A/N: Hope you enjoy!

Daehyun's Pov.

I never meant to hurt her, not like this. I was planning to tell her everything sooner or later but the time came so unexpectedly. It's been days since I last saw her, spoke to her, held her. I was told that she didn't want to see me. But how can I not? 

I never meant to hurt anyone through my actions. Being a clueless and dense 15 year old, I never knew I'd be able to cause a lot of pain to the people around me. Through these years, I learned the hard way. I tried to cope with everything but that was only making it worse. I found comfort by hurting others, it made me feel somewhat better deep down inside.

When I met Nara, she was different. Different than the other girls I fooled around with, she opened my eyes to a new world. Who knew that the cool and confident Daehyun would fall head over heels for some chick he just met. I lost my cool but I didn't care. She was someone that I thought would be easy and who's just playing tough but boy was I wrong. 

Everything happened two years ago, the moment that everything completely changed for me. Starting freshman year, I was pretty anxious. I was usually the quiet and calm student in middle school and I felt that I needed to change. I wanted to be known for something else instead of the "timid kid" at the corner of the room.

A day before entering highschool, I made friends with someone. We bonded right away, it was like we understood each other. Those first four months in highschool weren't that bad. I was beginning to open up and we both began to be very popular among the girls. There was especially one girl who caught my eye. I had a crush on her way back in middle school, she was very popular among the boys in my class but no one dared to ask her out. I made it my goal to go out with her that year. 

Yukwon began to act weird during that time as well. I kept on bugging him to tell me what was wrong and he told me. He told me that he was going through some financial problems. His dad left with half the money they had saved up. He told me that his mother has been very ill lately and there was no way his sister was going to start working.

I've met his family before and I knew that they always tried to do things on their own without depending on people. That was one thing, I admired about them. Yukwon then told me that he was making money but not in the proper way. He was an errand boy for the drugs he was told to deliever. 

I felt sorry to know that he was going through all this, especially at his age. He offered me a job at where he was working, I definetly declined that offer but he kept on persuading me to join. He told me that we would only be doing this for a few weeks but he lied. We ended up doing this for five months.

Everything was going well, I was earning a lot of money and I finally got the girl of my dreams. We began to date not too long ago when I joined the business. I got the courage to ask her out one day and to my surprise she accepted.

One day, after coming back from selling some merchandise, I found my girlfriend shirtless with my best friend. She had the nerve to tell me that he was on her when it was obvious that she was all over him. I didn't want to hear it, I was done. Yukwon didn't even bother to explain himself, he just stood there with a smirk on his face.

I was filled with so much anger that I wanted to get back at him. I knew his sister had a huge crush on me and would always do favors for me. Without any thought, I invited her out to eat. We both talked and talked until I suggested to go back to my house. It was the perfect time since my parents were out for a business trip. I began to tell her how lonely and pathetic I was for being a , which was true in some ways.

I knew she felt sorry for me, right when she offered to change that. I took advantage of her in that moment. She didn't even know about my intentions after a few days later. 

When Yukwon found out, I smirked just the way he did that day. Although I felt bad, I was satisfied with his expression. I wanted him to feel miserable for what his actions caused. Our relationship got to the point where we were ready to kill one another. My parents didn't know what the real reason was but decided to move. I didn't really care, I was ready to leave everything behind.

Back then, during our business selling one day, we began to play random games. There was this kid who was the same age as us and from what I knew he had a pretty tough life. I was dared to offer him some drugs and get him to join our business. I didn't want to, I knew that by the time he would do it, he would become an addict. I had the chance to save him from going through this path, but I didn't. I didn't want to be known as a coward. At that time I wanted to do whatever I could to fit in. 

It wasn't until I took Nara to the hospital that I found out it was the same guy from before. I found out he died the most lonely and sad way. I began to feel so guilty that I was just focused on not having Nara find out. I deserve everything that's happening to me right now, so I won't fight it anymore.

I will try one more time and if it fails, I'm done.

A/N:  Daehyun's past is now revealed.