Amber’s POV

Where am I? Everything around me is so dark. I can’t see anything.

Am I still alive? Am I dead already? I stood up and walk around but I found nothing.

Everything is in the dark.

Maybe

This darkness signify my broken heart.

How my world crumbled and start to disappeared after what Ellin do to me.

I don’t know what I had done before that make me in this kind of situation.

Did I deserve all of this?

When I’ve poured all my love to her, 

is this how she pay everything that I’ve done to her?

Why Ellin?

I thought you were the best but you got me feeling worse,

I’m looking at the rest but I always put you first,

and that sh*t that make me mad cause it’s given you the nerve,

the nerve to push me to the point where I will never know love,

I wish I never gave a about you,

I wish I never let you in, cause I hate the way I think right now.

I kneeled down and punch the ground. I just punch it until I felt numb.

I just want to cry out loud when suddenly I felt like a rain drop at the back of my hand.

I looked up and see a bright, blue sky.

It’s so….

beautiful?

“Please don’t go Am”

That voice…

Krsytal?

Is that you?

“Ughhh” I opened my eyes slowly…

White ceiling, the smell of medicine. I guess I’m in hospital right now.

“Amber! Thank god you’re alive” I looked to my leftside

its Krystal, together with Min and Scott. Victoria and Luna is also there.

I smiled weakly. So I’m still alive huh

‘God is giving you second chance Am, grab it’ hehh, I miss you my brain

and for the first time, my brain doesn’t argue with me.

‘Gain more strength and I will start to argue with you back. And I miss you too’

alrighty brain, I will.

I want to straighten myself but I failed.

Krystal assist me to sit straight. I look at them.

I feel so guilty to them because I’ve made them worried about me.

I should apologize to each of them.

*BAM* I was startled with that sound

and I see Minho running and stop in front of me. Panting hard.

“What the hell are you thinking Am?!” he shouted at me.

I can see that his tears rolling down his cheek.

Oh my god, what have I done?

I just wish that I die rather than seeing them crying.

I realized that I’ve cried too looking at my best friend, the tough Minho, cry in front of me.

“I’m…sorry guys” I can’t hold it any longer and I just cry out my heart.

Someone hug me tightly.

It’s Minho.

In this room, Minho is the one who know me the longest.

Even though he’s sometimes silly,

but at times like this, he had this brotherly figure that make me feel safe in his embrace.

“Don’t ever do that again okay Am… I know how much you are hurt inside

But please, don’t take your own life for that kind of girl, please Am” he pleaded to me.

Both of us just continue to cry not minding other people inside the room.

“Hey Minho, you will lose your reputation as a #1 playboy if someone see you cry like this”

I try to crack a joke to Minho. He chuckled between his tears.

“Yeah, I will become the #1 cry baby instead” I guess he’s a bit okay now since he can joke around.

We loosen our hug and wiped each other tears.

“Brotherhood goals. Minbro and Ambro” Luna’s statement really make our day.

All of us just laugh when she said that

“Yah