet up with the others. He took out his cell phone and look through his contact list until he spotted Yunho’s name with his cell phone number. Just remembering how nervous Yunho was asking for his number was funny especially how his face lights up the minute jaejoong give him the number. He then open up his gallery app and look through the number of pictures that Yunho and he took together. They were smiling and enjoying themselves even though he was injured. Yunho didn’t have any problem carrying him around on his back and even though people were staring, they didn’t care. He even remembers the scolding they got when the staff found out they had picked one of the sunflower. Yunho took the blame and kept apologizing to the staff until they forgive him. Even when the staff allows them to take that one flower with them, Yunho give jaejoong the peace sign like he had just accomplished something great. He kept scrolling through the pictures until he stopped at a picture of Geun suk smiling at him. Its as if he had completely forgotten about this picture that was taken so long ago.

As painful as it was looking at this picture, he didn’t feel the lingering pain anymore. The sadness seems to have faded as the memory he now shared with Yunho seem to lessen the sorrow that he have been carrying around for a year. Jaejoong sat up on his bed before noticing the sunflower sitting on his desk. His lip curved into a smile before he deleted the picture of Geun Suk finally putting the past behind him. After all, what is the point of driving himself crazy over a one sided love that will never bloom in the first place.

Changmin also made it home as he felt more exhausted than anyone else on this trip. It took everything in him not to punch Yoochun and even endure his presence was tiring. He took off his sweater and tosses it onto his bed and was working on removing his shirt before hearing something hit the floor. He turns his gaze to the object that is rolling toward him until it stops at his feet. He bends down and picks it up before looking at it with an expression of guilt wondering if what he is doing is the right thing or not. He sighs before walking over to his desk and took out a little box he has stashed between his books. He opens the cover and placed the object into the box. The ceiling lights reflected upon the pure silver ring that will forever live in the darkness.

Just under the ring a special engraving could be seen “Forever my love will be you jaejoong”.