Come Back

I Can Only Love You

  Yamaa paced back in forth in the room that Jaejoong had locked up in. He had checked into a hotel near the SM building, but Jaejoong had gone out of his way to pick him up and take him to his own dorm. Yamaa was sure he meant to help him with reaching Alice, but to his dismay, Jaejoong locked him up since the moment he had stepped inside. He had yelled at Jaejoong to open up, only to be told to be quiet because he was interrupting the TV show that the rest of them were watching. Yamaa needed to get out of that place and go look for Alice. To explain to her just what had happen and hope that she would forgive him. But most importantly, to have her come back to him. 

  "Jaejoong!" he knocked on the door. "I'm hungry!" Which wasn't far from lying, but it was a way to see if he would finally let him out. "And I haven't used the restroom since I got here to Korea!"

  "Yah, Jaejoong, let him out," Yuhno whined. "Besides, you can't keep him there forever. Soon it'll become a kidnapping case."

  "Yeah, and you've kept him there all night," Xiah stretched out on the couch.

  The door finally opened and revealed Jaejoong standing shirtless and with his hair tossled from just having woken up. He blinked at Yamaa and rolled his eyes before motioning him to step out. As Yamaa passed him, he grabbed Yamaa's arm as he quickly sent a text. He looked at Yamaa and shook his head for him to wait.

  "I'll give you something to eat," Jaejoong pushed Yamaa into the bathroom. "Wash up and get ready."

  "Thanks," Yamaa stepped into the bathroom and closed the door.

  Jaejoong went into the kitchen and began making breakfast for everyone, his mind thinking quickly. Alice had texted him that morning letting him know (at the same time as waking him up from his lovely slumber) that three of the boys and the girls were going out on a tripple date. It would be a lot harder for Yamaa to find her, giving Alice one more day of preparation. Meeting Yamaa was inetable and he knew that she needed to mentally prepare herself for it. But at the same time, he started to think that maybe he should just lead Yamaa right to her. Things needed to get solved. Needed to get talked out. And he needed to stop enabling Alice from running away from the situation. 

 

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 "Bali!" Alice stood by the entry way of the girls' room, arms crossed over her chest, foot tapping the floor impatiently. "Seriously, how long does it take for you two to get ready for a date?"

 "What are you talking about?" Adriel didn't bother looking up from her pile of shirts on the bed, trying to pick between two different pink shirts.

 "We're not taking forever, it's only..." Belle looked at her phone and gasped. "It's already 10:45!"

 "What?!" Adriel looked at Belle panicked. "But I can't choose what to wear!"

 "How the heck did Alice get ready so fast?" Belle whined as she pulled on some purple skinnies.

 "She's weird that way," Adriel finally chose a shirt and threw it on.

 "Girls!" Key called out from the front door. "Hurry it up or we won't have much time before the recording tonight!"

 "Belle," Alice walked over to her and grabbed a black tank top. "Choose something already."

 "Go away," both girls snapped. 

 "Aish," Alice walked out exasperated, shaking her head. "And don't forget you still need to do make up."

 "Crap!" she heard from the room as she joined the guys, laughing as she went.

 "What's so funny?" Taemin asked, looking up from the couch.

 "And what's taking them so long?" Key tapped his food impatiently as Jonghyun stepped out the bathroom.

 "They're barely figuring out what they're going to wear and need to do their make-up," Alice covered laughing.

 "So you're all done?" Taemin asked.

 "Yeah, I didn't take as long," Alice smiled as the girls finally appeared from their room, fully dressed and make-up done.

 "How did you get ready so fast?" Belle whined at Alice.

 "Cuz I'm just that good," Alice 'merhonged.

  "Don't let her foodl you," Key suddenly spoke up. "I saw her up really early, trying to make sure her clothes were clean, and saw her struggling to choose what to wear from the clothes she washed. She also made breakfast and then straightened  her-"

 "Key!" Alice shot Key a glare. "Shush."

 Everyone burst out laughing, her cover blown. Jonghyun took her hand and they all headed out to the streets, Alice mumbling as they went out. Once they left the building, an odd figure was out near the gate, but they ignored it as they walked and laughed. They all held hands. Alice was a little worried that if fans saw her hold hands with Jonghyun word would get out and get them all in trouble, so Key took her hand with one and Adriel's with the other. They continued on with the guy/girl pattern. Next to Key walked Belle, and beside her Taemin. They all swung their hands and they all became giddy.

 "So, where we headed?" asked Belle.

 "I was thinking we should go to the Hongdae," Key said. "Alice hasn't been there and I think she would like it. And you girls haven't gone except for shootings."

 "Wah, sounds awesome!" Taemin nodded. 

 Alice broke away from the group, walking backwards, clapping her hands as she said, "I think it will be fun! I've always-" she stopped, seeing how everyone had suddenly frozen. Jonghyun looked upset and his jaw was set hard as they all looked past her.  "What-" she turned around to see what they were looking at, and her heart dropped but sped up at the same time.

 "Alice," Yamaa stood right behind her and he was looking at her with relieved eyes. "I found you."

 "Funny," Alice found herself saying before she could think. "I wasn't playing hide and seek with you."

 "Alice, what are you say-" Yamaa started.

 "Are you perhaps a stalker?" she scoffed and stepped back.

 "Excuse me?" Yamaa frowned. "Stalker? Me?"

 "Yeah, you, who else?" she rolled her eyes and soon she felt someone take her hand. She glanced over and saw Jonghyun. "Hey."

 "You okay?" Jonghyun whispered in her ear.

 "Yeah," she gave him a small smile.

 "If anyone is a stalker, it's you," Yamaa said, clearly annoyed now as he saw Alice and Jonghyun hold hands. 

 "How the heck am I the stalker?' Alice hissed. 

 "I don't know," Yamaa stepped forward. "You knew everything about me, came to Japan. I bet you even planned running into me. You came into my hotel room back in Kyoto. Then you somehow managed to get hosted by me. Who's the stalker."

 "Woah," Alice released Jonghyun's hand and stepped towards Yamaa again, and he hid the relief when she released the other's hand. "Who's the one that came running to me when I was crossing the street after saving you from the crazy fans? Who's the one that asked to run around with me all over Kyoto? Who's the one who gave me the key card to your hotel room? Who's the one that came to the airport to prove to my teacher that we did all the things after having gone to look for my camera? Who...." she took a deep breath. "Who's the one that lied to me about how they felt!?"

 Yamaa stopped and bowed his head. "I didn't lie," he murmured.

 "Liar," Alice turned and faced Jonghyun, and saw the other's behind her. She had completely forgotten about them. "Let's go guys."

 "Alice, let me explain," Yamaa reached and grabbed her wrist. "Let's talk, please."

 "Leave me alone," she pulled free and took Jonghyun's hand. "Jjong, guys, girls, let's go."

 "Alice," Belle looked at the other's then at Alice.

 "Let's go," she walked away, still holding on to Jonghyun's hand.

  Everyone looked at Yamaa and shrugged, slightly bowing as they followed after the other couple. There was nothing they could do if Alice was going to run away from the situation or just was completely done with it. They all had decided to go out to have a good time, and they weren't going to let Yamaa's presence take that away from them. Belle ce more to look at Yamaa and signaled him to follow them secretly before turning to look straight ahead.

 

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Yamaa's P.O.V.

 I watched them leave, Alice leading the way, holding hands with the dino head. When she lashed out at me, I couldn't help but lash out as well, and I regretted it now. Seeing her hold hands with him, I knew they were together. From what I had learned about Alice since living with her and having fallen more in love with her as the time went by, she wasn't the type to start dating someone so carelessly right after what happened to us. It wasn't in her character, even if she just wanted to make me jealous. The only thing I could come up with was the fact that Jonghyun had somehow managed to convince her to date him, right?

 As I called a taxi over to follow their van, I began doubting myself. Began to doubt the feelings Alice had shared along with me. Had I really hurt her so much that she pushed past it, forgot it, and decided to move on? Whatever it was, I couldn't lose her. She meant so much to me, and I wanted to talk to her. Explain things to her. Bring her back to Japan with me. And just be completely honest with her, which now I knew was what I should have done from the very start. I bit my thumb's nail as we followed the van. There had to be a way for me to talk to her. To convince her to hear me out.

 When we stopped at Hongdae, I followed behind them on foot as they walked around. Some fans of theirs squealed and took their phones out to get pictures of them. When they noticed Alice with them, some looked confused and some a little upset. Alice of course didn't let that get to her and went to the girls, knowing it was probably safer if she was with them more than the boys. Some similarities could be seen between the two sisters and so I decided to look up info on Adriel and see what came up. To my surprise, there had just been a statement released that Alice was visiting her little sister and her friend. A photo was also there, her eyes shining, and a bright smile lit her face. As I scrolled down to see what else it said, my eyes widened in disbelief when I saw something about me, alongside a picture of me.

  That's when I noticed some looking my way and I sighed. I wasn't even going to bother hiding. I wanted Alice to know I was there and that I wasn't going to give up on talking to her. That I was going to be here as long as it took to be able to explain myself to her. I wanted to be the one who brought that bright smile on her face again, the one on the pictures. I glanced up and saw her laughing at something her sister said, but it never quite reached her eyes. It was my fault. 

 I couldn't keep my eyes off her, and that's when she glanced in my direction and her smile faltered for a brief second before looking away and smiling again as if nothing happened to her Adriel and Belle. The boys had joined them in their conversation and Jonghyun looked up and spotted me. His looks was calculating and wary, glancing briefly at Alice before looking at me again. His eyes said it all, stay away.

 

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Alice's P.O.V.

  I could feel his gaze on me. I could feel his eyes, brown and deep, watching me interact with the others. It took every part, every fiber of my being to not look at him again. To fall into his trap again and let him convince me that he loved me when I knew it wasn't true. When he'd already lied, so what were the chances that he would lie to me again. I couldn't bring myself to trust him and let myself get hurt again.

 I turned and looked across the street at a cute shop and pointed at it. It had lots of posters and accessories. The girls nodded and we headed towards it, the boys in tow. We joked and laughed brightly before something caught my eye. I walked away, leaving the rest talking about a plushy that the girls wanted and whether or not they should let the boys buy it. It was a simple ring that seemed to glow on its own. The band was gold and on it was a crystal with a simple cut to it. I didn't know why, but it really caught my interest. I glanced to right of it and saw a matching type of ring for a man to wear. 

 "Should we buy them?" I jumped and glanced over at Jonghyun. "You like it don't you?"

 "They're nice," I smiled at him before looking at them again. It's not that I wouldn't like to buy them, but that it made me think of that song Yamaa and I had sung together a few months back when we first started dating. 

 "Are you okay?" he placed a hand on my shoulder.

 "Yeah," I closed my eyes, going back to that day. He had smiled so brightly at me, so sincerely and lovingly. "But I don't really want them, so it's okay. I just thought they were pretty."

 "Okay..." he seemed disappointed.

 "It's not even your style," I laughed. "Come here." I took his hand and led him to another side of the shop where there was all kinds of necklaces. "Now here are some that call your name more."

 "But I want to get something couples use," he pouted at me, giving me big puppy eyes and I laughed.

 "We have to be careful Jjong, remember?" I reached in front of him and found a necklace that just called Jjong's name. "This one."

 "This one?" he took it from me and looked at it. It was silver, but it looked as if it were a bit worn. The shape was that of a sword with a snake twirling down it, it's eyes with ruby like stones. "It's kind of cool..."

 I smiled and picked another necklace with the same faded silver look but instead a shield with a falcon on it. "And I'll get this. They can be like our own couple necklaces."

 "That's not a bad idea," he took the necklace from my hand and headed to the register. "Unique, I like it," he looked over his shoulder at me and smiled warmly.

 "What is Jonghyun buying?" Belle came up behind me, glancing over at Jjong. 

 "Some necklaces," I ruffled her hair and she pouted at me.

 "Couple necklaces?" Adriel joined us and looked at the two of in turns.

 "I guess you can say that," I smiled and Jjongie finally came back with the boys who held bags of their own. "But it'll be harder for people to know if they see us both wearing them."

 "They're pretty cool," Jjongie added. "And especially because they're so unique and Alice picked them."

 "You two are forever the cheesiest," everyone said as they walked away snickering.

 "Yah!" Jjongie followed after them and I laughed before glancing back once more towards the rings.

 I couldn't help but glance around one more time to see him. I hadn't seen him in a long time and my heart ached when I saw him, remembering all the hurt, but I also felt anxious and lonely without him. I didn't see him and couldn't help but feel a little disappointed before making my way to the front door where everyone else was waiting for me. I was looking down, lost in thought when I bumped into someone as I opened the door. I looked up and began to apologize but stopped short, my heart beating faster and my breathing slowed.

 "It's okay," Yamaa looked at me with a small smile. "Can we please talk?"

 I swallowed and looked out the door to see everyone waiting for me. "No," I looked at him again and saw the resignation in his face. The hurt that flashed in his eyes. That's when I noticed he looked thinner, and dark circles under his eyes as if he hadn't slept in days, maybe weeks.  

 "Please?" his voice, now I realized sounded tired and weak, as if sand paper had scraped at his throat. I took a double take, but shook my head and finally walked out to meet the others. I could feel his steady gaze on my back before he disappeared inside the store.

 

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 The day went on as the three couples played games, punishing each other and snacking on food. Fans took pictures of them the whole time but Alice ignored it the whole and managed to have a good time with the rest of the group. At some point Jonghyun had slipped his hand in hers and each couple held hands with their own couples. Alice didn't think much of it but to give him a smile. The rest forgot about their follower, the one who kept watching them, trying to get close to Alice to talk to her. All except Jonghyun, but Alice kept tugging at him and disctracting him.

 "We have to head over to the TV set," Key looked at his phone before flipping his hair out of his eyes. 

 "Already?" Taemin pouted and looked Key. "Key-umma, we wanted to go to the norebang."

 "We can maybe do that after the shoot," Key ruffled Taemin's hair before putting the stray strands back to their place.

 "Well, we have to wait for Adriel and Belle to come out of the bathroom," Alice pointed out. "I'll go get them. I might as well go too. I won't take long."

 "Okay," the boys nodded but before she walked away, Jonghyun caught her wrist.

 "Be careful..." he looked over her shoulder. "Make sure no one follows you." He looked over her shoulder to a group of girls who seemed to have caught on to how close Alice and Jonghyun were.

 "I'll be fine," Alice smiled reassuringly and walked away. Even if she could take care of herself, she knew how scary fans could be, so she moved quietly and carefully, making sure the girls couldn't follow her. Once in the bathroom, she stopped Adriel and Belle washing their hands and laughing at something. "Girls, what's taking you so long?"

 "Oh hey Alice," they quieted down. "Sorry, we're headed out now though."

 "The guys are in the same place," Alice smiled. "I'll be right out. I'm going to use the bathroom."

 "Want us to wait?" Belle asked. 

 "It's okay," Alice shooed them out. "I won't take long."

 "Okay," they waved and walked out.

 As she stepped into the stall, a group of girls entered the bathroom. Alice couldn't hear them very well, but she didn't mind them. It was none of her business, or so she thought.

 "Jonghyun-oppa and that girl," Alice had just finished and now that caught her interest. "They're acting like a couple."

 "Are you sure," another girl said. "I mean, it could be he's being nice to her because of what happened in Japan and she's Adriel's unnie."

 "C'mon," a third girl said. "It's obvious something is up with them."

 "Yeah, and if you think about it," girl one said. "The girl, she must be playing with Jonghyun-oppa."

 "I guess," girl two said. "Have you seen the way he looks at her?"

 "She's no good," girl one said.

 "We need to talk to her," girl three agreed. "And we need to tell her she better watch it."

 Alice rolled her eyes. She flushed the toilet and she could feel all of them jump on the other side. She stepped out, flipping her hair over her shoulder, "First off, you should learn her name," she began washing her hands as the girls looked at her in surprise. "Alice by the way. Second, can't I just spend time with my sister and childhood friend?"

 "Who knows, you might take advantage of him," the girl that seemed to be girl two said. "Act pitiful because of what happened with your Japanese guy. Oh, and not to mention he was famous."

 "Really?" Alice dried her hands on her little towel.

 "You probably like messing around with famous people don't you?" girl three said.

 "Just want the attention," girl one said. "Want the fame."

 "Wow, I can't believe I'm hearing this," Alice laughed and started walking out of the bathroom.

 "You're not walking out just like that," Alice had to take a double take. Her Korean was spoken a lot faster that time and that make her hesitate to think about what the girl had said. 

 "I think I am," Alice walked out only to stop when she saw a bigger group of girls. "What the heck?"

 "No one messes with our SHINee," one said.

 "Crap," Alice looked for an escape route and glanced back at the bathroom where the three girls had been, blocking the bathroom.

 "We let anyone nearby know via tweeter and so on," girl one smirked.

 "You got to be kidding me," Alice looked in the direction to see the boys and the girls circled by fans asking for autographs and pictures. "Man, this was not part of today's plans."

 "Please follow us back into the bathroom," someone said.

 "Like I will," mumbled Alice trying to push through only to be pushed back by someone. She looked over and spotted Jonghyun looking at her with worry. He wanted to come and help her but he was trapped. "You know, if you hurt me, what will that say about Shawols? Huh? What will SHINee think of you?"

 "What are you saying?" someone asked.

 "She's just stalling, get her in here!" but before the girls pushed through, someone came barreling through from behind and took Alice's hand before pulling free from the shocked group. 

 Alice followed behind the stranger in confusion, stumbling before regaining her footing. She looked at the hand in hers and she recognized it right away.  She stopped, causing the male in front of her to stop abruptly. She janked her hand away and looked at the ground. 

 "Get away," she hissed lowly. "I had it under control."

 "Sure you did," Yamaa looked at her. "We're going to talk. Now."

 "No, we're not," she turned to go but Yamaa grabbed her hand again, firmly so she couldn't pull free. "Let go!"

 "Not until we talk," Yamaa pulled her, ignoring her protests. Eventually Alice gave up and followed, her hand slack against his. 

 "By the way, you look like hell," she commented.

 "You kinda do too," he looked over his shoulder and finally stopped outside and unto a bench.

 "I do not," she scoffed and crossed her arms as he finally let go of her hand.

 "Not in the way you think," he motioned for her to sit down and finally after she did, he sat down too.

 "Whatever," she crossed her arms over her chest and looked at her lap. "Talk, say what you want. I have to go."

 "Okay," he became still and took a deep breath. Alice could feel his nerves and the anxiety coming from him. "Maki and I were dating as a serious couple. Not for appearances like I'd said."

 "Obviously," Alice couldn't help to try and retort, only for her voice to come out in a quiet whisper. 

  "Just listen, please, then you can say what you want," he closed his eyes briefly then looked at Alice. "She had confessed to me way before I met you, which you probably knew. I didn't want to date her, I had always looked at her as just a friend and nothing more. But she insisted and it happened so fast, but she kissed me publicly and from there we were a couple. I wanted out and she knew it but I thought she didn't. Time went by and I just let it be. We acted friendly and like usual except for the occasional couple thing she would have us do. When we met, I didn't know what it was, but, it was different. I've dated and just been with girls but it was nothing compared to how you made me feel the moment you pulled me from fans grasps in the Kyoto. When you almost got hit by the car I felt my heart flip and twist with panick and I didn't understand why. And the more and more time I spent with you, the more and more I wanted to be with you." He reached for Alice's hand, now on her lap. He was grateful that she didn't pull away. "When I almost kissed you before my concert, I realized we knew each other for such a short time, and that you probably didn't feel anything of what I felt for you. Performing on stage was so amazing and I felt such a fire withing me." 

 When we bid each other goodbye, I couldn't stop thinking about you. Especially after what I had heard you say over the phone to your sister at the hotel. I was going insane. But then, when you stood before me at my own home, I thought I had lost it. That I was imagining you. But I wasn't and I was so happy and excited. Then I got to know you more and more and I knew for sure, what I felt for you. When SHINee and your sister and Belle came over, and I saw the chemistry you and Jonghyun seemed to share, I was in such disbelief and I was scared that you might actually have pushed all your feelings for me. So the day when I confessed, I had to know the truth, I had to know what you felt for me and him."

 Alice, when you said that you loved me, I was on cloud nine." Yamaa tilted her chin up to look at him in the eye. "When you accepted me, I wanted to take care of everything and make it public that I was dating the most amazing person on the planet. I kept trying to meet with Maki so I could end things with her and so I could make things work out with you. The day we got engaged, we walked into the store together because she dragged me inside and got excited. When I tried telling her I wanted to break up with her, she was looking at a ring and she ignored what I said and said she would love to get married to me as if I had asked her. Before I could stop it, the man working there and his wife made the call."

  It got worse and I began to panick. The reason I didn't want you to look at news involving me was because I was scared something like that could happen and you would just walk out. I never imagined you would run into her at home. I didn't think you would be home so early. I regretted not telling you what was going on, but it was because I thought you wouldn't want me if I was with her. That you would go to the din- to Jonghyun and not look back. It happened anyways, but everything has been solved, so, do you understand?"

  Alice glanced down at their joined hands then back at Yamaa. She didn't know what to say, and knew he was telling the truth, but she was scared. She was scared something like that could happen again. But before she could stop herself she said, "I do." She wanted to pull away and run back to the group, but something tugged at her. 

 "There's something else I want to tell you," he said softly, hope in his eyes. "But we have to go to Japan for that... so, Alice..."

 "Alice!" Jonghyun came running with the group following after him. "Are you okay?"

 "Jonghyun," Alice stood up and looked at Jonghyun, having forgotten completely about them. "I'm okay."

 "Yamaa," Jonghyun bowed. "If you excuse us, we have to go."

 "Alice," Adriel and Belle hugged her. "You're okay?"

 "I'm fine," Alice repeated. 

 "Thank you for saving her," Adriel bowed and looked at them.

 "It was nothing," Yamaa was now standing and he looked at Alice. "Alice..."

 "I have to go," she looked down. 

 "We're late, " Key nodded. "The van is here."

 "Kaja," the van arrived, Minho and Onew inside.

 "Yamaa..." Alice looked at him. "I'm sorry, I have to go."

 Everyone was inside and Jonghyun was waiting, watching them. "Alice, to Japan, come back?"

 "Later," Alice ran into the van and joined the rest.

 "Come back..." Yamaa watched as they drove away.

 

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Okay, so... Yamaa was back in this chapter....

Aren't you all just happy?

(sorry for the beer thing lol)

But um, isn't that exciting?

And it looks like Alice is starting to believe him...

But well, what else does Yamapi have to tell Alice in Japan?

Anyways! I've updated and I'm too lazy to edit, so, enjoy xD

I think the next will be second to last?

I don't know haha

But I just wanted to say, thank you to all my lovely subscribers!

I love you all!

So don't forget to comment cuz I love comments!

Jyane!

 

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hanzxxx #1
Chapter 34: Wahhhh....great!im happy for all of them...
But i feel sad for maki n jjong tho...
Maki,coz i love her n pi together,jjong coz,well,he love alice..ngeeeee..... <3
anu_international_XD #2
Chapter 34: Omgggggggg!!!
I had to control a tear from falling outta my eye and that is SUCH a difficult thing to do! (I cant cry in front if my sis while glaring at my phone..) but i LOVED that!!!!!!!!
Yamapiiii! I'm gonna miss having to wait for your update :-(
Happy new year :D
<3
izz_berry #3
Chapter 34: this was my 1st fanfic i've ever read. thank u so much for finishing this. i havent found yamapi fanfic a lot, but yours really stand out frm the rest. good job!
anythingkpop
#4
Chapter 34: I'll edit this later... Maybe... We both know I'm lazy xD
onlythebest24
#5
Chapter 34: ;~~~; great ending~ <3
izz_berry #6
is this finished?is chapter 28 the last one?i'm confused cause it's labeled as completed.
maeanneda123
#7
Oh man, I love love love! It feels like forever since you last updated.
hanzxxx #8
Chapter 32: love it love ittt!!!!! pi look super adoreable at the last pic XDD
anu_international_XD #9
Chapter 32: Yayy! Finally he reappears! He ought to be kicked for taking such late action T.T
Well, well, all Alice has to do now, is accept his apology (wait, did he apologise??..i think he just explained everything, which counts as an apology, right? O.o) and get back together with him! Yayayaya xD
GO updates! :D
onlythebest24
#10
Chapter 32: sword with the snake around it.
i saw what you did there. nice biblical reference :D
great story, and i love how its kind of an alternate universe where db5k is still all 5 QuQ