"Hyesungie, you're amazing" a panting Eric let out as he broke off from their kiss.

They were in Hyesung's apartment, more specifically, his bed. Hyesung felt exhausted but happy to have Eric back, they hadn't had much time to themselves lately, not with Eric's complete focus on punishing Dongwan. And Hyesung had really missed having Eric to himself, he had missed Eric lying next to him in bed, , he had missed, well, everything.

But something still bothered him, he couldn't fully enjoy being with Eric, the back of his mind kept telling him something was wrong, that he had to stay mad at Eric, that he couldn't pretend like nothing had happened.

Hyesung didn't know why Minwoo and Dongwan felt so special compared to other cases of Eric's punishment, they just did. Maybe it was the way Minwoo was completely innocent, or the way Dongwan was led to believe that Minwoo was still in danger, or maybe it was the way the two of them blindly did anything to protect the other and show them their love.

Hyesung just knew that this case was the one that broke his heart, the one drop to make the cup spill over, the one crime he couldn't forgive Eric for committing.

Eric had noticed how Hyesung's thoughts had seemed to drift off, and his facial expression had turned very quizzical, Hyesung knew he had to tell him what was on his mind, besides, Eric was always more likely to listen when they were alone like this.

"Eric, I have to tell you something" he turned his head to look directly at him, Eric looked so vulnerable, almost, afraid.

"What you did to Minwoo was wrong, and, I don't think I can forgive you this time" he spilled it out, his deepest thoughts, he had never sounded this cold in front of Eric before, he had never sounded this certain.

"What... Are you jealous?" he gave a small laugh, almost like he was trying to cheer himself up, like he was trying to get rid of the awkward atmosphere.

"You were never jealous in the past, why is Minwoo different?" He reached out to touch Hyesung's cheek, but his arm was quickly swatted away by Hyesung, who shifted to an upright position.

"It has nothing to do with being Jealous Eric. It has nothing to do with my feelings at all, but it has everything to do with Minwoo's feelings, your feelings..." He started speaking in a more annoyed tone of voice, but he was cut off by Eric who was now sitting as well.

"You think I'm in love with Minwoo!!? Hyesungie, how could you even think that? He's just some guy Dongwan was fooling around with" He tried to embrace Hyesung, but Hyesung quickly got off of the bed.

"That's exactly what I'm talking about. You don't have emotions!! Just some guy Dongwan was fooling around with?! If you really couldn't see more in their relationship then I don't even think you're human anymore. Eric, I can't be with a person like this, I can't be with a person who knows nothing about love, who cares for no one but himself"

"But I care for you Sungie, I love you" he was looking up at him, he looked so hurt, his eyes were threatening to spill tears, he hadn't seen him like this since before his father died.

And he loved him? He had never heard that from Eric before, he had never heard Eric say he loved anyone. Eric looked so hurt and confused, and Hyesung couldn't help but feeling like he was the one who was at fault, but he had to pull through, Eric couldn't have it all his way again, he couldn't continue like this, it had been going on for too long already, and Hyesung had finally found the courage to stop it.

"How can I know that you mean it? How can I know you're not just trying to sway me from leaving you" he yelled at him, he was leaving him? The thought hadn't even crossed Hyesung's mind, and he only realized what he had said after the fact.

"NO!!" Eric was at his feet in an instant, this time he managed to capture the frozen Hyesung in a tight embrace.

"Don't ever leave me Sungie, I love you, I couldn't live without you, I'll change, I promise I'll change. I never meant to be like this, it isn't my fault, this is how I was taught to act, I couldn't do anything about it Sungie, forgive me, please" his head was buried deep in Hyesung's neck, and his voice was the most desperate Hyesung had heard it in many years.

Last time Eric was this desperate had been when they were kids, Eric's father had wanted Eric to witness a trial of one of his bodyguards who had been stealing from him. Eric had always liked the bodyguard, he had played games with him when he was a kid, and he had always told Eric stories when he was tired, and held him when he was afraid. Now the 8 year old Eric had to see this man chained and beaten, awaiting his death sentence. Eric had screamed and begged, he had cried and even hit his father, but the only reaction he had gotten was a slap across the face, and the comment "I thought you were stronger than this". That was the last time Hyesung had seen Eric cry for another person.

"I...I" he wanted to hug him back, tell him that he never considered leaving him, tell him that everything was a joke, but he couldn't. If he told him he would never leave him, then he wouldn't have the upper hand, Eric would just go back to ignoring him, but if he lived with the thought of him leaving, then maybe he could actually change.

"I'll help you Eric, just, listen to me carefully, do everything I tell you to" he hugged him back but was startled as Eric pushed him a little away from him, so he could look directly into his eyes.

"But Sungie, I can't be the gang leader if I take orders from you, you know very well that that would make me seem weak, they would rebel, kill me even" Eric was back to his usual business self, his calculating self who considers everything.

"I won't order you around, just, give you advice. And if most of our talks are behind closed doors, no one will even know that I'm helping you make decisions" he was smiling at Eric now, trying to cheer him up, hoping for his plan to finally be successful.

"Ok, I think I can do that, just, please keep this a secret, don't tell anyone" Eric smiled back, a little embarrassed.

"I promise, if you promise to end Dongwan's sufferings, tell him you released Minwoo" the look on Eric's face changed, and for a second it was extremely cold, like nothing Hyesung had ever seen before, but it quickly turned softer again, the same face he always had on when they were together.

"I promise, I'll tell him as soon as I see him, is that ok?" he tilted his head slightly, and gave the cutest smile he could muster, Hyesung couldn't help but smile back.

It was very early in the morning, a man was walking the streets aimlessly, no idea of where he should go, or what he should do with his life.

It was still very dark outside, and the man was getting hungry and tired. He had no place to live, but he did have a bit of money on him, money the gang leader had given him upon his release from the "Hole".

Minwoo had no reason to live anymore either, he felt empty inside, and even his release felt insignificant. He had nothing to live for, no one to live for.

He was just walking the streets alone in the cold morning, looking for somewhere willing to sell a dirty looking guy from the streets breakfast.

He had been walking all night, staying on the more illuminated streets, honestly, he was afraid to do otherwise, the night scared him, it never did before, but apparently some things leaves scars.

He didn't talk to anyone but food truck owners, and he never slept unless he passed out, and if he did he would wake up almost immediately, panicked and thoughts filled with all too real nightmares.

He had found his way to the food truck he usually went to, it was a food truck with many other people like him, people with no future, and no past.

"Hey, I haven't seen you before, you knew handsome?" it was some woman, she looked in her 50's, but they all looked much older than they were.

"Don't be afraid, I'm not gonna hurt you, or ask, if that's what you're afraid of" she laughed and motioned for him to grab the chair besides her.

Minwoo did as she wanted, she seemed nice, and he could use some time with other human beings.

"I'm sorry, I'm just, not used to this" he bowed slightly as he sat down and ordered some food.

"Ahh, I can tell, you look too clean" Clean? in what world did he look clean? He was dirty everywhere, he couldn't even remember the last time he took a shower, he was not clean at all.

"excuse me?" he tilted his head a bit, wondering if "clean" had another meaning to her.

"Ahh, clean, not on drugs, you know, still in the sad world" she explained, offering him some of her food as he waited for his own portion.

"Oh, I don't do drugs no, they're bad for you" he tried to explain, he knew a lot of the side effects, he saw them often in the hospital.

"If you use them wrongly they're bad, yes. But they're such a big help for a lost soul like yours, you will forget everything that troubles you, all will be left behind, it's like a new start" A new start. He couldn't hide his interest in the woman's words, the way her eyes lid up when she explained it all to him, the way she seemed to instantly be better, just by the mere thought of drugs, it was definitely an idea he could get in on.

"So, if I was indeed interested in these drugs, where would one then, get them" he tried to sound as nonchalant as possible, which obviously failed since the woman just laughed slightly and leaned closer to him.

"I know a nice dealer who can help you out. He might even give you one for free now you're new" she said, her voice barely audible.

AN: So, a long time since I last updated :D I'm sorry, I've just been very busy :D And I really feared that I had lost my ability to write, and this chapter scared me, so I kept postponing it :P But here it is, I really hope you like it, I really would love your feedback, both good and negative :D And thank you so so much for subscribing, can't believe we broke the 50 subscribers mark :D You guys are the best :D