seohyun's villa ... 8:00 a.m after 2 days    i turned off my phone alarm , as i opened my eyes , dubu came to give me a morning kiss , as i caressed her i thought about yonghwa , the rumor was all over the news and i had the nerve-wrecking conversation with SM secretary TWO days ago !! , anyway yonghwa never called me after , although he looked fine last night performing his concert !! i gave him all kind of excuses , tired , didn't check the news , forgot to call me , but non of them made sense , i waited and waited for days , even in my sleeping i woke up to check the phone many times !!!    he didn't call me for the third day !! by that time i was sure he's ignoring me on purpose , he did it again what he always do when gets insecure , he left me out ..  as i thought about it i got really depressed , so easily he let go of me ..   i even tried calling yonghwa's phone but he turned it off ...    i got off the bed to take a shower and go to SNSD practice ...    --------------------------------------------------   ~SNSD practice room ~ SM , 10:00 a.m    i kept my phone in my pocket while practicing , whenever it vibrated i would check out the caller ..    i need to concentrate , my phone vibrated again and my hand unconsciously reached for my phone .. i checked out the caller (( jinmo )) , i sighed in disappointment as i returned my phone to my pocket    " seohyun~ahhh " the trainer shouted    " yes !! " i said as i got startled    " what did we say about the phones during the practice before ?? !! " the trainer said irritated    " to be turned off !! sir " taeyon shouted , i glared at her and she covered laughing    " sorry ... " i said ashamed glancing the floor    " please be serious for a minute , respect your unnies and work hard " tiffany said pointing at me acting serious , then she looked at taeyon and they laughed together    " sorry " i said clinching my teeth    " anyway let's take a 10 minutes rest " the trainer said , he patted my shoulder as he left the room    " so maknae , how did yong seobang react to the rumor ? " sunny came closer to me interested    " i bet he was hell angry , he's busan namja after all " sooyoung said as she giggled    " i guess he was .. " i wasn't sure since he didn't even say anything nor hurtful nor assuring words   " tell him he's the best and he'll just forget about instantly " yuri suggested as she came closer too , actually i was snsd main topic that day    sooyoung bumped her shoulder into yuri's playfully " uri yuri , lately is giving a lot of advices about dating "    yuri smiled embarrassed and hit sooyoung , i glanced hyoyeon and held her gaze , and she pouted worried    " hey maknae , follow me .. i want you to check something out " hyeyoen said as she walked out the practice room    i followed her and she opened the door of the storing room -our usual - private place to talk    " HE DID IT again unnieeee !!! " i shouted as soon as hyoyeon unnie opened the door , i've been suffering for days and i really wanted to talk about it    " who ! what  !! " hyoyeon asked confused    " paboo yonghwa !! he did it again !  i'm never going back to him , i swear !! " i shouted again determined and my tears finally fell    " aigoo !! that bastard needs a punch in his face " unnie said as she wrapped an arm around me     " unnie , even if he comes back later , i'll never EVER accept his excuses , that was his last chance , it's the end , i can't continue with such a man  "    " juhyun~ah calm down ! you need to talk to him at least before taking such a decision , maybe he has his reason "    i kept on wiping my tears and thinking about it again but really i can't let it pass this time   " he's alive !! and performed last night just perfectly , even if he didn't get the news he would have called me by now .. but he just threw me away .. as usual .. " i said sadly as i caressed my own trembling hands , pabo yonghwa pabooooo    hyoyeon hugged me patting my back    " aigoo , you were lovely dovy just days ago , what happened to you two !! "    " we're lovely dovy as long i'm not having any kind of connection to men !! i don't know what to think anymore , i really want to save our relationship but it's hard , it's really hard having to go through this every time he gets insecure "  i said in disappointment    --------------------------------------------------   - yonghwa entered the van with his bodyguard -    " long time no see " i greeted bruce in the driving seat tiredly , he wasn't with me in that trip as his dad needed him , he rarely skipped my company that's why i had that feeling that something was missing and that caused a double mental pressure on me this time    " you had good time in china ? " bruce asked me as he drove    " yes ~ , but that was hell tiring i'm really sleep deprived  " i said with a tired tone as i leaned comfortably on the seat closing my eyes    " right !!! " i shouted and my eyes were open wide awake as i remembered -hyun -     " give me your phone , you have hyun~ah number right ?? " i asked him in a hurry    " eh ! my phone ! " bruce was startled as he handed me the phone    " mmm , so why did you turn off your own phone the past days ? " bruce asked confused    " ah that's ... it's dead " i said as laughed and continued " the phone fell in the bathtub and got drown , i thought it's water proof though , anyway i was so busy i couldn't buy another or exchange with him -the bodygaurd -  "    if the boice fan who gifted me the phone knew about this , she'll end up really disappointed , i'm keeping this a secret   i looked up seohyun's number in his phone " you saved her number as seohyun-yong right ? "    " mmmm , yonghwa you didn't hear about the rumors ! "    " what rumors , whose ? " ... i have a bad feeling about this    " seohyun-ssi and jinmo !! " bruce said as a matter of fact    " ehhh !!! " i was shocked as i lost my track of events for a moment , i refrained from checking out the news for two days , then i come to know about my girlfriend being rumored with that sick ajussi ..    as i had a roller coaster of feelings and thoughts , i felt a little nauseas too as i looked up the rumors in bruce phone ..   the head lines said    (( SNSD's seohyun rumored to be dating with her co-musical actor jinmo , SM refusing to comment about it ))    i frowned at the second line ! why is SM doing that , as if indirectly proving it .. i scrolled down as my heart raced , there were pictures , one at the SOAS restaurant ... and the other is .. at her villa ? he made it to her villa and she never told me about it !!! she's keeping secrets from me again !! my muscles clinched angry as i thought about it more ..    he was making moves on her but she never told me , so now i hear about it for the first time from the news ..   i squeezed the phone tightly in irritation as i raised it ...    " heyy !! that's my phone !! " bruce shouted , i sighed as i handed him the phone    " why didn't you call to tell me about this !! why i'm the last one to know " i said irritated   " we thought you already knew "    i sighed again as i leaned my back on the seat thinking , i bet it was the bastard's plan , seohyun should have told me about it as soon as it happened , i'm sure SM got the news earlier too and told her but she never told me about , SM too are getting on my nerves not even denying the rumor just to use it for more promotion for the last performance ..  when seojin issue happened , that day i promised seohyun that i'll trust her as she trusts me , so ... this time i'll stand by her , support her as what she did last time .. i think that's the right thing to do for now ...    " hyung , take me to seohyun's villa now , we have to talk " i asked bruce as i sighed    ---------------------------------------------- - seohyun's villa - seohyun pov   i was at the kitchen by the sink , washing whatever i get my hands on , to pass time , to make my self busy ..   i heard the passcode being entered and the door was opened .. so 3 days ? that how much it took him to get over his insecurities , his sulky feelings !!    " hyun~ah " he said as he entered , he made it to the kitchen and back hugged me    " i'm sorry i wasn't there for you when those rumors happened " he said as he buried his nose in my hair    " and when exactly were you there for me !! " i said calmly    he broke the hug and looked at me for a moment ... i frowned at him disappointed   " wait are you angry ? " yonghwa asked confused shocked    " can't i ? " i said challenging him , so you think it's all right to disappear as much as you're ready , then comeback to me and i should fall in tears from happiness that you came back , that you gave your insecurities another chance     " i should be the one angry here , not you !! " he said seriously frowning    " and why should you be angry ? did i do something wrong ? " i said with a mocking tone    " yes you did!!  , you should have told me about him visiting you here " he shouted angry    " excuse me , it was at that time you didn't want to listen to me "    " so as soon as i quarrel with you , you go invites your fanboys over ? "    as i heard it my blood boiled in anger , how can he !!   " so what ? !! that time you threw me in the waiting list as your special hobby when you get damn insecure " i shouted back    " what are you talking about , what waiting list !! " he asked confused    " yes yonghwa , that's the truth .. you always disappear when i need you the most , you say you trust me but avoid me as soon as you get insecure "    " when did i ... " he said with a suffocated tone    " i can't keep up with this anymore " i said as my tears fell on my ch