Will it hurt, will it hurt if I love you?
It would hurt out of longing for you, thousands of times a day
Lies, lies, when you said that you loved me
Since I can’t see your eyes, I can’t know your heart

Taecyeon POV

“You were changed” she said while I take her home tonight

“What do you mean?” I just furrowed my eyebrows

“You weren’t like usual you”

“Like what?”

“Every single things”

“Since when you concern about single things about me?” I can’t felt my nervous on my voice

She just sigh and look away

“Jessica…”

“You never call me Jessie or babe again, you never sleepover at my place again, you often ignored my messages and the biggest thing is, you never kissed me since one month ago”

“Really? I never touch her in one month?” I said it in my mind

“It’s not like that….” I gulped “Jessie”

“So what?” she crossed her arms “You bored with me?”

Why can’t I say that I was tired like hell because of her? Because I can’t feel love from her or because I had another woman in my heart although it’s over. Why I can’t say those words?

In the middle of my confusion, we already arrive at her apartment. I just follow her into living room. When she just stand with no meaning and give her back to me, I turn her and try to kiss her. She try to push me away but I grab her waist

“Just answer me, Ok Taecyeon. Are you bored with me? Are you tired with me? Didn’t you ever feeling love from me?”

I won’t answer those question. I just grab her back and pull her to me although she try to push me away again. I kiss her lips, our first kiss on the month. I can feel she take a back but I grab her waist. When I trail down my lips into her neck, she let out little moan in the middle of her cry.

“Why? Why are you cry?”

“You didn’t answer my question”

I push her into the couch and hover at top of her

“You don’t need the answer” I ed her shirt when suddenly she slaps me

“Do you think it can be over like this?”

“Babe?” I rub my cheek, sometimes she has strong side. Ouch, her slaps is amazing

She didn’t say anything but get into her room. Once again, I just follow her. She change her clothes immediately then lying on her bed. Back facing me again. I can’t resist to not hug her from the back. I think she was very tired so that she just silent when I back hug her

“Jessie” I kiss her crock of her neck when she just let out heavy sigh

“Jessie, I love you”

“…..”

“I’m sorry”

“…..”

“I had another woman”

No answer but she cry again

“But I love you, I always love you Babe” I tighten my hand at her waist “I won’t loose you. It’s all over””

“We are”

“No Jessie” I kiss her hair “She and I”

“How could you….”

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry Jessica. I love you”

She release my hand from her waist and get up. She head to her balcony and lean forward to the fence. Once again I back hug her again. I know she always like when I did this thing, but she is very mad now I think.

“I’ve said before, do not ever lost from me” she said when I trailed my lip on her hair. It was very long time I didn’t kiss her, smell her or hold her

“I’m not”

“You did”

“I know I’m wrong but I have a reason”

“Reason for cheating behind me? Great Ok Taecyeon. You think you’re cool doing something like that?”

I take her and put her into top of her chair that make she startled. I put my arm on her back when I kiss her again

I know I was craved it for a long time

I know I was very fool when I decided to cheating her

I know I can’t leave her

But I hurt her

I push my lip toward her when she put her hand on my shoulders. I know she already give up for pushing me away. I trail my lip on her neck when she bites her lower lip giving permission. I open her night wear and trail my lips down to her chest. She just playfully trail her hand on my neck and my hair when she moaned

“Again, Oppa. I need more that this”

She place her legs around my waist when I take her inside to her bed.

“Babe, I want you” I whispered at her ear

“I want you too. You’re mine”

“I’m yours” I pull her night wear and throw it. And we make it

“It’s been a long time” she said in the middle of her moan and pant “I need you”

“I can make it just for you”

“Oppa!” she yelled at me “Slow”

I kiss her lip, prevent for her yelling again. She push my chest when suddenly she grab her clothes and make a way to living room

“We need to talk”

I can feel her cold tone, it can be serious. I pull her and take her into my embrace again. Kiss her lips roughly, try to undress her again. But she slaps me again. Two slaps for me in the night, enough I think

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