The funeral was short. There was little to no crying involved. It was what she wanted, what Tiffany asked for before she passed away. The wooden casket she laid on was sent to the crematorium by Taeyeon and Yuri. Sooyoung and Sunny went to the lobby to thank the guests for coming to the eulogy service. Everyone wore a pink ensemble no one would think that they came from a funeral at first glance. Krystal felt the giddiness in her body and went for a walk towards her sister’s mausoleum to find solace.

“Fany-unnie’s going to be near here soon, sister. Uncle Tim bought the lot next to yours. Looks like you’ll get a new roommate.” Krystal smiled as she talked to her sister’s portrait. She tilted her head and saw a pink envelope hidden behind her sister’s urn. She took it and noticed it was the same envelope she gave Tiffany in the hospital years ago. She carefully opened it and saw that there were two letters folded in it. She recognized her sister’s writings.

To my beloved Miyoungie,

How are you?

Are you still sick?

Are you still sad?

Please smile for me.  

If living means nothing to you now, live it for me. Don’t give up. I know you’re going to get a donor soon. I can feel it. No, I KNOW it. Just a little more, just a little more…patience.

I saw a star fall down from the heavens and I already wished our wish.

You’ll have a donor soon.

You’ll get better soon.

I know it. I believe in it.

It will come. I’m really sure of it.

So please don’t be sad anymore.

Smile for me.

Smile like you used to smile for me.

I miss you.

When you feel hopeless, think of me.

Let me be your hope.

When you feel sad, think of me.

Let me be your happiness.

When you feel lonely, think of me.

Let me be your comfort.

Let your mind be filled with thoughts of a loving me rather than worthless ideas of surrender and depression.

Live it for me.

Live a very full life. Live a happy life…for me.

I know I have said this time and again.

But I will always say it to you as much as the grains in the sand and the clouds in that sunny sky.

I love you.

I have loved you the very first time I’ve laid my eyes upon you.

I have loved you when you were sick and I have loved you when you were better.