( earlier 2012 ) 

" but unnie i really want to spend my party with yonghwa " seohyun said 

" our company doesn't allow you dating yet , and you inviting him over will make them put you under observation , it'll be even impossible for you to talk to him on phone " hyoyeon said reasoning 

" i just want to be with him unnie , and no one else in this life " seohyun told her unnie with teary eyes 

" please hyuni , stop these tears , i have an idea " hyoyeon said 

" what , what unnie ? " seohyun said excited as she clasped her hands together in excitement 

" we'll invite super junior guys and yonghwa we can invite him with jungshin so , we'll just tell the company we invited everyone initially " hyoyeon said

" unnie are you sure it's okay this way ? " 

" sure " hyoyeon said winking at seohyun 

" although i'm not that close to SJ oppa's but let's do it .. " seohyun said 

( later at the party ) 

tiffany whispered to hyoyeon " he didn't come yet " 

" it's weird we already invited him and he said he'll come " hyoyeon said 

" what if he didn't come !!! seohyun initially did all of this just to spend time with him , look at how excited she is right now " tiffany said pointing a finger toward seohyun 

" i'm afraid ... what if he doesn't take seohyun seriously , he disappears just like that whenever he feels like it " hyoyeon said worried 

" i'm really worried about seohyun~ah , it's her first love and i hope she'll not be scarred by it for a life time " tiffany said sadly

( later after the party and at SNSD dorm ) 

seohyun went to her bed quietly , covering her face with sheets 

" hey maknae " both hyoyeon and tiffany kept irritating their maknae until they uncovered her face 

" why are you crying , stupid " hyoyeon said irritated

" seohyun~ah , talk with us , that will make you better " tiffany said 

" i think ... he doesn't love me ... " seohyun said and kept crying hard 

tiffany and hyoyeon looked at each other at loss of what to say to make her comfortable 

" maybe he's busy !!! you know he's an idol " tiffany said reasoning 

" he promised he would come ... he could have sent me a text earlier but he didn't either " seohyun said crying 

" i'm sure he got his reasons " tiffany said 

" maybe he's dating another girl anyway " seohyun said with a shaky voice 

" eeeh !! wake up seohyun~ah i'm sure he loves you , like he talks with you for hours over the phone , and him glancing you whenever you're around , his smile too he's just screaming he's in love with you " hyoyeon said 

seohyun frowned at hyoyeon , shaking her head " maybe i'm just a friend , a comfortable friend to him " 

tiffany looked at hyoyeon shaking her head slowly , she knew that yonghwa got no excuse for what he did , so they couldn't help him anymore 

( one week later at music bank ) 

seohyun entered a waiting room looking around , she found yonghwa there 

" oh , yonghwa .. why are you here " i said as i looked away , i didn't want my eyes to expose my feelings anymore , maybe it's time to let go of those feelings forever 

" jungshin told me to wait for him here ..... i guess he was just playing around after all " yonghwa said and looked the other way too 

" aha .. ok .. guess nothing to be done here .. see you later " i went to open the door to get out , i couldn't breath with me being with him longer than this 

" wait .." he shouted

my heart was racing hard , i turned around to look at him , that man he looks so innocent with his toothy smile , warm eyes .. but he messed up my feelings a countless times , i knew falling in love would make me weak but he just turned me out into a fool 

" i'm sorry about the party " 

" it's ok " i said , and we were quiet for a moment until i asked with a shaky voice " but why ? " 

" huh ? " his glance wondered around looking for a lie to tell me 

" i want the truth please " i said , yeah i'm not afraid anymore , if i'll let go of this love i need to be stronger from now on , i told my self although my knees were shaking , what if he told me that he was with HER .. i should congratulate him as always like i've always done 

" the truth ..." his eyes froze on me suddenly , looking at his eyes my body froze too 

" i was happy you invited me to your party , i was truly happy ... but then kyuhyun told me you invited him personally too , so i knew it wasn't special ... so i was ... " 

" wait !!! you are saying you thought it wasn't special enough so you didn't come ... something like that " i said confused 

i wanted to laugh .. i got hurt , cried the whole week , and thought how i was stupid every day for loving my virtual husband but then it was because of this .. 

i looked into his eyes frowning , i wanted him to know how silly he was as i said " sorry it wasn't special .. i had to invite them all personally not just kyuhyun to cover up inviting you too , i wanted to spend time with you even by going against my company rules ... all what i did was just so i can invite you .. only you .. " 

my tears how stupid if they fell now in front of him , how stupid would that be ..

" i'm sorry juhyun " he said in regret , wiping my tears with his thumb .. i started to wipe my tears with my shaky hands .. how stupid 

" i was jealous " he said after he closed his eyes tightly 

" jealous !! wae !! why would you .. " i said confused as hell  

" because  ... i love you .. " he said as he kissed me a gentle kiss , he looked into my eyes again 

i was a little confused but happy for sure , that time i just forgot whatever happened before that kiss because my mind went blank after ...   

that incident wasn't the first time yonghwa acts like that , actually at WGM days the first mildang yonghwa has done was because of his jealousy too , he did it when he knew that i'm collaborating with TRAX , i never understood that his mildang was because of this until i understood yonghwa later , i understood him and that's why we are still dating for all these years .. 

later he acted like this whenever he gets jealous , and everytime he did that i thought whether he loves me for real or not ! if he's always that ready to let go of me for whoever shows interest in me !! .. it was hard those feelings and thoughts i had when he disappears suddenly , anyway it's been a while since he did his mildang , cause now he turned them all to be his friends , all the men around me were already in his circle of friends .. 

it was the best solution for me and him , his jealousy problem wasn't solved but covered up .. 

and when i got the wild rule Seo Scarlett i knew that yonghwa will do it again any moment .. if he knew someone showed interest in me he's gonna just abandon me like i never existed before in his life ..  

i thought let's prove him wrong this time and solve his problem forever , if he gave me his trust i'm sure we'll end up satisfied both of us , when he knows that all what he feared was non sense anyway .. 

i thought .... BUT .... 
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( back to SAOS restaurant ) 

my gaze was following yonghwa walking out rather the jinmo steps who's coming toward me , i wondered what does he want !! but i got a bad feeling about this 

" seohyun , i'm sorry about what i said earlier ... i made you feel uncomfortable for sure , i know you are dating ... but ..." jinmo said 

but ? ... i glanced yonghwa who froze in his place 

" i know you are dating .. but what can i do if  .. i like you " jinmo said looking into my eyes 

i frowned a little trying to understand what's going on , am i getting confessed to in front of my boyfriend , i just thought about yonghwa's feelings ,  i glanced his eyes , and he frowned in disbelief .. i lost my voice and all the words were stuck in my throat , yonghwa started moving again but toward us !! .........

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( 4 days ago at seohyun's villa ) 

" juhyun juhyun " i heard my name in my ears softly which was ticklish , but i was so tired i couldn't open my eyes in response ..

" hey, juhyun wake up " 

when i heard that , i opened one eye and got hazy image of yonghwa's face , i thought why is he here ? what time is it ! , i lost the track of time thinking wether it's morning or down .. my body is aching so i said with a tired voice " yongie , 5 mintues more please " , then i hugged my pillow & slept smiling widely ..

" wahhhhhhhh " i screamed one moment later cause yonghwa tickled my foot   , " choding yonghwa " i screamed while laughing and standing on the bed from the shock .. 

" good morning pretty " he said to me while smiling 

" yongie please , one day i may get a heart attack because of this " i said while sitting on the bed again holding my heart 

" never heard of that possibility , getting heart attack over this " he said giving a cheeky smile 

" anyway what time is it ?" i picked up my phone , it says 7:15 a.m i was shocked , it's 15 minutes past the time to wake up for the practice , i jumped from bed running toward the bathroom ..

i remembered about yonghwa being here , so i ran back to him cupping both his cheeks and giving him a quick but passionate kiss 

" i'll take a shower ,baby " i said then ran to the bathroom again but screamed in the way " sh*t , i forgot about the rule arghhhh "  

i heard yonghwa laughing out loud before i closed the bathroom door ..

( 10 minutes later ) 

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