triple update # part one 

one week ago - Las vegas -

yonghwa drank his entire whisky glass in one gulp spending luxurious time at the hotel night club , people were having the fun of their life and he was determined to enjoy his vacation to the fullest away from the korean spacious jail 

his gaze was following the gorgeous blondie dancing smoothly to the music for a while now , he couldn't help but to think she looked more energetic and y than his seohyun 

" we meet again hehe ~ " 
he heard enthusiastic korean female and he smiled instantly recognizing her voice 

he rose his glance up to her and smiled " i think we'll keep on meeting by coincidence here " 

she sat down and giggled " yeah , by coincidence "  

" shinhye~ah , stop following me around or i might like it " he grimaced acting serious and she giggled again 

shinhye tapped his nose with her index playfully " you're being too cute in the moment so i think it's better if you stop drinking already " 

" i'm on vacation , so who cares if i get drunk ! " he reasoned and poured another drink in his glass 

" me too " shinhye rested her elbow on his shoulder , sliding her empty glass under his hand .. he smiled and poured for her a drink 

" so your girlfriend didn't tag along in the end ? " 

" nah , she didn't " 

 " remind me again why are you even dating her ? " she mocked as she sipped her drink and leaned on his arm 

he sighed and gulped another drink " i don't even remember her good points " 

shinhye chuckled " they never existed in the first place " 

" i shouldn't be talking about her like that , she even offered to come with me but i told her not to , i just don't feel like spending time with her , i want to relax and she's the last one to help me in this " yonghwa felt a ting of guilt when he revealed everything 

shinhye grinned and rose her head a little looking up at him 
" or was it because you knew i'll follow you anyway "

he pressed his lips together being caught red handed " that might be true too "

" it's okay i'm your friend , the closest one to you in the world " she murmured assuring , burying her body into his warmth 

 " it's just .. i got enough ! she's complicated , doesn't show the least affection in front of others and the worse ; her cooking is still horrible after all those years , she never gets better " 

shinhye sighed in understanding " some girls are just never meant for cooking " 

" i need someone to care for me , someone whose easy going and could speak banmal to me ! someone like you "

her voice flew softly with empathy as she caressed yonghwa's chest "  i feel bad for you , no one cares for you except me " 

" you're so kind hearted , i must say " yonghwa whispered , his eyes flickering between her eyes and her soft lips 

" i'll always be there for you " her voice cracked gazing at him warmly and yonghwa immediately caught the spark 

he went all the way and brushed his lips onto hers , her taste - although tinged with alcohol - brought back memories and he felt warm at heart 
being with her was different , comforting and safe , as if being home again 

shinhye reacted to his kiss , moulding her lips and getting more entangled than what a passionate kiss ever allowed her , she threw her arms around his back hugging and caressing , how his hand tightly cupped her cheek made her understand how he really wanted her just like how she is craving him since years 

yonghwa pushed the kiss further on a public couch until his blurred mind spared him a perfect plan 

he broke the kiss panting and gazing at her with lust , his hand on her arm slid down and caught her hand abruptly 

" let's go " he stood and pulled her to follow him 

" where are we going ? " 

yonghwa announced fully determined , his drunk state didn't held his outburst passion back " i was too stupid to waste all those years with that plain girl , i know what i should do with my life now " 

" but ..we're dating other people in the moment ! we can't do this " shinhye said in agony resisting her builded up passion but followed him anyway 

" it's okay they'll never know " yonghwa assured 

what a jerk ! 

she nodded vigorously  " that's sound like a good plan " 

for real !?

" i promise you we're going to live the best week in our life , together " yonghwa tightened his grip on her hand and she nodded smiling 

they headed toward his luxurious suit and .. 

no they didn't head toward his suit , they parted at the hotel lobby .. 

but that makes them sharing the same hotel ! what the hell !! 

anyway , that night yonghwa couldn't get a minute of sleep replaying their love talk , when he got severely frustrated for their reckless distance , he went and knocked her suit door - because he missed her , because he wanted to keep his earlier dashing promise 

shinhye opened the door for him wearing a ... 

" yaah juhyun " 

i was snapped back to reality by yonghwa's voice , as if coming back to life abruptly i fluttered my eyelids several times looking left and right to catch up with whatever he's calling my attention for ! 

an hour earlier i woke up in my apartment to yonghwa's sweet smile and gentle caress , he came back last night from turkey and made sure he says his good morning in person with a kiss , we prepared a quick american breakfast together and now we were supposed to be eating our meal in a lovely dovey atmosphere .. 
however , my mind wasn't helping me get in the mood as it was drifting back continuously to that dating rumor from last week 

" wae " i replied to him casually , dropping my gaze to my plate and continued eating my breakfast 

" why are you spacing out a lot today ! " he pouted 

" me ? " i widened my eyes at him acting surprised by the fact 

 " i don't mind though since you look extra elegant when spacing out , just like a beautiful painting " 

he smiled warmly and extended his thumb to brush my cheek as he gazed directly into my eyes , he spoke again with a tinge of concern " i just hope there's nothing pressuring you and distracting your mind " 

my eyes wavered at his words , avoiding his exposing gaze 

i was certain i'm doing the wrong thing to us by imagining sick scenarios and giving in to my worries , although it would be just better to ask him directly about the rumor but he'll surely get disappointed that i didn't trust him ..

so for now , i should be able to separate between delusion and reality .. i have to stop thinking about the worst and trust him 

i shook my head and smiled , brushing my cheek against his initiative thumb " i'm at my best , do you have a schedule tomorrow oppa ? " 

he nodded " i'll probably visit FNC " 

" to make sure AOA girls are practicing well ? " 

" exactly ! you're quit smart in that section " he approved 

the joke tightened on my heart rather than lightening my mood up , i hated bring smart when it came to this particular section 

his thumb moved to the corner of my lips and wiped the bread crumbs away , he took his hand away but his eyes were still on my lips when he asked 
" looks like you had fun at SM Halloween party with everyone , right ? " 

" yes ! sooyoung unnie costume was so funny ! she's great when it comes to this " 

he nodded " i saw it " 

 " and whose disguise did you like the most ? " 

he thought deeply about it his eyes never leaving my lips and answered " that would be .. yours ! " 

i laughed hard at his sweetness " oooh gomawyo " 

he darted his eyes to mine and smirked " you're welcome , seohyun-ssi " 

i smiled genuinely again , i must have been crazy for questioning his sincerity !

eventually , my hand found his hand and wrapped it on the dining table , i started talking again to lessen his jealousy that i read through his tentative voice earlier 

" i wonder if you were an SM artist , we would had the chance to be together more and share a lot of events together , i'm really envious of baekhyun and unnie ! " 

he wrapped my hand with his both hands instead and caressed it as he spoke with a low sincere tone 
" once upon a time i was really jealous of your SM colleagues too , they got to meet you a lot and have your public support but now i think i'm luckier than them " 

" luckier ? " 

he got closer as much as the separate dining seats allowed , i bit my lip in anticipation as i didn't expect his next move 

he huskily articulated the words close enough to feel his warm breathing on my cheek
 " the way my lovely juhyun gazes at me and make my heart race crazily for her , the way she ... " 

he paused abruptly and bit his lip hesitating " errrr , enough ! let's leave it within the legal scale of words " 

he was playing around and i found him cute , everything about him is cute from the messy hair to the ducky lips 

i pouted my lips and teased " i wanted to hear the rest of it though " 

" i'll surely tell you but not in such a casual sitting , let's save the fun for later " he smirked 

i rolled my eyes on him and teased " so i was right , you were jealous of the SM party after all " 

surprisingly he admitted " it's really scary how much you could read right throw me " 

i shook my head slightly , talking with a tentative fading voice " but it's getting harder to read you , oppa " 

" even the things you can't read , you could just ask them directly , i'll definitely answer you " 

i bit my lip unsure if it was okay to believe in his offer , sometimes a question is an answer , and instead of reading his mind he'll read mine first !
i gazed into his eyes searching for an easy answer without a question if that was even possible

" there're things that i can't ask " 

he brought my hand closer to his lips , shut his eyes and sweetly nuzzled into it 
" anyia , such a wall doesn't exist between us anymore " 

his words ignited the guilt within my heart  , he utterly trusted our relationship yet i'm still shadily questioning his intentions ! 

 " oppa , you know ... "

we were interrupted by the sound of his vibrating phone buzzing on the living room table .. 
holding back my speech for a moment as i waited for him to go check out on the caller but he didn't ! 

" how is practicing for phantasia ? " he asked instead 

distracted by the vibrating phone i turned my face over to glance his phone direction " ah .. it's going well .. aren't you going to check out the caller ? " 

i looked at him again and he calmly shook his head denying " i just came back from turkey " 

i nodded in understanding loomed by my thoughts , i thought i'll keep quiet but surprisingly i was talking again 
" but you should check out the caller at least , it could be your parents or something urgent ! " 

" ahhh hyun~ah just leave it " he  frowned protesting with a lazy tone so i stood up instead 

" i'll get the phone for you " 

just because i'm a sweet girlfriend , because i really want to help him out relax while i partially do his tasks for him i went to check on the caller for him .. because i'm dying with curiosity ~ 

i went toward the living room table and by the moment i reached for the phone , it was quiet and lifeless, standing up tall i reached for his phone and touched the home button 

(1) missed call : shinhye 

i tilted my head wondering if this really happening or if i'm already having a serious visual hallucination ! maybe it's a flag mark that i absolutely need to visit a psychiatrist soon .. 
blinking forcefully once and checking the letters again 
S H I N H Y E - it was really her ! 

i went back to yonghwa handing him the phone with a cool smile " it's shinhye unnieee " 

he rose an eyebrow in surprise " oh really ? " 

resting my both hands on his shoulder and standing directly behind him to get my strategic view of the phone in his hand
 " aren't you going to call her back ? " 

" later " he locked his phone placing it aside on the dining table 

" why not now ? " 

" eh ! " he looked up at me wondering 

i pulled my cheek muscle into a smile " i mean you might forget about calling her back if you postpone it for later , so better do it now " 

while i'm watching over you ~

he nodded and reached for his phone again " well ... okay , excuse me then " 

i pulled my hands away off his shoulders and busied myself collecting the plates and going to the kitchen to wash them while he headed toward the corridor talking on phone ..

i placed the empty plates in the sank , and breathed deeply and slowly controlling my anxiety attack ! i shook my head denying the reckless thought of yonghwa's infidelity .. turning on the loud noisy running water and washing the plates so i wouldn't eavesdrop on him even if i wished to .. 

did you forget about that time ?

that time i was drunk 

but your feelings were true , right ?

he sighed - ofcourse they were real 

when are you going to confess to her the truth

i'll think about it but probably it will take time 

ok love , will you come over tonight so we could think about it together 

he sighed again 

if you love me - she pleaded 

yeah , i'll come 

 see you later tonight 

several minutes passed and they were enough to come up with various types of possible scenarios 
i felt sick for having those kinds of thoughts , but i couldn't help my irritated mood either , all those delusions slowly builded up a nest of insecurity within my heart , thinking about how should i move on if the worst really happened .. 

i was swayed abruptly to the side and almost fell for yonghwa's sudden playful shoulder nudge .. 

" konchana ! " he held my arm supporting me a little later but thankfully i managed to reclaim myself faster than his helping hand 

" ah yeah " i chuckled awkwardly 

" huh what happened to you , my iron woman " he exaggerated a worried whine 

" i was surprised that's all " i poured my attention on what i was doing earlier 

i wonder if he will tell me what was that call about ? 

" then let's try it again now that you know about it "
he childishly nudged my shoulder a few times more 

" stop it ! " i snapped  

he was too bright to notice my tantrum so he whined playfully  " waeee !! " 

feeling a little guilty , a little distracted and severely annoyed by that call earlier , i gulped down to hide my messed up emotions and made up a quick excuse " it's just i don't want to get hurt for the practice " 

yonghwa opened his mouth shocked , since he wasn't a professional dancer he believed in my words instantly and blamed himself for being this reckless " ah you're right, love ! we have to take care of your body "

" stop saying those weird things  too " i grimaced my nose at the words the sounded as if i was pregnant 

he laughed hard and it was obvious how he was really excited for something ..

he wrapped his arms around my waist back hugging me firmly " my hyun~ah is such a cutieeee " 

i grew more conscious at the intimate contact , he pulled me closer and my rear flattened against his thighs , i felt nothing for his touch except than being timid and pressured by his weight , i shook off the feeling of urgently needing to escape his grip and distancing between us sooner than later but i couldn't stop my body from stiffening 

my hair was styled in a loose bun so his lips easily found my neck line , he printed a sensual kiss on my skin and whispered " you shouldn't get any injuries if oppa is holding you tight like this , right ? " 

my muscles spasmed and twitched for the sudden intimate kiss , my shoulders hard muscles shrugged in reflex so i accidentally bumped his chin 

i heard his soft groan and the sound of his teeth crushing 

i gasped in a shock and turned over to check on him , i cupped his jaw between my hands soothing and comforting  " oppa , konchanyo ? did you bite your cheek ? are you in pain ? i'm sorry i'm really sorry  " 

" so my iron woman is back " he giggled  

" i'm sorry , i .. " i pleade