I'm tired.
And I kinda want
to disappear.
but sometimes I wish,
there will be magic,
to save me from dying,
they still need me here.

/6/ Live

Time.

It seems simple, you have milliseconds, seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years.

But what if you didn't? What if all you had was the moment you were in right now? Because to Kim Sojung, all she can guarantee is right now. So she tried to live as much as she possibly can; which actually isn't much.

Sojung wakes up to the smell of disinfectant, something she will never learn to appreciate. She heard the annoying beeping of the heart monitor beside her bed, and feel the itchiness of the hospital gown against her pale skin. Those are the reasons why she knows where she is, and what has happened even before she opened her eyes.

She remembered the university festival, her sudden sickness... and Sinb. She clearly remembered how little Eunbi found and helped her.

Now, she owes the young girl the truth. She can't hide it from Sinb, not now when she already witness how she became frail.

"I got sick again and probably fainted." She thought.

Chest pain is a common symptom of Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma. As well as, abdominal pain, night sweats, weight loss, fatigue, and trouble breathing.

All of which Sojung have silently suffered.

She had been diagnosed with cancer for a couple of months now, and it doesn't seem to leave anytime soon.

She roamed her eyes on the room and found her older sister sitting on a chair beside her bed, not noticing Sojung's light movements.

"I said I don't wanna go to the hospital," She stated weakly but with authority. "Why am I here?"

Sojung just hates being in the hospitals. She hates the looks she gets while she's in here.

Sohyun quickly shift her eyes from her phone to her little sister, "So you decided to announce your consciousness by asking me that? Really Sojungie?" Sohyun smiled sheepishly, glad that she got to hear her sister's voice again.

"Why did you bring me here, unnie?" Sojung asked one more time.

"How are you feeling? Does something hurt?" Sohyun asked as she rushed over, not minding Sojung's question. She checked on Sojung, roaming her eyes to her little sister, making sure that she didn't miss any detail. "Are you okay? Hungry?"

Sojung sighed, "I'm fine," She muttered as she tried to sit from the bed. Sohyun helped her, adjusting the pillows so Sojung can sit comfortably.

"Well, you just passed out while I'm driving you home. So I need to bring you here." Sohyun finally answered, looking directly at her sister. 

Sojung shifted her eyes, she can't look at her unnie. She felt awful enough with her mom and sister having to go through this.

"Mom and Sunji were here too, they're just downstairs, probably for some coffee, they'll bring some food up," Sohyun said and goes over the cupboard to pour Sojung a glass of water. She brings it over and helped her sister to drink carefully.

"I'm sorry, Sojungie. I panicked so I drove you here right away." Sohyun said, feeling sorry but still didn't regret what she did.

"It's okay," Sojung muttered. "And I'm sorry too." She said guilty, not wanting to look at her unnie.

Sojung clearly stated to her family that she doesn't want to stay at the hospital, not now. Not now that she is trying to live her remaining time. But things like this are an exception. She knew that they can't just overlook what happened to her, it can lead to something worse if it's not given immediate action.

"Wait a minute Sojung, I will call the doctor to check you." Sohyun walked out of the room.

As soon as Sohyun left, Sowon immed