Breathe. You're going to be okay.
Breathe and remember that you've been in this place before. You've been this anxious and uncomfortable, and scared, and you survived.
Breathe and remember you can survive this too. 
These things can't break you and they will pass.

/SC 2/ Breathe
[ Y U J U ]

The crowd roars as we finished the last song. I heard them cheering our names, screaming on the top of their lungs to show us how they loved the performance. We gave our biggest smiles, take a deep bow and throw some flying kisses as we headed out the stage. I sighed silently, another performance had finished. It was perfect... well almost–not until I messed up the choreography. 

I glanced at the other members. They are all caught up on their own thoughts to even notice my mistake, but my heart's racing fast. Why did I mess up again? Am I too busy thinking of my next move instead of enjoying the stage? or maybe I'm just exhausted? I don't know anymore. 

My mind is preoccupied with the things happening to our group instead of the performance itself. And I can't understand why. Performing is my dream. I worked and practised hard for this. But why do I feel empty?

It also adds up to the fact that Sowon unnie is not here. And no matter how we wished that she's here to perform with us, we just can't. We can't be selfish. We can't prioritize our wants over her needs.

I crawl into the deepest part of my mind. Will Sowon unnie be happy if she's here? Will I be more cautious on my moves if I am more focused? Maybe I should spend more time in the practice room. Maybe I need to work harder. Maybe I'm not enough.

"Yuna!" I blinked. Yerin unnie is in front of me. "Are you okay? I'm calling you several times."

I zoned out.

"I'm f-fine." She continued staring at me for a few more seconds. I can't describe the look on her eyes. Did she notice? I bit back a sigh and pulled her on where the others are.

I ignored Yerin unnie's piercing eyes. Of course, she will notice. She's too observant. It not that I hate it, she's just filling our leader's absence, but I cannot talk to her right now. Besides, I don't wanna add up to her burdens.

Eunha moved to my side and gave me a reassuring pat on the shoulder. I gave a small smile and a nod in return. "We did great, Yuna." She said to me as we walked through the van. As soon as we sat on our seats, nobody dared to speak. It's just the first day after we left home. I sighed, is this how is it going to be for the rest of the week?

I couldn't help but think, what would Sowon unnie do if she's here? Hmm. She'll scold us for sure. This not how professional idols should behave. We shouldn't mix our own emotions at work. But I'm also sure that she'll understand because, for her, our mental and physical health was more important than anything else.

I glanced at Sinb who's leaning on my side. She's asleep. I caressed her hair, the tiredness can be seen on her face. The others are asleep too, seems like we're not the only one. All of us are deeply affected by Sowon unnie's absence. The realization hits me hard, we don't want to be here. I bit my lips as I tried to be strong. 

Sowon unnie... what should we do?

When we arrived at the hotel suite, everyone made themselves busy in t