New Start?

I Can Only Love You

  The door was firmly shut, only a dim light could be seen through the crack, as if a TV was on. Everything was quiet, and all the lights were off. Alice's heart rate was slow and steady, but she felt fidgety. She wanted to knock, but she didn't want to knock. It was too much for her. She knew Onew was right, but... she didn't know what she felt. Jonghyun was a great person, and she'd hurt him once, she knew, when she told them she had chosen Yamaa. 

  A shuffling noise came from the room, making Alice jump and let out a small squeak, startled.  When she realized the doornob was moving, she ran, just as the door opened. She held her breath, her heart now pounding as she hid around the corner, hands clasped over . Everyone else was alseep, except Jonghyun. He tended to stay up a little later sometimes, and when she came back from the restroom, she'd seen the dim light. Now she regretted standing stupidly at the door.

  She closed her eyes, and listened. When she finally heard the door shut, she very quietly made her way to the girls room. She kept her head low and her breathing as quiet as possible. She couldn't talk to Jonghyun, she refused too because she felt she wasn't ready to face him. It was better that way in her opinion. As she passed his door, she quickened her pace, only to be suddenly grabbed by the wrist, pushed and pressed against a wall, or door, she didn't know. A hand covered her lips to muffle her gasp.

  "What's with the sneaking around?" Jonghyun's voice came as a quiet whisper. She could barely make out his sillouette, the laptop on his desk, emmitting the dim glow she had noticed earlier. "It's really late you know, and Minho decided to sleep in Onew and Taemin's room tonight."

  "jmad" she mummled incoherently into his hand. 

  "Oops," he dropped his hand to her shoulder, holding her back.

  "I went to the bathroom," she looked down.

  "Why were you outside my room?" he placed his other hand on her other shoulder.

  "I wasn't," she whispered.

  "Why did you suddenly start avoiding me?" she felt his warm breath on her lips, making her gulp. This was exactly why she hadn't wanted to talk to him.

  "I... I wasn't!" she stood rigid, pressing herself more to the... door, she realized.

  "Don't lie," he sounded hurt.

  "I don't know..." she finally said. "Molla!"

  "Give me a chance," he bit his lip, her features a little more clear to him than he was to her due to the soft glow as he watched her closely. "Please?"

  "What do you m-mean?" her voice trembled. She knew what he meant, and she didn't, couldn't, wasn't ready for this type of confrontation with him.

  "I'll make you forget him," he murmured. "Just give me a chance, it's all I ask."

  "It's not fair to you," she closed her eyes, feeling frustrated.

  "I know, and don't care," his grip on her shoulders tightening slightly. "But I understand, just please, give me a chance? Please?"

  "I can't," she shook her head. "It isn't right."

  "Stop me then," he growled.

  "Stop you from wh-" she stopped, eyes going wide as he crashed his lips on hers.

  He pulled away briefly, looking her in the eye, "Stop me. Pushe me away if you won't give me a chance."

  "Jjong-" he stopped her again, once again pressing his lips to hers. He cupped her cheek, deepening the kiss, trying to get her to respond. She finally caved, returning his kiss, pressing one hand to his chest. To her relief, he wore a wife beater.

  Jonghyun felt relieved when she finally retured his kiss, heart swelling with joy. He knew she could end up leaving him again, but he wanted the chance to change her heart. As long as Yamaa stayed away, he felt he had a chance. As long as he didn't explain what happened, he knew he had a chance of winning Alice's heart. He'd been keeping tabs on Yamaa, and knew Alice hadn't. He had to take hold of this oppurtunity. 

  "I'll take that as a yes," he broke the kiss slowly, his forehead pressed against hers. 

  "N-neh.." Alice sighed. He asked, and Yamaa... he was no longer part of her life, right? He'd hurt her and betrayed her anyways. "But it still isn't fair to you."

  "I know what I'm doing," he touched her cheek tenderly.

  "Arasso..." she sighed.

  Suddenly he picked her up bridal style and placed her on his bed. Alice let out a small squeak of surprised, eyes blinking fast. After placing her on his bed, he went to turn off his laptop, leaving the room dark. Alice was so surprised, she remained frozen on the bed. Moments later she felt the bed sink a little as Jonghyun joined her.

  "Relax," he chuckled. "It's late, let's go to sleep."

  "N-neh," she slowly did as he told her and relaxed.

  She layed on her left side, facing away from Jonghyun. He scooted over to Alice, draping his right arm over her waist and put his chin at the crook of her neck. He coudln't help but smile, knowing the person beside him was the girl that made his heart race. He was happy that she was his. Alice felt her heart pound. She felt safe and comfortable with Jonghyun, but it was her first time laying next to another man that wasn't... it was different.

  

  "Jonghyun!" the door slammed opened as Minho burst through, everone else behind him. "We can't find Alice!"

  Jonghyun and Alice stirred, Alice the first to poke her head up. Everyone froze, stunned. Immediately the younger members were blocked from view. Alice blinked a few times, confused and still half asleep.

  "Alice!" Adriel snapped. "What is the meaning of this?"

  Finally Jonghyun popped his head up, bed hair and all. "Morning," he said yawning.

  "Morning?!" Adriel walked up to the bed. "Why are you two in the same bed?"

  Alice blinked, then her eyes opened as she realized what the big deal was, her lips forming into a small "o". 

  "We didn't do anything," Jonghyun sat up, rubbing the sleep from his eyes.

  "There's innocent minds here!" Key walked up to Jonghyun and smacked him lightly upside the head. "Example!"

  "Yah," Jonghyun pouted. "You didn't say anything when were were on the couch."

  "Because you two were exhausted," Adriel said. "But this is a bed. A BED!"

  "Breath," Alice stood up and stretched. "If I remember correctly, I'm an adult." She walked past Adriel, poking her forehead. "And I'm not stupid. We just barely got together. I don't move that fast in a relationship."

  "Mwoh?" Adriel turned to face her, but Alice had slipped away to get dressed. "Jonghyun, what exactly happened last night?"

  "I begged her to give me a chance," he sighed. "She was reluctant, but I begged her and told her I knew what I was doing."

  "Whatever," everyone gave up and slipped out.

  "Adriel," Key walked side by side with her. "Let's go on a date today. We're off today after all."

  "I don't know..." she sighed. "I'm worried about Alice."

  "She's fine," Key laced their fingers together. "What she needs is to relax."

  "Boys!" a man's voice sounded from the living room. "Girls!"

  "Oh crap," Onew said from behind. "Manager-hyung."

  They jogged to the living room, and spotted the manager. Alice and him facing each other, Alice frozen in place and the manager with his arms crossed over his chest, his gaze unreadable.

  "Hyung," Onew stepped forward.

  "Sit," the manager said sternly, not breaking eye contact with Alice. She was more relaxed now, composed, but stood standing as everyone sat down. "And you are...?"

  "Annyeong haseyo, ireum ga Peterson, Alice imnida," she bowed and smiled. 

  "Peterson..." the manager thought it over.

  "Nanun ga, Adriel-ah unnie imnida," she answered for him.

  "Unnie?" he looked her over. "Are you wearing contacts?"

  "Hm?" she shook her head. "Ah, ani, my eyes are naturally blue."

  "Hair?" the rest laughed at the question.

  "Naturally black," she laughed as well.

  "Kureayo? Arasso.." he finally took a sit. "Why are you here?"

  "I won round-trip tickets to Korea, so I thought I should visit my dongsaengs." Alice next to the girls.

  "Onew, why didn't you say we had such an important guest?" he looked over at Onew.

  "Ah, kugeyo..." Onew froze.

  "I asked him to not say anything," Alice interrupted. "I didn't watn to interrupt their schedules."

  "Then, why not stay at a hotel?" he asked.

  "I'm already studying abroad," she answered smoothly. "I don't have too much money to stay at a hotel."

  "When are you leaving?" he smiled.

  "Ah, that..." Alice finally hesitated She hadn't really thought about it. "I, uh..." she bit her lip, holding back thoughts of Yamaa.

  "I already know," he said. "When these kids came back, I looked you up. A lot of people will soon because of your relationship with Adriel, since the two of you are sisters and because of your host. Especially with the scandal that happened not too long ago with him."

  "Alice," Jonghyun looked over at her, concerned.

  "That..." Alice bit down hard on her lip.

  "Hyung," Jonghyun stood up. "Don't talk abo-"

  "Stop," Alice stood up as well. "Excuse me," she walked out quickly, wanting time to compose herself.

  "Alice!" Jonghyun started to go after her, but Key held him back.

  "Girls, go, we'll handle it," Key watched as the girls hurried to check up on Alice.

  "You haven't heard, have you?" the manager asked calmly.

  "Yes," Jonghyun looked down while the rest looked at the manager in confusion. "But it's not just about that to her. She's hurt and feels betrayed that he didn't have confidence to explain it to her... at least, it'll be like that when she hears everything."

  "You like her," the manager stated.

  "I asked her to give me a chance, even if she still loves him," he looked up. "I convinced her to say yes."

  "Isn't that taking advantage of her situation?" he asked.

  "It doesn't matter," he shrugged. "She didn't want to because she feels it's unfair to me. But I asked her for the chance. I know what I'm doing."

  "What don't we know about?" Minho finally spoke up, asking what everyone else was wondering about.

  "Yeah, clear things up," Taemin bobbed his head.

  "Things have been cleared up with Maki and Yamapi," Jonghyun answered. "Maki explained the whole situation, and stated that she hopes things go well between Alice and Yamapi."

 

  "Alice," Belle sat next to Alice on the bed as Adriel stood at the door.

  "I just hate that it still affects me," Alice sighed.

  "Well, maybe it's a good thing you accepted Jonghyun then?" Adriel finally said. "But, even if everything were to be solved with Yamapi and Maki, and he came for you, would you go back to him?"

  "I want to say no," Alice ran her fingers through her hair. "but I honestly don't know what I would do..."

  "Unnie," Belle rubbed her back. "Think aobut this carefully. Why did you run away?"

  "I ran away because..." Alice looked down at her hands. "It wasn't exactly because of his engagement. Granted it was a big shock to me and it hurt. But it's mostly because he lied to me and played with my honest feelings, which I'm not sure about anymore... I should have been suspicious when he told me to not read anything about him in magazines and newspapers until he fixed things. I thought he was sincere. I really really did. I don't think I can trust him. He played me. He played with my feelings."

  "So, what if he does come for you?" Adriel asked.

  "He's already coming," Alice stood up. "And I'm going to push him away. I don't trust him." She walked out and back to the living room. "I will leave if it's necessary."

  "Alice," Jonghyun walked up to her and took her hands.

  "It's your manager's choice," she smiled. "I can't stay here forever anyways and I don't want to cause another scandal here as well."

  "You may stay I suppose," the manager stood. "But as to your relationship with Jonghyun, be very careful and don't say anything unless it gets more serious." he looked pointedly at Jonghyun as he said this.

  "Arassoyo," Alice bowed and the manager left.

  "Manager hyung didn't say this but," Onew waved the girls over to sit down. "He's going to thell the company and announce it to the media."

  "Waeyo?" Alice tilted her head, althought she had a small guess. 

  "So in case you and Jonghyun go out and get spotted or any of us for that matter, fans wont get the wrong idea," Onew answered.

  "Be prepared to answer questions about... well, if you get asked about Japan and Yamapi," Key added. "He'll mention that as well to avoid as many problems as possible."

  "Okay," Alice checked her phone, receiving a text message.

            "Jae-oppa"

                    He's with me. I'll try to keep him away as long as possible if you want.

            To Jae-oppa

                     Yes, please. Gomawo

  "Better tell Manager-hyung Yamapi is in Korea," Jonghyun looked up at Onew after reading the message over Alice's shoulder.

 

  The rest of the day went by uneventfully. They all stayed in the dorm and played games or watched a movie. They all stayed happy and relaxed, the eventful morning far from their minds. Jonghyun stayed glued to Alice, making sure she was always laughing and smiling. And she was. She felt happy with Jonghyun and relaxed. She loved his cheesy romantic side, and his dorky side. She loved his sincerity.

  At some point Onew left and so did Minho, leaving the three couple to play couple games. They were all competative and merciless against each other.

  Around ten, Key stretched and looked at the others, "Let's go out on a date."

  "Date?" Belle tiled her head to one side as Taemin lilted his head to the other. Everyone couldn't help but snicker at the sight.

  "Mwoh?" Taemin blinked confused.

  "Don't worry about it," Adriel giggled. 

  "I think a triple date would be awesome," Jonghyun finally nodded.

  "What about your schedules?" Alice looked at them in turn.

  "We only have something in the evening tomorrow," Key nodded. "Onew and Minho have schedules pretty much all day, and besides, if they were free, I don't think they would want to hang out with us when we have our dates."

  "Ah," Alice leaned to rest her head on Jonghyun's shoulder. "Sounds fun."

  "Neh!" Taemin looked at Belle in excitement. "Let's do it!"

  "We should go to sleep then," Jonghyun smiled at Alice. "We'll need our rest."

  "I just got a text from Onew-hyung," Key looked up from his phone. "He'll be home soon and he's with Minho since they ran into each other on their way home."

  "Okay, sounds good," Adriel stood up and looked around. "Your sleeping in our room tonight Alice."

  "Where else would I sleep?" Alice snickered and stood up too. "Goodnight guys, we'll see you in the morning!"

  "Aish," Adriel rolled her eyes and pulled Belle up as the guys stood up as well. "Goodnight oppas."

  "Night girls!" they all chorused, bringing a smile to girls' faces.

  "Alice," Jonghyun took Alice's hand and kissed her cheek. "I'll see you in the morning."

  Alice blushed and everyone turned away, rolling their eyes, the same thought running through their heads. Such a cheesy romatist.

  "Goodnight Jjong," she smiled and took the girls hands, running away into their shared room.

  "Alice..." Belle walked over to her clothes to get her pjs. "Since he's here... you know he'll come here or find you if we're out... how will you face him?"

  "Do we really have to discuss this?" Alice sighed and sat down on one of the beds. "I honestly don't know."

  "Unnie," Adriel sat at her desk and looked at her. "You're going to have to face the fact that you love him."

  "Maybe it was just infatuation," Alice said quietly. "Yes, I looked at him always, since I discovered his music, but that doesn't mean anything. I think I was just misleading myself."

  "Unnie," Belle sat beside Alice. "You never looked at another guy in your life. It has always been him. Maybe there's things you need to hear him out on?"

  "Who knows... I'll let things just go on their own," she gave them a small smile. "Let's go to bed, we have dates tomorrow."

  "Arasso..." Belle and Adriel shared looks with each other before changing and going to their beds.

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So, Jonghyun and Alice are dating.... Yamapi has chased after her in Korea and things have been resolved back in Japan.

Man, that escalated rather quickly lol What will happen to Yamapi and Alice?!

I can't wait to write out the next chapter... I think it's going to end up being 29 chappies... for the end anyways... or maybe the next one will be the last one? O_____O

I don't even know.

But for those who are still following my story, I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!

And those who comment I LOVE YOU ALL THE MORE! 

You have no idea how happy your comments make me feel ;n; It makes me feel warm all over you don't even know.

CAN YOU BELIEVE I FINALLY UPDATED!

I know I know, and I'm really sorry!

I'm super sure I'm sorry! I know it took me like forever and a half

And I honestly don't know when I'll update again...

But I'll try do so soon!

Now... to catch you up on what's going on with me if you even care.... I got into a hip hop class at the community college!

But I'm already two classes behind because I signed up late so I have to catch up

But I will work hard!

And, I did the auditions for YG and SM Youth Star Auditon

Yes, that's right... pretty legit huh?

But I already got the results...

And I didn't get into either...

But it's okay, I'm not giving up!

But I told my besty and her reaction:

So yeah, as you can see, she was very mad, especially with SM... so, um, SM...

Look out LMAO

Okay, enough of that gif spam...

I'm done and I'll try working on that next update! Till next time!

I hope you guys were all...

*runs away now*

 

 

 

 

  

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hanzxxx #1
Chapter 34: Wahhhh....great!im happy for all of them...
But i feel sad for maki n jjong tho...
Maki,coz i love her n pi together,jjong coz,well,he love alice..ngeeeee..... <3
anu_international_XD #2
Chapter 34: Omgggggggg!!!
I had to control a tear from falling outta my eye and that is SUCH a difficult thing to do! (I cant cry in front if my sis while glaring at my phone..) but i LOVED that!!!!!!!!
Yamapiiii! I'm gonna miss having to wait for your update :-(
Happy new year :D
<3
izz_berry #3
Chapter 34: this was my 1st fanfic i've ever read. thank u so much for finishing this. i havent found yamapi fanfic a lot, but yours really stand out frm the rest. good job!
anythingkpop
#4
Chapter 34: I'll edit this later... Maybe... We both know I'm lazy xD
onlythebest24
#5
Chapter 34: ;~~~; great ending~ <3
izz_berry #6
is this finished?is chapter 28 the last one?i'm confused cause it's labeled as completed.
maeanneda123
#7
Oh man, I love love love! It feels like forever since you last updated.
hanzxxx #8
Chapter 32: love it love ittt!!!!! pi look super adoreable at the last pic XDD
anu_international_XD #9
Chapter 32: Yayy! Finally he reappears! He ought to be kicked for taking such late action T.T
Well, well, all Alice has to do now, is accept his apology (wait, did he apologise??..i think he just explained everything, which counts as an apology, right? O.o) and get back together with him! Yayayaya xD
GO updates! :D
onlythebest24
#10
Chapter 32: sword with the snake around it.
i saw what you did there. nice biblical reference :D
great story, and i love how its kind of an alternate universe where db5k is still all 5 QuQ