It happened today. I lost it. Everything. I am afraid it will happen again. What if it does and I’ll hurt someone this time? It’s not like I haven’t become close to it before. Luckily nothing horrible happened today. I can only see a few broken things in my room. Luckily I was here. If I had been anywhere else, I don’t know what could have happened. I’m afraid something bad would’ve gone down. I think it was written in my destiny that I was in my room. Safe from being surrounded by people. No, that was wrong. People were safe to not be around me. Yes, that sounds more like it. More like what really is true. Everything has lost order inside my head. Everything is mixed up. I feel like I’m being suffocated inside my own brain. It’s horrible. I think I’m gonna faint soon. I can’t let it happen. Can’t let myself faint. No. I have to stay strong. I can’t let it take over me. I have to stay myself. I can’t lose the last bit of who I really am. It’s my last hope. I have to savour it. I have to protect it. I have to make sure it never gets to it. I have to be strong. I can’t give up this easily. But I feel so sick. I feel light-headed. My breathing is deep. I don’t think I can keep this up anymore.

You might ask what is wrong with me. Well, I’m not gonna tell you.

I think it’s fairly obvious anyways. 

I don't know.. Something deeper.. It just came to mind. You can picture whoever as the character. Didn't really think about who I was writing about, but I have a few ideas. He is from exo though. That's for sure as my main theme for this drabble thing is exo. I myself thought of Kai, but that was just me.

I know I stopped for i don't know how long. Like 3-4 months? Maybe even 5? Woops.. I wasn't really feeling it anymore.. Lost my want to write. Of course it's sad. I had hoped I could finish it in time. Oh well. But really wanted to add something when I remembered I had started this, so there it is.. Yay?