" hey maknae ! would you mind having a seat !! " hyoyeon unnie shouted and snapped me out from my thoughts ..

my unnie got irritated as i walked aimlessly in the living room , holding my phone tightly .. 

i went and sat on the couch my eyes were on my phone rather than the tv show my unnies were watching .. 

dubu came and sat on my lap and i caressed her fluffy hair , and hugged her tightly .. 

the thing that made me restless was 

I WANT TO GO BACK HOME !!! 

it's not like i hate the dorm but back at home i was expecting yonghwa any moment but now i barely get his phone calls , i think it was such a reckless decision getting sulky and moving out immediately ! we should have talked about his hurtful words - don't meddle in my work - rather than avoiding him ..

and now i'm not sure how to take my words back and go home without losing my pride .. 

i lectured him about distancing himself when he gets insecure yet i'm doing the exact same thing , avoiding him when i get sulky ..  

i sighed in depression 

" i'm going to sleep " i announced to my unnies as i stood up and went to my room 

i was laying on the bed , holding my phone to set the alarm when it rang in my hands , i glanced the caller and my heart jumped 

" yongieee ! " i said as i answered the call immediately 

" oh ... hyun~ah ! that was quick ! so you were waiting for my call after all " he said teasing and giggled

" me !! AHAHAHA , sorry to disappoint you but i was just holding the phone by chance to set the alarm " i said mocking him but ended up regretting, i should have just said it that i missed him too

" so it was the alarm after all ! as expected from cinderella  " he replied with a disappointed tone and my heart ached 

he continued " anyway party is doing so well ! congrats " 

" thanks .. " 

" take care and don't over work your self " he said and i clinched my grip over the phone .. i hate it when we end up as awkward strangers .. 

" yongie , how is work ? " i asked 

" the CEO didn't end my contract yet , but i assure you i'll find another job once he does , i'm not going to starve " he said mocking 

" it was your album that i'm asking about " i said with a low tone 

" ah the album , it's going well and the CEO is satisfied so i thought you would be satisfied too eventually " 

" yonghwa ... " i called him in attempt to stop his non sense talk 

" i finished composing most of the songs , but still i got a lot of work to do " he said seriously 

" ah really ? ....... mmmm your comeback is going to be in September right ? " 

" aha " he replied 

" so what about the songs you wrote ? " i asked 

" what about them ? " 

" i mean , nothing sweet for your lovely girlfriend ? another love light or something " i asked as my cheeks were flaring with heat , that was embarrassing 

" mmmmm .. well .. mmmm " he surely took his time thinking about it and i had to save my dignity so i talked again

" by the way yongie , i'm sorry about yesterday , my unnies were so distracting " 

" it's okay , i just hope you're comfortable wherever you chose to stay " he said it , indirectly telling me that he's aware that i moved out on my own 

my heart trembled but i couldn't lie again denying so i fell speechless 

he softened his tone " you promoting these days and all , i thought i would hate it because it will snatch you away from me .. but after all it ended up my only opportunity to see you almost daily - on tv - " 

i listened to him shocked , i wasn't sure what to feel about his words , but they just enhanced the heaviness in my heart , i bet his heart is lighter now that he said it so i envied him ... he had the courage to say his love lines while i was afraid to say a mere - i miss you -  

" yonghwa ... although we got that kind of clumsy relationship but i'm learning along the way " i said seriously gulping the emotional storm within my heart ... 

i heard an embulance's siren in the street that moment , and weirdly enough the sound echoed from yonghwa's call too ! NO WAY !! 

i jumped from my bed running toward the window , i took a look at the street searching for yonghwa's car and it was really there !! my heart almost dropped in my feat from the shock

" yeah i'm sure you are " he said and continued " anyway i was just missing you so i'm saying all sorts of non sense things ... never mind me " 

i was already at the wardrobe shuffling my coats with one free hand 

" i have to end the call now ok ! " i said before i hung up in a hurry , i was wearing a sleeping-in long shirt and i was afraid he would just leave any moment so i choose a Burberry coat to cover up the mess i'm wearing ... 

i ran towards the exit door ..

" yaaah !! is that a pajama you are wearing underneath !! " taeyeon shouted in a shock as she saw me  

" eh lady juhyun is going public with a pajama " hyoyeon unnie commented , i went outside and took the elevator as i worked on buttoning the coat 

i nervously walked in the elevator in small steps , praying that he would be still there in his car waiting outside my building ! 

when i went out the building , i screened the street multiple times with my glance but his car was nowhere to be found so i got that he left already 

i returned back to my room dragging my heavy heart ! he said he's busy at FNC but he was just calling me while waiting outside my building instead

stupid yonghwa ! why would you leave without seeing me ..

i looked at my watch and it was past midnight already , i had an early morning schedule too so it didn't make sense that i would start strolling the streets searching for him at this time of night .. 

but i did it anyway ~ 

i took my car later that night and went to FNC to see him , if he's really busy as he told me then he would go back to the agency .. 
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~ FNC building 12:45 a.m ~ seohyun POV 

i arrived FNC garage and got off the car , taking steps toward the entrance , unfortunately a finger print was required to access the building as i thought .. there was no reply for the text i sent to yonghwa 10 minutes earlier telling him that i'm coming to FNC .. most probably he's busy and didn't check his phone yet .. 

i walked back and forth in the garage waiting for yonghwa's reply or even appearance .. 
 
moments later i heard a group of people inside the building getting closer , i retreated back in a hurry getting away from the door , i couldn't afford answering questions about me being here at such a late hour at another entertainment agency .. 

as i watched over them stealthily , they were a group of young guys that i couldn't identify so i hid in the shadow behind my car until they walked away 

" whenever we meet , you're hiding from something ! "  i heard someone talking to me from behind 

" waah " i screamed in panic as i held my heart so it wouldn't jump out from my chest

i gathered my senses back and turned around , and unfortunately it was the trainee blonde guy again from last time 

" nice to meet you again " he said with a blinding smile excited 

while i frowned cursing my luck for meeting him again , i bowed to him with a fake smile and walked away from my car casually avoiding him as i glanced my phone , my logic begged me to just go home right now ! 

 but then i remembered yonghwa and my heart hoped that my phone would ring or yonghwa would come down to get me

" so why are you here ? " he asked as expected from the deadly curious him , wherever i took steps he was just sticking to my shadow

although i knew he would ask but i wasn't ready to give an answer , i turned around looking at him 

" it's just ... for work " i said whatever word came to my mind 

he glanced his watch " surely enough sajangnim never made it past midnight before ! FT hyungs are in japan and i'm sure you have nothing to do with my trainee colleagues who just left .. so the only one who can pull an all nighter in the company .. is no one other than yonghwa hyung !! " 

my throat got occluded with the shock , so i couldn't manage a breath or a gulp , let aside talking .. 

he looked at me with empathy as he suggested " are you stalking him ? " 

" OF COURSE NOT !!! " i shouted 

" that over reaction says it all " he said as he giggled and i glared at him in irritation 

he kept blabbering non stop " i never thought seohyun-ssi would have such a side to her ! but waiting for yonghwa hyung at his company past midnight i don't think it's the right way to reach out for him " 

i breathed in and out to keep calm , i assured my self that i have just to keep up with his random talk and that's it 

he wrapped an arm around my back guiding me " you should just go home , a pretty girl like you shouldn't stroll the streets past midnight " 

i slid away from him in a shock - geez why is he so touchy " OK got it " i said irritated  

the entrance door slid open that moment 

" juhyun ... " yonghwa said once he saw me with a worried expression .. 

his glance fell on the blonde guy , so he held back " ... -ssi " 

he looked at me with questioning glance 

" yonghwa-ssi ! what a coincidence " i ended up saying awkwardly and he acknowledged the whole situation 

" heh ! coincidence " the blondie murmured and giggled 

" jonwoo , why are you still here ? " yonghwa directed his words to the blonde 

" i was preparing for the requested project with the other trainees , they just left a moment ago too " he said and yonghwa nodded 

jonwoo leaned toward me whispering " next would be .. why are you here seohyun-ssi ? so get ready " 

i pouted my lips looking away and avoiding yonghwa's glare 

" do you know each other ? " yonghwa asked confused

" yes " jonwoo replied / " NO " i replied 

" is that so .. " he said with a cold tone acting uninterested 

" are you going home already , hyung ? " jonwoo asked and i held yonghwa's gaze

" no , i can't go back now i have a lot of work to do " he said directing his words to me and his cold glance squeezed my heart 

he continued as he massaged the back of his neck " i just forgot something in my car , later guys " he said and went toward his car 

i froze watching him walking away , i made it here but didn't get the chance to hold him tight or tell him about my feelings , that i miss him too as much as he does or even more .. it's all because of that clingy guy jonwoo 

" why is he acting like a jerk ! " jonwoo said and snapped me from my thoughts 

" never call yonghwa with names !! " i glared at him 

" so you really do have feelings for him after all " he assumed with a smirk 

" i'm going home " i said and walked towards my car 

" wait ! " he shouted and hurried to block my way , he handed me a sticky note 
as he explained " that's my number , i can help you if you wish " 

" help me with what ! " i asked clueless , i got no idea what was he talking about 

he sighed as he said " seriously , your WGM ended years ago and i think he moved on completely from you , but i think we can give it a try - for him to look at you again "  

i drew a fake smile on my face as i opened my car door and got in " i don't think i need ... " i was saying but he interrupted me 

" don't mind the way he acted earlier , he has been in a bad mood lately  " he said seriously and that surely got my attention

he continued " he spends a lot of nights in the company even when he got nothing to do there "

" why ? " i asked with a faded tone as my heart throbbed

he looked around to make sure no one is listening and lowered his tone " honestly , i think he's not happy with yuna or whoever he's dating right now ! so you've got the chance to snatch him away " 

the words were like having a cold shower in a freezing early morning , i hardly found the words to speak " is that so ! " my voice cracked as i said it 

" are you okay ! " 

" i am ! thanks for everything " i said smiling , i showed him the note he handed me " i'll call if i needed your help " 

he nodded

i got in my car and drove , i knew that i don't need anyone help , i just have to be honest with my self when it comes to yonghwa , honest with him too 

i received a text on my phone so i parked at the road side 

(( my phone was silent so i never noticed your text until later ... 
did you need something ? should i come to see you !)) from yongie 

i replied (( nothing serious , i just missed you so i wanted to check on you .. 
keep working hard  )) 

(( i miss you too ..
i'll wait for your text when you arrive the dorm safely )) from yongie 

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next day 10:00 p.m ~ yonghwa POV 

i parked my car in the garage and took the elevator to my apartment's floor.. 

yesterday i went to seohyun's dorm but couldn't dare to ask her for a quick meeting as i just poured my irritation over the call instead and lost my chance ..

i was craving to see her in private for a minute or so rather than knocking her dorm's door again .. the last time i went there gave me a serious headache rather than it being caused by the continuous interruptions of her unnies , their teasing comments and their hobby to break the moment ... 
it was caused by the half-hearted hug and the kiss with seohyun , she was close yet so far away .. 

my heart is suffering in this long distance like relationship , whenever she gets sulky or a misunderstanding happen , i have to endure for days my lingering feelings for her .. i have to receive what she gives contentedly without demanding yet she's the one who distances herself first .. 

i held my phone as i looked at her name but hesitated to call , she's still at the dorm so i wonder when things will go well with us ! 

i opened my apartment door , and took steps to the bedroom as i sighed in depression ..

" what are you so depressed about ? " i heard seohyun asking and almost had a heart attack

" that almost killed me you know " i said frowning as i glanced her on my bed 

she giggled " that what's called a surprise " 

i glanced her once again with more esteem , she was wearing my white shirt and rolled up the sleeves , literally she mimicked the style she likes me to wear , the white shirt was transparent enough to reveal her black underwear set , with a wavy beautiful hair and full make up she was glowing y ..

however i thought about it, all that i could do at that moment was just to join her in bed , consuming my very last bit of dignity and control - i managed to sit on the bed edge with my hands off her !!! 

" why are you wearing my favorite shirt ! " i said with a shaky tone trying to calm my racing heart and burning body 

i felt the bed dipping behind me , then the next moment she surrounded her arms around my chest back hugging me , i was engulfed by her heavenly body warmth and softness , i shut my eyes to magnify my other senses as i acted calm .. 

she said with a beautiful voice " wrong , it's my favorite shirt on you " 

it was hard to think properly at the moment but still i couldn't ignore my confusion ! she was able to avoid me for the past whole week and she even moved out in the process so why now she's all eager to satisfy me ! what happened exactly for her to loosen up although i still didn't apologize , nothing changed since that day we discussed the CEO issue !! 

i turned my face to the side and met her steamy glance , filled with passion and longing , our heavy breaths entangled 

 " still it's unforgivable , you should have asked for a permission before wearing it " i murmured with an almost audible tone , with a dry throat and needy body 

she whispered " it's okay ... i'll take it off now " 

her words were more than enough for my blood to rush through my veins , for my heart to almost explode and for my hands to rush exploring her ... i took her lips immediately for a demanding hungry kiss , she giggled excited while my arms secured her close to my body , as i laid her on bed ...

her hands roamed my body sensually and i couldn't get any more hotter , my hands reached to her shirt while sealing our lips , too much excitement and i didn't know what to do exactly to satisfy her or me ..  
the kisses were steamy and intense as we were losing our last bit of control , i was more than ready to take her ..

she moaned and the familiar tone woke up my whole senses for her , i almost forgot how passionate she is when it comes to love ... almost forgot ! my heart stung processing the word .. 

i pulled back as i held her gaze intensely , trying to manage my heavy breathing " so why are you here ?" 

" i love you too " she replied in the heat of the moment before she widens her eyes in a shock !! 

" what ... ! " she was deadly confused as her hands froze resting on my back 

i traced the back of my hand over her neck and she bit her bottom lip gazing at me , i went all the way to trace her ribs and her body shivered , she moaned again and i was getting rather than her , torturing myself instead of her  .. 

" do you have any idea how much i missed you the past days .. wanted to touch you like this and get those responses from you " i said with a cold tone and she nodded trembling , her hands surrounded my neck 

i continued as the palm of my hand traced all the way down to her bare thigh " you knew but still avoided me .. " 

" yongie ... " she whispered as she shut her eyes tightly letting out a soft gasp

i buried my face in the crook of her neck as i murmured " i'm really angry , otokee ! " 

she clinched a grip over my shoulder as she said with rusty tone " i'll take whatever punishment " 

my heart rocked harder against my chest , i retreated back clenching my teeth and gazing at her , she opened her eyes and held my gaze seriously 

the thing is , she never thinks about how much i'm suffering when she avoids me being sulky and all , yet she immediately demands it once she gets deprived and needy .. we haven't even solved the CEO issue yet she's here because she's at her limits .. 
what about my feelings , what about my aching body , burning soul since the very first night we got separated 

" i thought we didn't solve that issue yet " i said seriously , i would say something while angry and she takes it to her heart , - don't meddle in my work because you don't have to worry about it , it should be me who protects you anyway - that what i meant initially , while she just thought about it as if i'm saying you have always been a pain in my career !!! 

she sat on the bed staring at me as her hand d her ed shirt " i came here to spend time together " she said gulping her awkwardness 

she continued " we have a rest day tomorrow , i was lonely at the dorm and i thought you would hate me go clubbing with hyoyeon unnie , so i wondered if i could spend the night here with you " 

i stared at her with empathy and nodded , however i'm barely pulling myself together so i had to escape this room 

i stood from the bed to get out " i'll work in the other room " 

" hey yongie " she called and i turned around , she jumped and stood up on the bed and caught me between her arms before i could escape farther 

" yongie it's still early .. let's do something fun together it has been a while " 

i distanced between us as i raised my glance to meet hers " alright , but first - change into something else and leave my shirt alone " 

" i don't want to !! " she whined acting cute , she continued seriously " it got your scent and warmth " 

she shut her eyes as she traced the collar with her hand " firm yet gentle just like your touch " 

i forgot to breath watching her provoking show , and i knew that she started her challenging war already ! 

" good for you , although i feel bad that a mere shirt is able to satisfy you as much as i do " i said and she chuckled , my hands worked on buttoning her shirt 

she rested her hands on my shoulders as she asked with a depressed tone " so , for how long are you going to keep the long face ? " 

i gulped as i raised my glance to her eyes again " until you understand me " 

she widened her eyes in a shock " i do " 

" you don't ! " i said fir