Lee Hongki’s POV:

“Have you lost someone dear to you?”

“It was never easy.  I even refused to believe that it was all real. But there was just no way I could forget about them.”

“But oppa told me that continuing this life without them doesn’t necessarily mean that we’ll forget about them.”

“Besides, they will always have a place in our hearts.”

Her words have been repeating inside my head for days already, as if she was one big thunderstorm, she was able to make me all messed up. The way I was acting to Minjung caught me off guard myself. I didn’t expect that my internal conflict would be projected like this. I turned all anxiety and confusion to Minjung and poured everything on her since she was the root of all of this.

The next thing I know, I found myself thinking of her again. With that thought, I felt my chest tightened as I looked up my ceiling wall, I woke up early again already. I stared aimlessly for a while, what if she left because of me? A part of me would be happy of the thought that she’s gone; the cause of this storm but there was also a part of me that I know will bother me if she does leave, which part is bigger? I didn’t even bother to think about it.

I got up and dragged myself out of my room to start another day. At least now, there’s music that I can look forward to each day. When I got to the kitchen, I saw a familiar figure moving around. I stared at her for quite some time but she didn’t even bother to look up. If I was relieved that she was still here or not, I didn’t think about it either. I went to the table and started eating breakfast; the others came not long after. It was a normal morning for all of us as if yesterday didn’t happen.

Everyone was acting like their selves, doing what they were usually doing except for me. Jaejin was in a hurry since he was going to pick up Mina, Jonghun was on the phone with Taera, and the two maknaes were hurrying since they were going to be late, Minjung was doing her job and I was just staring at everyone moving on with their lives while I was stuck.

I went to my room and prepared myself for today. I was about to call Minjung again out of reflex to ask her where was my skull shirt I wore a week ago but then the events last night stopped me. I tried looking again but my efforts were in vain so I decided to call Minjung and act as if last night was nothing.

“Ya, Minjung where’s the skull shirt I wore last week?” I called out to her from my bedroom door but I didn’t get a reply. I looked for her and I saw her looking for something in the pile of newly ironed clothes. “Ya, did you hear what I said?” I called to her but she wasn’t looking at me and continued her business. For some reason, being ignored by her really ticks me off. “Ya, are you deaf now?!” I shouted again at her unconsciously. She stood up and shoved the shirt I was looking for to my chest and she was about to walk out on me and I grabbed her arm. “I’m talking to you.” I hissed at her and she kicked me down there HARD. I put my hands on the area she attacked, leaving me in an excruciating pain, females can’t even imagine.

“So now you want me to talk to you?” She mocked me, there was obvious hatred in her eyes and I didn’t look again to her. “Why don’t we have a deal? Since you’re annoyed by my presence, I’ll avoid you as much as I can and since I’M ANNOYED BY YOU AS WELL, WHY WON’T YOU STOP PESTERING ME WITH YOUR TRIVIAL MATTERS AND GROW UP?” She was raising her voice but I didn’t bother to look up. Her hatred was piercing through my chest but I thought that it was better this way.

“Deal.” I muttered under my breath without looking at her. The next thing I saw were her feet marching away from the scene, leaving me in my own agony. I dropped myself to the floor and looked up at the ceiling, “It’s better this way Hongki, it’s better this way.” I said out loud for myself to hear, hoping I would get to convince myself more.

author: ten-tenenen! xD yeah.. i was kinda stuck so yeah.. xD :)) my dongsaengs are so nice for always dropping me some love and also HI TO MY SILENT READERS ^^ :) <33 HEHEHE

@hongbutt- wish granted xD @-) :)) hahaha

@kokokoko- hahaah xD lol there..hongki got the kick.. and of course you can borrow it lolol xD :)) you're so cute i see you love seunghyun so much ^^ <33

@ChocoBun- jonghun can't say th L word yet because he still have feelings for Mina i think?? xD okay i am unsure myself =))

@rachelxzoe- if the celia and you kicked Hongki together, there would be nothing left ;__; he needs to pass his genes okay.. xD lololol