But then again, I thought to myself. I will only do this for the first time. It's not like I'm the only who attempts to do this. I am not a bad girl anyway. In fact, I can still consider myself well because no matter how tempted am I to ditch class, I still go to school. This is my chance to meet my bias and hello? It's not like Donghae and Siwon are going to visit here every day. If they only live here, then there's no problem. I can stalk them anytime. But goodness, they are from Korea. I can't just fly there and do the stalking. If it was like before when there's no need to do the immigration thingy at the airport, believe me. I would go to Korea every chance I get. In the end, I made a choice. I wouldn't go to school for just one day. I don't want déjà vu to strike again.

Why? Because last January, Kyuhyun, Eunhyuk and Siwon went here and they were at Eastwood. Darn it. I was there too, but I got home already when I found out where they are. I HATE IT. I WAS SO FRUSTRATED LIKE HELL. GRRRRR. I smashed my keyboard once again that time. I do apologize, my keyboard. I'm doing a defense mechanism called displacement. The keyboard has nothing to do with what happened. I almost met them, but I did not. I was a KyuHae shipper, and also an EunHae and SiHae shipper. If only I knew the news earlier, I wouldn't have left yet. There were some people who asked me if I can join them in stalking those three, but I declined. It was the last day of Christmas vacation that time and I have homework to deal with. I prioritized it, ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT WE HAVE NO CLASSES ON THAT SUBJECT THE NEXT DAY. Damn, how can life be this cruel to me? Why? All my efforts were wasted and I cried because of anger.

I sacrificed my desire to see them for that assignment that was postponed. So from that day on, I vowed to myself that I would never ever let anything else interrupt and go my way whenever SJ is around.

I didn't think of my absence anymore. Because I know that no amount of class can replace the happiness that SJ can provide us ELFs.