Suho's POV

I got up early and dressed. I didn’t care that everyone else in the dorms were sleeping. They didn't matter. She wasn't answering her phone and I was worried. I left and headed up the stairs to my sister's dorm.

I made it to top of the stairs and was hit in the shoulder. The person I'd run into had long black hair that hung in her face. She made a sound, but kept walking before I could see her face. "Sorry," I muttered. I got to Junha's dorm and felt the air leaving my body as another person ran into me, pushing me back this time. This time, I got to see their face. "Where's the fire, Junha?"

She shoved by me and I saw the tears on her face, "Hurry, she's leaving!" She cried, darting towards the stairs.

"Who?" I asked, catching up with her. It took a bit to adjust to the speed we used on the stairs and I was sure I'd never do that again.

Junha was breathing just as heavily, "JaeNi! She's going back to America!"

My heart raced. Why would she leave? And why wouldn't she tell me? I jumped and passed her. We pushed into the morning sunshine, eyes darting in every direction. I spotted the girl from the hall ad went to her. She was opening the door to a cab. "JaeNi!" I shouted.

She turned and looked at me. I grabbed her wrist and simply held it for a moment, "Why are you leaving?"

She looked up at me. This was the first time I'd ever seen her like this. Her hair was pressed flat and her bangs covered one eye. Her eyes weren't cutely decorated with glitter or eyeliner. The under rim of those beautiful green orbs was rimmed in red. She pressed her lips into a thin line, not answering. "When will you be back?"

She leaned up and kissed me. I held her waist, hoping that if I shoved all of my emotions into the kiss, she'd answer me. There was a sound, like a whimper and I felt something wet against my chin. She pulled back and I saw the salty tear tracks on her cheeks. "I won't." Then she got in the cab and slammed the door.

I watched as she told the driver where to go and buried her face in her hands. It was all just a flash. She was gone. I looked around and say Junha. She had one hand over and the other hugging her stomach. She was crying as well.

I wish I had some way to comfort her. All I could do was give her a useless hug. She buried her face in my shirt and sobbed, "Junha... I tried, but..."

She shook her head. My throat tightened. JaeNi was really gone. She wasn't coming back... I'd never get to tell her...

"She said t-to tell you sh-she left something -hich- for you on her p-pillow." She tried to calm herself. I nodded and held her shoulders. "Alright, come on."

The few poeple who were out were looking at us. I glared at them and most went about their business. What the were they looking at? It wasn't my day and it was only seven a.m. We made our way back to Junha's dorm. It took about ten minutes because Junha was clinging to me. When we got back, I saw the door was still open. Junha couldn't take it. She fell beside the door, hand over , "Everything reminds me of her, JunMyeon!"

I knelt down and hugged her. "I'm going to see what she left and then I'm taking you to my dorm, ok?" She nodded and leaned her head against the wall, crying still.

My own tears were threatening to spill now. I went to her room and looked around. There were random papers and clothing items spilling out of drawers from the desk and dresser. The closet was empty and the bed was neatly made as if she'd never slept in it before. I noticed on her bed was a paper with my name on it.

Quickly I unfolded it to see it was a letter.

            'Dear Suho,

            I am sorry. I didn't

            Please forgive me. I'm sorry for any pain I've caused you. I know this is shocking. I won't unload my troubles on you. I won't tell you why I'm leaving. I can't come back. I missed something important and id I come back it could repeat. I just can't.

            Suho, what else can I say? Along the lines of our assignment, I found something I hadn't with many people -absolute comfort. Tao has been there for me, along with Junha, but you were different. Leaving you was difficult. Not just my leaving after I finish this letter, but in general. The day we were the project I was mad with you. I didn't like that you could hold my hands down and talk to me like you'd known me forever. Can you remember that? I wanted to hit you so bad. I pretty much thought you were a total . When I went your dorm with Junha's master key, I was surprised. It was like you had split personality. When I fed you, you looked so shy and aloof cute. I liked that about you.

            Later when we talked and I woke you up for the first time, I realized you weren't so bad. The night you took me to the club and took the picture, you took me home and so many times I wished I would've had the courage to kiss you. The time before when you gave me your jacket, I didn't want to take it. I wanted to be in the cold, huddled up to you like that. It felt nice. I still have your aegyo pictures. I won't try to remember them, but they made me smile.

            When you kissed me... I really liked it. I don't want you to think that's why I'm leaving. There's a time in everyone's life when they have to leave behind someone they loved and for me, this is one of those times. I would've stayed with you all night if you would've asked, but I was afraid. If I stayed and things progressed and later I found out it was all for the project, I would've broken. I was so scared. Somewhere in this mess, I fell in love with you.

            This seems really silly to you, I’m sure. You have amazing skills as an actor. They fooled me completely. I could never tell when you were sincere, but I hoped that you returned my feelings. However, I'm such a coward.

            This is not your fault. Everything you've said to me -it still goes through my mind. Your voice soothed me on many occasions and fired me up on a few. I loved how you could do that to me when so few others could. Thank you for accepting the project from Heechul. It was really fun and worth it.

           But now I need to go. I'm sorry. I'm such a coward and I could never face you like I want. I'm running away. I'm so sorry.

            Please forgive me, guardian.

                                                            With sincere love,

                                                                        Jaynnie Pend

                                                                        aka Pen JaeNi '

I sat down on her bed and ran my hand down my face. There were tear drops in some areas. She cried writing this to me... "JaeNi... I-" My voice completely failed. I wiped away the few tears I'd let fall and folded the note to put in my pocket. I went to the kitchen to get Junha something cold. With all that crying, she'd need it. Hell, I needed it.

I heard rushed footsteps along with the call of, "JaeNi?!"

Kris's POV

I woke up to Tao frantically getting dressed. "What are you doing?" I croaked.

"She's gone! She wrote me a note and left!" Tao sounded basically terrified. The she he was referring to, I guess, was JaeNi. "What's wrong with that? She has her own dorm."

"Not my dorm, pabo! Left the country!" With that he left. Left the...?

"Hey!" I jumped up and grabbed the nearest shirt before chasing after him. "Where are we going?" I asked as we clambered up the stairs.

I didn't need him to answer. I knew the second I saw the small figure on the ground crying.

I bent down to the grief stricken Junha, "Meimei, what's wrong?" She clutched onto my chest.

"JaeNi?!" I heard Tao yelling. Suddenly Suho was with me, helping Junha to stand. We took her inside and set her on the couch. "You're wasting your breath, Tao." Suho announced. "She left about twenty minutes ago."

Junha sobbed into my chest as I rubbed her back, "Who the hell wants to tell me what's going on here?"

Tao ran his hand through his hair and pulled a sheet of paper out of thin air. "Dear Zitao, I wanted to thank you for all you've done. I know you will forgive me later. I booked a plane ticket back to the states this morning from your laptop. I can't come back -it's too painful.

Thank you for your love and friendship, but this is the last you'll ever hear of me. Your best friend, Jaynnie Pend."

I was confused. "She even used her birth name... I can't believe she'd do this!" Tao grabbed his phone out. "I'm calling her." He dialed a few numbers and held his phone up.

~Gom-se-mari-i-go han-jepi-eosseo~

Everyone turned to her room as the children song played. "She left her phone so we couldn't reach her." Junha said sadly.

I felt myself getting angry. Who'd this girl think she was? She broke three hearts in one morning. She used my boyfriend, led on my best friend, and crushed the hope of my little sister. Who the hell does that? "I can't believe this."

Junha sat back and wiped her tears, looking at Suho, "JunMyeon, its ok to miss her."

Suho silently left. Well, he was some help this morning.

Tao sat next to Junha and engulfed her in a hug. "It’s going to be alright, Junha."

She hugged him back, "Somehow, I doubt it."

The two parted and looked at each other, both reminded of their friend. I squeezed Tao's hand gently, "C'mon you two. You could both use a little rest."

He glanced at me and then looked back at Junha, "If you need anything, Junha, anything at all. I'll be here, and so will Kris. I know what you're going through." She hugged him again.

"Same to you, Tao."

I felt so bad for the two of them. They both wanted to be strong for the other, but they were both heart broken.

We left after that. My heart nearly stopped from the sadness I could see in Tao's eyes. We made it back to the dorm and I made them both some breakfast, even though I'm not much of a cook. Neither had much of an appetite... I kissed Tao's cheek and held him tight. "It’s going to be alright,

Tao... I promise."