Amber’s POV

It’s been a month after that painful tragedy,

but somehow the pain in my heart doesn’t lessen day by day

and the scar she left in me is still visible and bleed at a time that I don’t need it to bleed.

I’ve tried to shrug it off, I’ve tried to convince myself to be happy

to forget about our memory together

but sometimes the sympathy of people around me tick me off...

There are people who are really concern about my condition

but there is also people who just want to make me the center of their gossip arena.

I remember that one ‘fine day’

I was at Pragma café sipping my favorite chilled Americano and custard,

wearing my headphone but I didn’t play any song.

To be honest

I wish I did play any song at that time

 

Because the conversation of two girls who sit behind me really hit me hard

“Hey, isn’t she’s the one who’ve been left by her fiancée?”

“Yeah, it’s her. I heard her fiancée left her because she was just a wedding singer”

“Aww..that's too bad...Aren’t they together for so long?”

“Yes. I heard they’ve been together for four years. 

Well, I guess the woman just want some assurance in her life?

Besides, I heard the guy that she dated now is one of the leading businessman here”

“Yes, the Oragon Company. I heard they have been together since the last four month.

Remember, we see them date here last month?”

“Oh yes yes… I remember now. I feel bad for her”

I was speechless with what they say. Why I never detected any obvious change in her?

So she’s been cheating on me even before she went to her hometown?

It never crossed my mind how she have the gut to cheat on me.

How irony this situation to me.

She always remind me to never look at other woman other than her

never give my full attention except for her

never hangout with my friends except with her permission.

I thought she was insecure since I was known as social butterfly with all my friend so I just let it slipped

and I think because of that, most of my friend, especially girls had lost contact with me

since she always said that they are only after my attention and want to snatch me away from her.

It's funny how she always ask me to never cheat on her, but it was me that was cheated later on.

I can feel a bead of tear roll down from my eyes on my cheek.

I hastily remove the stain with my hand and left the café.

I hate the sympathy that they throw

I hate how they try to spice up their conversation by saying how unfortunate my condition right now

how stupid I’ve been for trusting her with all my life

It make me look…..

 

 

 

pathetic?

 

 

 

 

But, even though I was hurt so deeply,

I still try my best to put on the best smile when I’m hanging out with my friend.

And today, I’ll be working once again as wedding singer.

Yes, the not so grand and inexpensive job that become one of her reason to leave me.

But before I go to work, I think I need some fresh air to freshen myself and

clear my mind from useless thinking of her.

Besides, the wedding will start at 9.00 PM, now it’s only 5.30 PM, still early to go to work.

I grab my skateboard and go to the park that are located four block away from my apartment.

There is actually another park near my apartment,

But, well, that park use to be my date place with her every weekend.

 

 

 

‘Not any more Am, stop reminiscing’ alrighty brain, I know you want the best for me.

I skate to the park and round the park to freshen my mind a bit

and let go of any tension that have been bugging me.

I sit at the bench facing the small lake at the park.

The air is so fresh that it does help to soothe my raging emotion a bit.

But…

 

 

 

I’ve never thought that it was only for a while.

 

 

 

Far away on the other side, I saw someone familiar with her partner.

 

 

 

 

 

It’s her….

 

 

 

 

Ellin and Paul

I can hear my heart beat unevenly,

I can feel the blood in my face drain to nowhere,

I can feel my face becoming pale because of it

and I can feel the wound in my heart start to reopen again.

She link her arm with his and he pulled her closer to him.

They sat at the bench that are facing opposite of my current bench.

They were laughing and enjoying their ‘date’ here.

Then he leaned closer and capture her lips and their kiss are getting deeper and deeper.

I no longer have the strength to watch them.

I can feel that the wound that she cause me had reopen again,

I can hear my heart shattered to piece again and maybe some of it had turn to dust

I can feel the tears that start to blurred my vision.

‘Why are you so weak Am? Don’t torture yourself anymore’

Tell me how can I be strong brain?

How can I be strong when the main source of my strength and happiness

have become the main source of my torture and sadness?

It never crossed my mind that I can be hurt by someone this bad. Especially her.

I wiped my tears and start to go away.

I went home, change my attires and I want to go to work.

But, I can feel that my mind is not where it should be,

it keep on rewinding their kissing scene.

ARGHHH!!!

Go to hell with everything! Before I’ve known it,

instead of going to work, I went to the underground bar opposite the hall.

I went and ask for the strongest drink that they have.

I have a quite tolerance with drink, so I guess it’s no problem for me.

I can hear the band at the bar start to check on their music instrument.

I look at my watch, it’s 6.30 PM. I will stay here for a while.

I look at the band, they look promising

and seem to have a good future based on how much audience that had come to watch them.

 

 

“Hello everyone... We are The Script”

*people clapping*

“Today, we are going to perform one of our song

that are composed by one of the member in the band, hope you guys enjoy it”

They start to play the intro of their song,

‘they have quite a unique genre’ I say to myself.

Maybe, this is the power of underground band most people don’t know.

Underground band is one of the underrated band for most people,

some people think that underground band is a trash,

belong to the underground only,

but trust me,

underground band can compose and produce their own song,

sometimes, no, most of the time, better quality than the mainstream band,

even the mainstream band sometimes buy song from the underground band.

Why I know? I don’t want to show it off,

but I come from an underground band too before I become a wedding singer.

Unfortunately, my band split because of

some problem that I doesn’t want to remember.

Enough with the reminiscing,

let’s just enjoy their performance.

I was enjoying their intro

until

 

 

I hear the lyrics of the song,

 

 

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in

'Cause I got time while she got freedom

'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even

Her best days were some of my worst

She finally met a man that's gonna put her first

While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping

'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're OK?

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving

And when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even... no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're OK?

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces

(One still in love while the other one's leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh, you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain

You took your suitcase, I took the blame.

Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, ooh

'Cause you left me with no love and honour to my name.

I just froze there.

The lyrics.

It match perfectly my situation with her.

I can feel my tears start to well up in my eyes

and it can roll down anytime from now.

I wiped the tears form in my eyes and start to drink again.

Trying hard to forget everything.

Krystal’s POV

Where is she?? It’s almost 9 PM and she is nowhere to be seen.

I know that she’s not over that b*tch,

even when she try hard to smile and laugh when she hanging out with us,

I can see the emptiness in her eyes

and the faded smile that she keep on wearing.

All of us know that she was just pretending to be happy,

but we don’t want to talk about it,

afraid that she will try to do stupid thing like before that

ended with her being hospitalized and almost pronounced dead.

Yes, the doctor almost pronounced her dead when she was rushed to the hospital before.

She lost too much blood and unfortunately 

their blood bank at that time were run out of her blood type.

Luckily she h