‘Suan….’

‘Oh… Chun… Yes? U need any help?’ Suan asked.

‘No… u look sad… anything happen?’ Chun asked, passing her a bottle of water.

‘Nope… I am fine…..Thanks…’

‘U doesn’t look fine to me….’

‘Don’t worry….’

‘Because of  Li Xu?’

‘Chun…..Ae Li told u?’

‘No…. u thought I cant tell?’

‘Hahaha…. Even u can tell…’ but why not him? Suan asked inside her heart.

‘There are times when u don’t feel like taking a step forward too….worried u will lose everything…’

‘I know…. That was me in the past… and now.. its him..’ Suan looked at Ryeowook who is sitting by himself another corner, concentrating on his script.

‘Erm… well, give him z little bit more time….’

‘Maybe he doesn’t have any feel on me anymore…’

‘Suan….’

‘I think it must be wistful thinking of my part…’

‘I don’t think so… Hey…. U all right?’ Chun looked at Suan who started to sob…

‘Just leave me alone, I am ok…’ Suan looked down avoiding Chun’s eyes.

‘……………’ Chun bring Suan’s head to his chest and patted on her shoulder.

‘I am feeling so miserable now, Chun… what shall I do???’ Suan grabbed Chun’s shirt, sobbing hard.

‘All right… I am here….Don’t worry…’

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Leeteuk happened to be at the area where the Super Junior M are filming right now and decided to drop by for a visit.

‘Hyung!’ Ryeowook is surprise upon seeing Leeteuk ran toward him.

‘Ryeogaa~ How’s the filming?’

‘Fine hyung~ Everyone~ Leeteuk hyung is here!’ Ryeowook waved to the rest of the Super Junior M boys…while Leeteuk looked at  Suan who is talking to the crew…

‘Ryeowook… what are u busy with?’

‘Nothing special,hyung…

‘Yah… Ryeogaa…. U ok?’

‘Hyung, I am fine….Why? haha!’

‘U sure?’ Leeteuk asked.

‘Hyung…..’

‘So, how is it now?’

‘I don’t get what u mean, hyung…’

‘I mean how is the thing between u and her now…’ Leeteuk said, stealing a glance at Suan who paseed by him...

‘U mean Suan and I?’ Ryeowook thought of how Chun and Suan hugged just now… what can happen between us again?

‘Yes! Who else?’ Leeteuk rolled his eyes, looking at the eternal maknae again.

‘Friend…. We are only friend….’ Ryeowook spoke softly to his hyung... But its loud enought for Suan, who is standing not far from them to hear it... She closed her eyes for seconds upon hearing this... experiencing a tugging pain on her chest....

‘Are u sure?’ Leeteuk asked.

‘Yes, Only friend….don’t worry…. She and I are past tense…. I put it behind already, hyung…. Didn’t I get on my life well all these while?’ Ryeowook assuring Leeteuk.

‘I hope so, if u need someone to talk to hyung will always be there ok?’

‘Thanks, hyung….’Ryeowook hugged his hyung shoulder and the elder male patted at his back, smiling at him.

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Suan sat down on the grass, staring into the blank…….the conversation between Ryeowook and Leeteuk keep playing in her mind…‘Yes, Only friend….don’t worry…. She and I are past tense…. I put it behind already, hyung…. Didn’t I get on my life well all these while?’  Past tense…. So she had become his past tense….. Tears trickle down Suan’s cheek before she knew it and she brushed it away swiftly, not wanting anyone to  see her tears…

Ryeowook looked at Suan who is listless and unusually quiet that day…. There are several occasion which she look like she is going to burst into tears anytime…. He can’t take it anymore when he saw her bumping her head for the 8 times that day and walked over to her…

‘Yah!!! What happen to u?’ Ryeowook asked, looking at her red swollen forehead.

‘I am fine….’ Suan said avoiding Ryeowook eyes.

‘………………………U sure u are fine? What happen to u? Not feeling well?’

‘Yes, I am fine… u know… my nickname given by Ae Li? Moodswing Suan…. Hahaha~’ Suan tried to brush it away with some lame excuse..

‘Do u want to talk?’ Ryeowook offered, doesn’t quite buy her story… He is quite certain this is not one of her mood swing… She will only behave like this when she is facing some problem yet trying to hide it.

‘Nothing to talk, Ryeowook….’ Suan said, looking sadly at Ryeowook… I knew the answer already, what is there to talk? Suan thought to herself.    

‘Since u said so... well...Where is Wu Chun ssi?’

‘Over there…I need to go too….Bye Ryeowook...’

'Bye~'

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‘Hehe! So only food can cheer u up?’ Chun asked.

‘Yes… haha!’

‘If only I know earlier… then I wont have to sacrifice my shirt then….’ Chun said teasingly…

‘Aish… its not that serious…. Not that the tear stains will stay on it forever….’

‘Haha! Help me to wash it later…’

‘Hahaha! No way~ U are the one who wanted to be a busybody, ok? Haha!’

‘So ungrateful…’

‘Now u know…’ Suan said sticking out her tongue at Chun…

‘So, are u full now?’ Chun asked.

‘Yes… almost… u?’

‘Its ok…. I am still not so used to the food here…’

‘U should have said earlier… we should eat at Ae Li’s house, can save money too… hahaha!!!’

‘I don’t think she will be very happy when she heard that…Haha!!’

‘Hahaha!!! She is ok, but her husband will kill u with his killer glare for making his wife a cook…’

‘Yah… u do sound better now…at least u can joke....’

‘Yes, I do….Thanks for cheering me up…’

‘U know… being in this entertainment biz really makes my life interesting…. I can always have the feel being ‘someone’ in drama and movie… I get to meet many interesting people and getting to know them…’

‘Erm…’ Suan nodded at him.

‘And…. U are one of the interesting people I meet.’

‘Ah? Me? Hahah! What so interesting about me?’

‘A lot… ur randomness, ur straightforward and your interesting mood swing…hahahah!’

‘Yah!!! U realize that? But I thought i…..hide it well…’ Suan said almost in a whisper…

‘No! u DID NOT….’

‘Aish… Rude boy!! Haha!! But, ya… I am like that… although I am not perfect but I am trying hard to improve myself… maybe one day I will be able to control my emotion better?’

‘Hahaha! Its not good to be too emotional… But there nothing wrong with it as well… its just a way of showing how u feel…’

‘Thanks for making my mood swing sound like a good point~ haha!’

‘So…. Can u control ur emotion tomorrow?’

‘Erm.. I think I can…’ Suan nodded and smiled at Chun.

‘If u see him?’

‘Try to avoid~ haha! But I will be fine… Maybe I am too anxious previously… I don’t wish to push him and myself any further….’

‘Suan…. Would u let me take care of u?’ Chun asked.