What I did was I distracted myself, not thinking about it. I want to get chosen. But if not, there's still Plan B. I will go with Jasmin unni and meet her for the first time.

So... six hours have passed, and I haven't seen my name. 400 names to go, then 300.. 200.. Until I went to bed.

Whatever the result is, I know God has plans for me. Lord, I put my trust in you.

I woke up, fingers crossed. I was very anxious. Is my name there???

I checked the page once again and read a message from a fellow ELF, Nikki. She said we were not chosen. I frowned. All of the winners were mostly guys.

My name was not there at all. I did not cry like what I have expected, I only got sad because my money, I used it all up and I didn't get anything. I told Jasmin unni and Sam that I will go with them instead. After all, I preferred being with friends than to be alone. It was fun to spazz that way too.

They all agreed resulting to an event that I created. SiHae in Manila - Meet up. I invited some people especially those who have no one to be with who wanted to witness those two handsome members. For the moment it felt like I was an event manager and a host. Wow. Awesome.

I also met Hannah unni too. I liked her name, Hannah Cho. Similar to Kyuhyun's. She helped me manage the event and answer the questions whenever I am offline. I have to study too that time.  We agreed to meet early and save seats as well. Yaaay. I hope this event would be successful.

Only a few days left, SiHae in Manila here we come. From 3 people, 60 people were now going to the event and 600 people were invited!

The ELFs and I contacted each other until the day of the event. You know what? I also made a letter to Donghae and Siwon. I am not expecting anything, but at least I tried.

Two days before the event. Lights, camera, action. Gotta prepare the materials needed and get some sleep. I don't want Hae oppa seeing me tired. Two more exams, and I'm so ready for this.