Minwoo this, Minwoo that, everything was about Minwoo now, Junjin never had any time for him anymore, he only cared for Minwoo.

It had been about a week since Minwoo moved in, but Andy already wanted him gone, it was just like being back at the "Box" with Eric and Hyesung, it was the same feeling, the feeling of being slowly forgotten.

Sure he did still have some time with Junjin, once in a while he let him sleep in the same bed as him, and they still stayed up to watch movies together once in a while. But very often they would be interrupted by Minwoo having nightmares and Junjin rushing to check on him, and staying by his side till he fell asleep.

Worst of all, he knew Minwoo didn't like him, he would always wince when they sat next to each other if he accidentally touched him, when Minwoo never winced when Junjin calmed him down after a nightmare.

He knew there was no use hating Minwoo, it wasn't Minwoo's fault that Junjin had lost interest in him, it was his own fault, Junjin wasn't entertained with him anymore, he never showed any reactions anymore, he had to regain his attention.

It had been a long day, he had had to work alone since Minwoo had woken up after a terrible nightmare and wouldn't calm down, so Junjin had promised they could watch a movie just the two of them if he took the shift today so he could stay with Minwoo.

Andy had taken the opportunity of cause, any chance to get closer to Junjin was a chance worth taking, and he did miss the nights where he could cuddle up to Junjin and fall asleep in his arms, it was something he had only tried with him, and something he had grown extremely fond of.

He was standing in front of the apartment door, taking a deep breath to calm his nerves before entering and having to deal with Minwoo again.

Minwoo wasn't in the living room when he entered though, Junjin was sitting there alone in the couch, watching some TV.

"I'm home" he called as he took off his shoes. Junjin turned to face him and put his finger to his mouth, Minwoo was probably sleeping, and of cause Junjin was afraid that Andy would disturb him.

It wasn't something to get angry about, it was completely understandable that Junjin wanted Minwoo to sleep, the guy seemed like he really needed it, but Andy couldn't help but feel a pang in his heart. Junjin didn't go to hug him, he didn't greet him, he didn't even smile at him, he just sat there, looking annoyed by the fact that he had announced his return. Wasn't he even happy that he had come back, did he even care if he ran away?

He decided he was just being delusional, maybe Junjin had been having a hard time dealing with Minwoo, he did seem like a handful to take care of, he was probably just exhausted, and he was over analyzing his reaction.

"Hey, is he asleep? Sorry if I was too loud, I didn't mean it" he whispered as he plopped himself down in the couch next to Junjin, putting both of his hands on the other man's thigh to show his sincerity.

"Yeah he's sleeping, and you couldn't have known, so don't apologize" see? He was over analyzing, Junjin was perfectly fine with him, no need to worry.

"I have some ramen we can eat if you want to? We can watch that movie now too if you wish? Just, be quiet about it, I don't want him to wake up, he didn't sleep all of last night" Minwoo again, always Minwoo, yeah it wasn't Minwoo's fault, and he needed the care, but Andy couldn't help but feel slightly betrayed. Was he ever this nice to him? After he stopped having bruises, Junjin had stopped caring as much.

The ramen had been fine, they had made a sandwich for Minwoo instead, since that could stay in his room and not go cold, and they couldn't know when he would wake up and be hungry, or if he would even ask for food if he was hungry.

Andy had been tasked with putting the sandwich in his room, it wasn't often he got to go to Minwoo's room, he didn't like to talk to anyone but Junjin, so he only saw him when they were all occasionally gathered in the living room to eat.

Minwoo was cute when he slept though, he wasn't annoying and stealing Junjin away, he was just peaceful, nothing like when he was awake. Andy couldn't hate the man when he was asleep, well he knew he shouldn't hate the man when he was awake either, but when he was asleep it felt so much more wrong to hate him.

He put the plate with the sandwich down on the nightstand and gave the sleeping man a smile. He had kicked his covers off in his sleep, and he would surely wake up from the cold if he didn't put them back on, maybe this was a good way to get closer to the man, and it would make Junjin happy.

He grabbed one side of the covers, and leaned over the man to put them down on the other side. But as he was bend over the man he suddenly heard an ear piercing yell for help. Minwoo had woken up and noticed Andy practically on top of him, and even though Andy didn't know much about Minwoo, he did know one thing, Minwoo was deadly afraid of being touched.

The next thing that happened was Junjin running to the room and slamming the door open, obviously thinking Minwoo had had another nightmare, but his concerned look quickly turned to one of anger when he noticed Andy, on top of Minwoo, trying to calm him down by touching his arms and keeping him from kicking him in the stomach.

"Andy!! Get off of him!! It's one thing that you try those things with me but not with Minwoo. You know you can't do that to strangers, I really thought you knew better than to try something like that" Wait, Junjin thought he was trying something with Minwoo? He had just panicked when the man had started yelling, wanted to help him, to calm him.

Junjin rushed to Minwoo's side and started to whisper to him while his arm. Andy didn't know what to do, this was all wrong, it was never what he intended, he didn't want Junjin to hate him, he didn't want to hurt Minwoo, he didn't know what to do.

he was lying in his bed, well, Junjin's bed. Junjin had stayed with Minwoo the rest of the evening, and he was still, for all he knew, in Minwoo's room, he could never leave Minwoo out of sight unless he was asleep.

He had to stay up to see if Junjin was still mad at him, he had to know if he hated him now. He had honestly thought that what him and Junjin had was what he had always wanted to have with Eric, but he had begun to think he might be wrong, that maybe it was just better if he returned to Eric, he was starting to miss his touches, he was missing all of the things Junjin couldn't give him, and lately, it didn't even seem like Junjin would miss Andy if he went back to where he came from.

He could hear the door open behind him, and Junjin's feet slowly making their way to the bed. The room was dark, and Junjin hadn't turned the lights on as he entered, so Andy had no way to know if Junjin even knew that he was not alone.

Junjin luckily went to the side Andy wasn't on and laid himself down, pulling the blankets Andy was covering himself with over him.

That had to be a sign that Junjin didn't know he was sharing his bed with someone, another sign Andy quickly discovered, as his eyes had grown used to the darkness, was that Junjin was wearing only his boxers, he never did that when him and Andy shared bed, he was probably afraid that it would give Andy the wrong ideas.

He decided he would startle Junjin no matter what he did, so maybe talking before touching him would be the way to go.

"Jin?" he barely spoke up, but Junjin reacted, he shot straight up and started to fumble with his covers.

"No Jin, don't get up, I just really wanted to sleep with you, can I?" he reached out in the darkness towards, what he hoped, was Junjin's arm. He knew Junjin couldn't see him, but he still felt like he had to give him his puppy eyes, he might be able to make out a bit of his facial features.

"Ok you can sleep in here, but can we talk about Minwoo for a while?" Again? Ok this time he knew he had something to explain, and he knew he had to make Junjin understand.

"Look, I don't care what you think happened, I swear I was only trying to cover him with the blankets, he was cold and he freaked out for no reason, it wasn't my fault" He definitely sounded more desperate than he had wanted, but he just had to make him understand.

"I trust you, cause that's what friends do, but you really have to be more careful around Minwoo, he can't take as much as I can" Junjin put a hand on Andy's arm, probably smiling to end his statement.

Andy was relieved, it was like the old times, before Minwoo came into the house, but he was still yearning for more. Sure Junjin's hand on his arm was great, but he needed more, he needed to feel more of him.

He shifted his position so he was sitting up in the bed and looking down on Junjin who had lied back down facing him. He reached his hand out to Junjin's arm before he lied down again and tried to shift closer to Junjin.

"Andy I..." He couldn't protest now, he just needed to get Junjin to get used to the idea, he had to stop his words. He put his finger to Junjin's lips as he silenced him and continued encroaching on him.

"Please Jin, I need this, can you just hold me, really hold me?" again, he sounded too desperate, but he had no choice, he was desperate, he missed Eric, even though Eric would have never cuddled like this, and never let him silence him. He had to remind himself that Junjin was enough, that he was over Eric, that he might even fall in love with Junjin? No, that couldn't happen, Junjin didn't like him, and they were friends, nothing like that could happen between them.

Andy removed his finger and put his arms around Junjin, and as a pleasant surprise Junjin returned the gesture.

They stayed in that position for a while, until Andy could hear Junjin snoring slightly, he was asleep, but Andy couldn't sleep. The only thing on his mind was how Junjin was almost , how soft his skin felt against his, and how much he missed Eric.

He knew Junjin would never let him do anything when he was awake, but maybe he could sneak in a kiss or something when he was asleep?

He knew it was wrong, but he just couldn't stop his thoughts, he didn't love Junjin, he couldn't, it was just because he missed Eric, was an addiction like any other, and like any other addiction, it takes a long time to get rid off, and there will be relapses and temptations, and this was certainly one.

He knew he wouldn't be able to control himself if he ended up in that position, but he had still insisted on doing it, he was an idiot.

He also felt terribly dirty, he was the only one in the house who craved for the touch of others, it was clearly not normal, it was clearly a fault he needed to get rid off.

He had to fall asleep, to ignore his thoughts, but damn it was it hard when Junjin started to hug him tighter and make little noises in his sleep.

He took a deep breath to calm himself, but as he exhaled he heard Junjin sort of giggle in his sleep as his breath hit his chest. The breathing caused Junjin to curl together, putting his face so close to Andy's head that he could feel his breathing, and moving his legs up so one was on top of Andy's, he was practically hugging Andy like a spare blanket or something, that he was trying to hide himself in.

It was so hard to control his growing butterflies and thoughts now, it was impossible for him to move now, and if Junjin knew what was going trough his mind he would never let him sleep in his bed again. But maybe he wouldn't notice if  he just lightly kisses him, on his neck, or chest? He hasn't woken up yet?

He tilted his head slightly upwards, just do he was facing Junjin directly, and lightly pressed his lips against his neck. Junjin made no effort to move away, so he was still asleep. He opened his lips slightly, just to touch his neck with his tongue, he couldn't resist it when he was holding him this close.

Junjin was making those pleased noises again, and Andy couldn't help but smile, he needed more, it wasn't enough to le on his neck, he had to get his lips, he just had to be careful this time.

He crawled slowly upwards so his head was level with Junjin's, he could feel Junjin's breathing, and he could just make out his slightly open mouth.

He had to do this, it was now or never, he had to go in for the kiss. He pressed his lips against Junjin's, as lightly as he thought possible, he couldn't risk Junjin going out of breath, that would wake him.

But he hadn't expected Junjin to respond to the kiss, wasn't he asleep? Why would he kiss back?

But he was, whatever the reason, Junjin was definitely responding to the kiss, slightly on Andy's lower lip. Andy couldn't help but let a moan escape, he had needed this so bad, and when Junjin slipped his tongue into Andy's he gladly responded.

Andy had  only just shifted his position so he could better reach when Junjin broke the kiss slightly, mumbling something, a name maybe.

Then his eyes shut up and he broke the kiss completely, letting go of Andy and flinging himself awkwardly down from the bed in shock.

"What the hell was that?!" he had turned the light back on and was staring down at Andy, who was as confused as ever.

"You kissed me, it wasn't my fault" he knew that he had technically kissed him first, but he had kissed back.

"I, I, I thought you were someone else Andy, I'm so sorry" Junjin was so panicked, he looked like his heart was in his throat, his mind going a hundred miles an hour.

But what did he mean he thought he was someone else, Junjin was never with anyone but him and Minwoo. That was it, Minwoo, that's why he was always insisting to stay at some with the other, he was in love with Minwoo, why had he been so blind, so slow? This was going to end like Eric and Hyesung, he could have gotten Junjin, but he had been too slow, he had acted the wrong way, he could never get anyone, he was useless.

"No I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm not good enough, and I hope you can be happy with Minwoo" Andy got up from the bed quickly, he had to get out of the house, he could go back to Eric, at least he was a good e right? At least he was good enough for a one night stand, he just wasn't meant to have a friend, some people weren't, maybe Eric would even take him back? This whole ordeal had been stupid from the beginning.

He ran out of the door, not bothering to get shoes or a jacket, it was all Junjin's anyway, he didn't own anything, he only had himself. He knew he had to be fast, he could hear Junjin yelling at him from down the street, he had to lose him, he had to get away from him, he didn't need his excuses, this was for his own good, it was better if he was alone.

He ran down a particularly crowded alley, it was the entrance to a strip club, so one of the few places still populated at this hour, and it seemed to work, he couldn't see Junjin anymore.

But as he was backing away from the entrance, on the look out for Junjin, he suddenly felt his arm being pulled.

"Andy, long time no see huh?" It was one of the guys he had grown up with, he and his two friends had always bullied him when they were kids, the said he was too pretty to ever become anything more than a e, well guess they were right.

"So, what have you been up to? We haven't seen you around the "Box" lately. Did the boss grow tired of you and kick you out? Or did you finally realize he didn't need you and decided to leave on your own?" it was another of his friends, speaking up from behind him, they were all there, all three of them.

"You know it's a shame the boss charged so much for you, we always wondered if we were right in our predictions about you having potential as a good " the third guy spoke now, encroaching on him, there was no way this was ending well for him.

"You know, since the boss is done with you you're technically free now, so..." the first guy spoke again, but before Andy could answer he had signaled to one of the others and he was hit painfully in the back.

"You know, don't bother to scream, no one will care out here, and I heard a little bird whisper that rough was your specialty" the man was ing his pants as the two others stripped Andy from his and pinned him to the ground. This was horrible, it was not at all what he wanted, and he couldn't help but wonder if this would have happened if he had just stayed close to Junjin, would they have just attacked him too? Maybe it was just better to get over with it, he had to get used to the environment again after all.

It was horrible, and if he as much as moved a little, they would kick him, he finally lost consciousness after what seemed like forever, and when he came to everything was a blur, but he definitely heard fighting and what seemed like Junjin's voice, but that had to be his mind playing with him, there was no way Junjin would have found him.

"Andy, Andy wake up!! Please?!" it was Junjin's voice again, but he really couldn't be there, his mind was playing with him. But he had to admit, he looked like Junjin, and the arms wrapped around him felt just like Junjin's.

"Andy, don't ever run off like that again, you know it's dangerous" he was crying, was this reality, was Junjin actually there? Had he found him? Chased off his attackers?

"Jin..." he tried to speak, he had to know if it was him.

"Andy, don't talk, I'll get you home, save your energy" He could feel Junjin letting go of him, and then wrapping his jacket around his legs, of cause people would stare at a man carrying a pants less guy. But Andy didn't care about being or bruised, all that mattered was, Junjin came back, he knew it was better if Junjin had left, but he couldn't help but feel relieved that he didn't.

AN: So...This is the longest chapter ever, and the quickest I've ever updated as well :P But I just felt so inspired, and this was already planned to originally be a part of last chapter, but it ended up being big enough by it self, so, now this is it's own chapter :D I'm so sorry for hurting Andy, really, but I swear Jin will take care of him now :D And he will learn not to hate Minwoo :D Thank you so much for your big support you guys, I really love you so so much, your comments mean so much to me :D And it's actually Monicaandy's fault the whole bed scene got incorporated :P So thank/blame her :D