x double update - part 1 x 

~ 10 : 00 p.m ~ three days after banyan tree event   

i sat at FNC cafe sipping my americano and waiting for seohyun to finish her schedule as she went to SM after her performance at the music program ..

  (( hyun~ah , what should i do ? i'm waiting at the cafe but girls keeps on flirting with me !! :/ )) i sent to her as i giggled    (( really !! they did ? how weird !!  )) from hyun ...  she replied and i chuckled as i knew she would say something along those lines    (( why is it weird seohyun-ssi ? ~_~ )) i sent to her nagging    (( because the whole nation knows that you're mine )) from hyun , i had a mini heart attack and smiled    (( please whoever you are , return the phone back to seohyun , that isn't funny )) i sent to her joking    she sent me a cute selca with a text (( it's me , your hyun ))   i giggled as i continued sipping my americano   ~ later ~ 11:00 p.m    " finally !! " i said sighing as soon as she stepped a foot in my car    she giggled " you should have just gone home yongie "    i leaned giving her a peck kiss on her lips " and waste this kiss opportunity !! no way "    she laughed shyly as she took off her hoodie and asked " how is the OFD seoul's concert preparations going ? "    " we already managed everything and i think we are ready for tomorrow "   " really !! " she got excited suddenly glancing me and i nodded    ~ we arrived her villa's garage later   " dubu will be mega happy seeing you tonight !! she keeps on lurking at the door waiting for your arrival since it's been a while " she said excited and i couldn't help but to smile    " dubu really knows my value , i'll compose a song for her later " i said smiling teasing her    " dubu's omma is excited too you know " seohyun said smiling and i caught her playful glance , why is she getting more pretty every day i wondered    " let's gooo ~ " she said excited and held the door knob    " hyun~ah !" i called her before she opens the car door    " wae yo ?"    i sighed in depression resting my head on the wheel and looking at her , i couldn't ignore her words at banyan resort , how she'll get tired from her comeback schedules and it's hard for her to cope with a boyfriend coming over too .. her schedule for tonight was long enough already    " good night " i said cautiously as i knew that i'm breaking her happy mood but isn't she the one who caused this situation in the first place by refusing us to live together with her arrogant feminine weird reasons    " you're not coming over although you're already here ! " she asked shocked and disappointed    " sorry my love " i said as i held her hand and printed a kiss over it , i continued " i'm just preparing for the concert so i'm a little busy and you have to rest too "    she stared at me confused and ended her frozen state with a heavy sigh "ok but you have to get enough rest before the concert tomorrow or you'll end up sick "    " i will "    " hwaiting ~ i'll cheer up for you " she said cheerfully and i replied with a " hwaiting ~ " too ..    i hardly drew a smile on my face , although i miss our time together , having dinner or laying on a couch with her , i truly miss her .. but i should give her time to rest after all , i couldn't ignore the honest talk we had that night at the resort ..   " good night ~ " she said with a low tone and i wonder if i'm imagining her longing glance    " good night my love " i said, swallowing my own longing as i gave her a light kiss on her lips .. so soft so tasty and now i'm losing my mind for her , i broke the kiss and stayed still our lips inches away barely breathing , thinking if i should give a more satisfying serious kiss or not ..    " you smell nice today hyun~ah " i said as a sweet scent evoked my senses , i shifted my nose sniffing her neck    " it's the usual though " she said clueless about how i'm terrified right now   i took a deep breath as i retreated back " see you after the last concert "     " see you " she said casually and waved her hand with a goodbye before she gets off   she closed the door and i called her again " hyun~ah "    " wae-yo ! " she asked clueless as she rested her hands on the window panel gazing at me   " you look so pretty tonight " i wonder why am i torturing myself     she smiled " i know " before she leaves , i clinched my teeth irritated as i hit the wheel with my palm " aishhh " just as i think about it i get more angry    ---------------------------------------------------- next day ~ 1:00 a.m after OFD concert ~ seohyun pov   i walked back and forth in my room worried  he didn't call me after his concert , he always would call or send a text but this time he's different .. what's more worrying he didn't even give me his seoul concert ticket ! he would always give me a ticket even if he knows already that i can't make it , but this time he didn't even consider it ..    i kept thinking about it - where did we went wrong exactly , last time we met at banyan tree resort we had a good time and we cleared up any misunderstanding, right !!    yesterday too he dropped me home and left immediately , he said he's busy but he could have had a dinner with me at least , even his kiss was half-hearted one ...  did he get bored of me ? could it be he's cheating on me !!! no way , he must be just busy - i said as i nodded assuring myself   i held my phone staring at it , i checked the messages and missed calls again making sure there's nothing from him .. should i call first ? but i don't want to be clingy though .. a message came and my heart jumped in anticipation..    (( the concert has ended , good night )) from yongie    i stared at the message with a roller coster of feelings , that was too cold yonghwa !! maybe he's tired , i should be thankful he found time to text me ... right ? WHATEVER .. i called him right away ..   " hyun~ah , you're still awake ! " he sounded tired , my heart softened for a moment but then i remembered his message and got angry again   " yeah , how was the concert? " i asked as I repeated- SELF CONTROL   " it was fun "    " i wish i could have been there too " i said softly reminding him that he didn't even consider inviting me   " nah , you don't have to " he said it casually !!!!!!!!! at least he should have said - i wish you were there - ! SELF CONTROL   " yongie .. "    " yes ? "    i let out a soft sigh that surely made it's way to his ear    " what should i do if i miss you ? " i said with a low tone while closing my eyes waiting for his husky voice to fill my ears   " i miss you too ... anyway it's getting late already and you got a busy day tomorrow you should sleep " he said seriously , but i wish he chose a more romantic way to say it ,feels more like he's my manager   " yongie , what do you do when you miss me .. badly ? " i asked with a seducing tone     " i sleep "    ah !! that was awfully cold jung yonghwa !! i squeezed the phone angry as i shut my lips in a thin line so i wouldn't curse or shout ! self control !    " juhyun~ah !! are you there .. " he asked as i went dead silent , trying to manage my anger    " juhyun ~aaaaaaah have you slept already ? " he asked again    i clinched my teeth as i said " looks like i really snooze off just now "    " i told you - you should sleep already - "    " right !!! goodnight then " i said    " good night "    that was too much yonghwa ! when did you lose interest in me ! but it's not up to you anyway i'll pull you back to me    --------------------------------------- two days later ~ after OFD last concert ~ seohyun POV    i sneaked out from the concert before the encore song and waited for his arrival at his waiting room , it has been a week since banyan tree event but i didn't get the chance to talk with han CEO yet , my comeback hectic schedule didn't allow it and yonghwa was always at FNC preparing for his concert so it was dangerous going there , the day after would be suitable but i have to make sure yonghwa wouldn't be at FNC that time ..    other than meeting the CEO , i was waiting for those concerts to end patiently as i missed yonghwa , i miss him so much  i watched him moving across the stage for hours but i couldn't touch him so i was getting more crazy about it , missing him more and more ..  and for some reason our schedules didn't match the past days and for some reason too he's being cold toward me ! but i decided to warm him myself - i clinched my fists in determination    the corridor was getting noisier and i had to prepare to surprise yonghwa ..   the door was opened , and i ran into yonghwa's arms surprising him ..    " you came !! " he said in admiration as he surrounded his arms around my waist    " yeah i did " i broke the hug looking into his eyes , i truly MISS HIM    " and how was it " he asked with a smirk    " mmmm the vocalist was really talented , cool and y !! i couldn't stop screaming for him and now my voice is a little ... " i said in agony as i faked a cough   " aigoo my poor lovely fan " he said acting worried    i looked at him as i pointed my index at his chest and said with a low tone " know that if my voice cracks tomorrow , it will be your fault "    his hand on my back went lower to rest on my rear  " should we go home to prepare a warm honey tea for your voice then " he said with a playful glance and i laughed loudly    he leaned closer holding my gaze " i swear that i truly really honestly miss you " , his low tired tone was enough to make me go crazy anticipating his touch    my heart raced as i buried my face into his chest " you really do have a split personality !" i murmured - finally my yong is back    his fingers' tips raised my chin for a kiss and i shut my eyes anticipating ..   " ah omoni ! you came " i heard yonghwa saying as i was the next moment supported by nothing but air     perfect !! i opened my eyes as i sighed , i saw mother & father in law , minhyuk and jungshin too .. i bowed several times and went to hug mother in law ..   " omoni , you should have said you're in seoul beforehand " i said as she kept my hand in her grip warmly   " we know you're busy with the comeback and all " the father said smiling    " i'm really sorry about this " i said ashamed as i couldn't even promise them anything because i had in mind my early schedule for tomorrow too   " we are leaving tonight anyway " omoni said assuring and i got more depressed about it , i glanced yonghwa and he nodded too assuring    ~ we went for a dinner later - 11:00 p.m ~    the night got longer than expected , and i was losing my concentration moment after another , but i had to keep my smile in front of my laws , thankfully i wasn't the main topic so i ate quietly while yonghwa and they boys chatted with my in laws ..   later my breathing got heavy and i had a killing headache , i couldn't process most of the words they said yet it was a rare occasion so i couldn't leave plus i already decided to spend the night with yonghwa , my phone vibrated as