JONGHYUN’S POV   “N…” before she could say no I already did start again. I fondled her as we kissed and damn this girl is poisoned by my charms especially when I started kissing her neck. She would softly moan and I can tell she’s trying to suppress them. The same scene we had first kissed during the graduation party. The only difference is we’re both not drunk. I wonder where this is going.    “W…wait.” She said breaking our kiss.   “What? You’re ruining the mood.”    “I can’t do this. Not with you.” What the hell is she saying?   “Not with me? What are you trying to say?” I asked.   “I hate you. I HATE YOU!”   AND THEN SHE TURNED INTO A MONSTER! A REAL MONSTER. LITERALLY.    “Hey. Jonghyun. Wake up!” Hmm? Wake up? Wake up?    “WAKE UP!” I opened my eyes. Oh sh*t. I was dreaming?! AISH! DAMN IT. Why did I dream about something like that? Ughh! SH*T!   “Your girlfriend left you already.” Said Key. Hmm? Yeah she’s not here. Where the hell is she?   “Oh…where is she?” I’m a little bit tipsy.   “She went downstairs already. I think. Go to sleep. I’ll bring Soo Ri and these guys along. Go.”   “Okay. Thanks.” I went downstairs and I thought I would find her beside the railings like in my dream but she wasn’t there. Okay it was just a dream. A DREAM. But why am I kissing her in my dream? Ahhh sh*t. I reached our room downstairs and knocked first before going in. Gawd. I’m so anxious. She opened the door.   “Oh…it’s you. You don’t feel well?” she asked touching my forehead. I feel awkward. I had a different feeling when she started to touch me.   “Uhh…I’m okay. I just have a headache.”   “You sure? You’re all red.”   “Yeah I’m sure. Don’t worry about me. Just go to sleep.”   “Okay. You get ready for bed now. You look so tired.”   “Yeah okay I will.” Eun Na. I need you to stay away from me first. I don’t know what that dreams effect to me is. Get away before I hurt you! Waaaaaaa. I’m turning crazy!   I rushed inside the bathroom and sat on the toilet seat cover. Oh my gawd. I…I…am really ughh. I don’t know. Why am I feeling this way? I’m really confused. I can’t stop thinking about that dream. Does it mean anything to me? No? Yes? Maybe? Ahh sh*t. Eun Na…Eun Na…Who are you in my life? I went out of the bathroom still confused and I saw her lying down and sleeping already. Damn I need air. I’ll sleep later.    I went out and sat just beside the railings. I was on the floor. Okay? I need time to think. Placing my hands on my face while I thought about everything I was doing. This morning I did try to kiss her and then in my dreams we made out. What the hell. But it’s only just a dream. And that stays there.    “Jonghyun?” Oh dang.   “What are you doing here?” I asked.   “I heard the door closed and I’m sure you went out so I’m here checking on you. Are you sure you’re okay? If you feel bad tell me.”   “I’m fine. I just needed time for myself.”   “Oh…I’m just going to go back downstairs. I don’t want to be a nuisance to you. I’ll just see you tomorrow morning.” She said and then walked away.   “Eun Na…wait. It’s … okay. You can stay.” I tapped the empty space beside me and then she walked towards me and sat on it.    “Jonghyun…if there’s something wrong you can tell me.” she said.   “Eun Na…”   “Hmm?”   “How much do you love me?”   “Why are you asking?”   “I just wanna know. Just answer.”   “Well…I’m sure I can’t measure it because it’s too big. To tell you the truth, I never thought that I would really fall for someone like you. I mean you’re rude and boastful and a playboy but then you started to tease me and when we pretended like we were couples I learned to love you. I know its sounds corny so don’t laugh. But I assure you I’m telling you the truth.”   “I’m rude, boastful and a playboy. Okay. I get that a lot.” I chuckled.    “I’m just really really disappointed when you told me you can’t love me because I was expecting you to do so. If you could measure how happy I am when you told me you’d try, you won’t be able to because just hearing you say that is much more I could’ve asked for.”   “I still wanna try Eun Na but sh*t happens and ruins everything.”   “Just forget about those sh*ts you’re talking about. Be good to me even for tonight only. Besides, no one’s spying on us.”   “Spying? Hye Jin?”   “Who else? That evil little brat y demon wannabe is just so so so so heartless. You are so not good at picking girls. Ahh wait. Except me of course. You picked good when you picked me. I mean when you married me.”   “Now you’re being too proud of yourself.”    “Mmm…I’m just really proud of myself for marrying you.” She said while laying her head on my shoulders and closing her eyes.   “E-hem.” Wait. Why am I clearing my throat?   “Something wrong?” she asked facing me. I shook my head.    “I still smell like vodka. You shouldn’t be so close to me.” I said.    “I don’t care. I like sitting beside you.” She is really something. SO CONFIDENT TO SAY THOSE THINGS.   “Eun Na…thank you.”   “For what?”   “Just…thank you.”   “Okay. Come on…let’s go to sleep. You inhaled too much oxygen already.” She stood up and helped me. She pulled my hand as we walked to our room and she never let go even though we were inside already. I looked at it a