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Song #11

Baby don’t cry, I’m by your side

I’m sending you my voice, baby my love love love

So you can try dry your tears

Your not alone any longer

You’re not alone - I'm with you.

At what point did I decide to change my mind? I didn't know specifically; I just knew that I had to be as serious as my acting skills allowed me to be. The moment I had Jinwoo on the phone telling me that he had found a way to put things back in order and to fix this love triangle problem, we knew we had to keep you at home until this was fixed, for real, because I knew that in the first moment you learned of the plan in action, you would do nothing more than try to run to meet him to try to stop it.

Although it hurt me a lot to be serious with you again, acting in this way would not only buy me time, but also would help me to make the surprise that was on the way for you really a surprise. As we all sat around the table, I hated myself for making you feel the way I knew you felt. The embarrassment on your face was clear as Key walked over to where you were to get you a cup of tea, your hair to wordlessly tell you that everything was going to be alright. My penance was going to be that, throughout our marriage, I was going to carry the guilt of having embarrassed you in front of everyone by exposing our intimate life. Everyone seemed to know what we were doing behind closed doors, but I knew I didn't have to say it the way I did for everyone to know.

As I sighed heavily, I sincerely wished I could turn back time.

"Now?" You asked again. Even though it wasn't the time, I couldn't help but notice how beautiful you looked with Gahul sleeping in your arms. "You can't do that, Jinki. This is called kidnapping."

I shook my head: what I was about to say was going to sound absurd even to my ears, but I had to be rude somehow.

"This is called; take back what's mine." You looked at me seriously, even when the others chuckled. "You're mine, you said it yourself, but the most important: this is not a kidnapping because we are married."

I pursed my lips, hoping you would not notice how nervous I felt for doing this.

"Now?"

"You must stop asking, angel. I'm the one who decides when I let you go. And honestly, I am thinking on staying with you forever."

I was serious, I was determined to stay by your side every minute that life gave me to live it by your side.

"What are you? My owner?"

You were brave not to look away, but only at me, and yet I noticed that the others were beginning to exchange confused glances, as if wondering how far I was going to go with this.

"Insist all what you want, angel. I'll wait for you to grow up a bit and talk about what really happened with Jinwoo."

You exhaled to release you own frustration.

"You are an idiot, Jinki."

"Am I?!" I rose sharply, pushing my chair back because I was getting tired of playing this game, too. "Is that what you thought when you kissed the one who believed could take what belongs to me?"

As if I was the most transparent glass in the world, you seemed to see my true intentions through my gaze as you exhaled silently without exploding this time. Something, a part of me hoped you would do that, because being under pressure was the only way to make you talk to anyone sincerity. As a cornered person, that was the only way to get you to talk to me.

"I didn't kiss him, but didn't stop him either. How do I tell my best friend, one of the few people who helped me all those years, that I don't love him the way he would like? Have you any idea of what he has done for me, or what it is to keep hurting people for something I didn't do on purpose?"

I knew it right there: I knew that you were talking about the accident, about your brother, about lying to protect him.

"And was that so hard to say?" I moved to stand face to face, so you could look into my eyes and see that I loved you so much I would do anything for you too. "What happens in that head of yours? I'm trying, angel, but you are who makes it difficult. You are stubborn to the bone, and my patience is running out."

And then, one of my members laughed; it was Jonghyun. He was shaking his head as if he couldn't believe what he saw or what we were saying.

"You two are perfect for each other. I don't think there is anyone on earth more perfect for you."

"What do you mean, Jong?" Key asked.

"Don't you see? Hyung was never stubborn, and then he met Juliette. And Juliette didn't trust, and then she married hyung. Both were incomplete until they met, and now they are something never believed to be, all thanks to the other. But now..." He put his elbows on the table and laced his fingers against his lips, looking at us seriously. "Let's focus on what really matters now; just keep doing it and give us a niece very soon."

And Key exploded in an exaggerated laugh. His exaggerated laugh. He was laughing so hard that he nearly fell over Tae.

"Or maybe a nephew." Taemin laughed next to him, like they were daydreaming about it.

I sighed, tired of not sleeping enough, and looked at you, but you had a different idea as you looked back at me.

"Do you know how many people did I hurt when those photos were shown to the world? I tried... and now I'll just sit and watch how I complicate the lives of everyone... again." You shook your head when I was about to say something, but you put a hand on my chest and pushed me away softly. "Now you have to be mature to understand what I'm trying to tell you."

And just like that, you stepped aside and walked out of the dining room. When I took a look at the guys, the 3 of them urged me to follow you, because I had to solve this before the agreed time with Jinwoo, so I did, I walked out of the kitchen, down the hall to our room where I saw Gahul sleeping in our bed, with you standing near the desk with the phone in hand.

"You didn't understand me when I said that my patience was running out."

"So what does that mean?" You turned to me. "All I understand is that you are getting tired of this marriage."

I clenched my jaw. Breathing deeply, I closed the bedroom door and walked toward you, taking your waist in my hands and lifted you to sit on the desktop.

"Did you---?"

But I didn't give you time to think about anything when I took your face in my hands and joined our lips in a kiss. I needed you, I think you could feel it the moment my lips moved in time with yours, your hands running up my arms to my hair to tangle them there as you felt my love overflowing the edge of my heart, joining yours. But when things started to heat up between us, you pushed me slightly to breathe in the cold air of the room.

"I'll bite you if you do that again."

I chuckled and rested my forehead against yours.

"I'm scared." I whispered. "I am afraid to say something wrong again and keep losing you if i haven't already lost you."

You hugged me and hid your face in my neck. Like a little baby, you stood there for a moment, breathing and breathing until you were able to talk to me.

"I must tell you a story for you to understand what I thought at that time." I separated and breathe deeply, ready to hear you. "As a child, the idea of my soul mate was really my twin. We slept in the same room until I was 13 because mom said I was a lady and I needed my own space, but no one in my family knew that I didn't know how to live alone after him. Nobody understood how close we felt so we went to the other's room in the middle of the night, and I think... living like that, I never really understood what loneliness meant, at least until life forced me to experience it. Our grandfather had instilled in us a strong thought; defends, protects and loves people who you choose to keep in your life, and I guess I forgot all about it until I met you. I know what it's like to feel alone, Jinki, feel a huge impotence to desire the love of another person, even when you know they can't give it to you. I never wanted Jinwoo to feel that way, so I didn't stop him. It might sound silly, but at least one of us had to get what we wanted, at least for a few seconds. And... I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you. I don't do these things intentionally, and I am somewhat clumsy at times, but you and I don't---"

"Don't say it." I shook my head and hug you again so you wouldn’t see my weak side. My grip was strong, as strong as my hope that you wouldn’t leave me, never. "I feel lost without you. I acted in an exaggerated way, I just believed in what I saw and didn't considered other options. When it's about you I get confused, and I think that almost lose you was the worst thing that could happen to me. I love you, I need you. I'm also afraid of loneliness when I’m not with you, I don't like how it feels."

But before answering, we heard Minho saying your name from the living room.

You frowned in real confusion, giving me a look waiting for me to tell you what was going on, but pretending not to know anything, you got down from the desk to leave the room and walk down the hall where Minho was waiting for you, smiling.

"Look who came to visit you, Juls."

Your little Julian as you called him entered the room, followed by your older brother. The baby ran towards you and you rose him in your arms, hugging him to never let him go.

"Grandpa sends you all his love, Aunt Julie." He whispered and looked at you in the eye.

"Grandpa couldn't come this time." Jason said next to Minho. "But whatever happens, we're here now, babe."

"What? I don't understand..."

He cocked his head.

"I thought you would tell her." Jason looked at me, but I just shrugged, so he exhaled deeply, ready to tell you the all true. "Listen, baby... Jinwoo called me; he will say what really happened. In fact, I think he must be on TV right now."

When Jong turn on the TV, I had to admit Jinwoo looked so peaceful while cameras launched their flashes in his direction. That was really brave of him.

"I don't know at what time I fell in love with her, but what I didn't had in mind was that she was not meant for me. We spent many moments, and even though she was not for me, my feelings were never malicious. I am not ashamed that my first feelings were towards my best friend, but the only thing I did wrong was wish for something to remind me of her; A kiss that almost hurt many people."

Julian rested his head against your shoulder as Jinwoo keep talking, but I knew that this was going to hurt you too, but at the same time, it was the only way to bring peace for everyone.

–––––– TO THE BEAUTIFUL YOU ––––––

“I must admit that you are very calm knowing that Juliette is with Jinwoo right now, hyung.” Jonghyun said, sitting next to me on the couch while I pretended to watch TV with them.

The hours continued to pass and while you were with your family at your father's house, I continued too with my life as an idol before entering an empty house without you. I knew you'd be back any minute, at peace with yourself after all the craziness of yesterday and today. The boys kept talking about things that I couldn't hear well, because I kept thinking about us, about the things I said, and how long it would take me to erase them.

Suddenly, we heard the door open and a few seconds later you appeared, calm, serene as I had not seen you in a long time.

"What are you doing?"

"Watching TV." The others answered.

“With the volume at zero?” You laughed, tired, and decided it was time to go to sleep, even though it was only 7:30 in the night. "You should sleep too, tomorrow you have an early schedule, right?"

"Yes." The others answered, and I couldn't help but frown as I heard how they all spoke at the same time.

"I want to sleep now." You said that to me, waiting for me to accompany you to the room, as if you not only wanted to sleep, but wanted to sleep with me.

"Let's rest."

I stood up, and this time I didn't care that they knew what we were doing in our room. Because we were no longer children: we were adults now. You said goodnight to everyone and walked down the hall, with me behind you to join us in bed and sleep until the next day. Or so I thought. I was surprised by the way I could read the signs of your body and know what we would do, so I closed the door of the room and walked towards you, who was waiting with your back to me taking off your sweater, my hands finding the edge of it to help you. Once that off, standing behind you, my hands roamed your body in front, almost removing the shirt you were wearing underneath. My hands followed their path, touching your exposed skin until they reached the edge of your s, firm and soft in my hands the moment they were between them, earning a moan from you.

The skirt you were wearing was a delicious treat too, and I was tempted to lift it up just to make you feel good for a long while, but this didn't feel like the right time for that. In the privacy of our room, I waited for the moment to make love to you slowly, gently so that we could forget about the whole world and the problems it brought us. The moment I laid you down on the bed, I just had to lay on top of you with no clothes on entering you in one, slow push. You held onto my arms the moment your head fell back, biting back a moan that came out as a whimper, my lips finding their way to your neck, kissing every inch of your exposed skin.

"Soon we'll make love in our own house..." I said without stopping moving, slowly until you get used to the rhythm in which we were going. “And you won't have to keep anything to yourself. You will let me hear everything from you.”

You bit your lip so hard I thought it would bleed, but you nodded as my forehead rested on yours to help calm the glorious sensation that began to form in our bodies with each movement we made.

–––––– TO THE BEAUTIFUL YOU ––––––

The week that your brother stayed with us flew by, as if the days were hours and the hours just minutes, that was why, and although everything returned back to normal, (almost everything) I prepared myself for the worst case scenario and kept our passports in my jacket pocket in case I needed them. I didn't think I would until we were at the airport gate and you couldn't say goodbye to your nephew, who didn't want to part with you after a week together either. So we bought two more tickets to America and within minutes we were flying to visit one of the homes you grew up in.

There was a double door on the left side of the room facing towards the balcony door, and from the side of the bed I could see the mountains through them.

It was fascinating to sleep with a view like that.

The warmth of your own space still felt in the air. The chocolate colored carpet that covered the place combined with the white walls and seemed to glow even at night. According to you, nothing had changed since the last time you were here: the wall behind the bed still had the pictures you hung up there. I sat in the bed after a long flight and car ride and watched them.

I was so lost in the photos that it was easy for you to push me to the bed. I laughed when you lay beside me as I put my arms around you. We were lying on a side, and I couldn't imagine another life than this.

"Are you happy now, angel?"

You smiled.

"Yeah. Now that we're here, no longer I understand why I was so nervous at the airport. Besides, you made all this possible."

"See? Everything is fine. Everyone is happy, and most importantly, we are happy...” I smiled. “Wait, I have something to show you." I took out my phone from the back of my jeans, I opened a few pages in instagram, and then I put the phone in front of us. "You like it?"

"That is beautiful. I just... I thought---"

There was an image of us at the airport, me playfully biting your shoulder and you there, looking as beautiful as you always were.

"I don't care if they accept you or not, angel. I love my fans, it is for them that I am where I am, but I love you more. I spent years loving music and lived through it, but since you came into my life I'm living through your love."

"I'll never be able to explain in words how much you mean to me." You said as you touched my eye brown with one finger. "I know that I don't need to tell you either. From the moment we met, you seemed to see right through me. And all I want in the world, is you to look at me that way forever."

"Forever... I like that word."

"Me too." You put your hand around my waist.

It was still early in Seoul and we couldn't be more awake.

"Aunt Julie?" Julian knocked the door.

"Come in, Julian." You said as you go back to sit on the bed.

The baby opened the door with his little hand and walked into the room holding some pieces of clothing from his dad.

"Dad sent this."

"Thanks, champ." I ruffled his hair and made Julian laugh.

"It is time to sleep, uncle?"

"For your aunt and me not yet, Julian. Is still early in Seul."

Julian nodded and his lips formed an O.

"But for you it is time to sleep." You said. "You better go with your mom to help you get ready for bed."

"Okay."

"Good boy. Give a kiss to the uncle." Julian got up and kissed my cheek. That little gesture made me smile. Then Julian approached you and gave you a peak on the lips.

"Yah! Don't do that in front of your husband."

Julian laughed.

"Aunt Julie... Is there a baby in your belly?"

I was as surprised as you, and looked at him unsure how to respond.

"Not yet, Julian." I said. "Would you like to have a cousin, champ?"

"Yes." He answered, full of joy.

"We must do what he says, angel." I said smiling cheekily at you.

"If I let you live today; I'll think about it." You patted my shoulder playfully making me laugh.

"Aunt Julie... you both would be the best parents for the baby."

Julian left and closed the door, leaving me with a bittersweet feeling on my lips because of the words I said that night.

"There's something I really need to tell you, angel." I said, but I couldn't look at you. "It's here in my chest and it's hurting me." 

Your brows knitted together in concern.

"What is it?"

"I deeply regret what I said that night, about our baby." I dropped my gaze. "It happened so fast and i went from running to where you were after Jinwoo told me what really happened that night, to not letting you go of the dorm, and I apologized to you about how I behave, but... i didn't apologized for the things i said about the new life that we could create."

"Hey… don't take it personally. Okay?" You got close to me and lifted my chin with a finger. "I was the one who started the fuss, I forced you to react that way, I also said things I regret, so let's forget about them. Okay?"

I bit her lip before answering, looking at you with a concerned expression.

"Its not that easy. Maybe I could do what I said, let the music go and have a normal life. I don't want to do two things at once if I don't do them well. Now you are the most important thing to me, and I want to be sure that the life we have is the best. Maybe we can have the honeymoon we never had. Tell me where to go and I'll take you there."

"Uh... far away..." You finally answered. "Anywhere, as long as you be with me. But listen, you've fought so hard to be where you are, and you're going to hurt and deprive millions of people who love your voice if you stop singing. Your voice brings happiness, it's beautiful because you sing from your heart, so don't do it. And to make it clear at once, now i say to you; forget that idea. I'm warning you."

"Are you ordering me?" I cocked my head and looked at you with curious eyes.

"Yes." You said without hesitation.

"I like that." I smiled mischievously, but quickly, my face turned serious again. "Did you ever think... at what age would you like to be a mother?"

"Well... the truth is..." You chuckled, a little bit sad. "After what happened in my family, it made me realize that I really want to feel that I deserve to have a family. I have no idea how that feeling is but i think i wanna feel I'm ready for it... and you?"

"Did you watch Hello Baby?" I asked and you nodded. "I always looked for a way out when I was near a baby, I was afraid to hurt him, but I think I've progressed. And all I know is that I will love our baby with all my heart. But if Jae arrives early to our lives, I wouldn't mind that at all."

You tried not to look surprised because of the name we chose long time ago.

"What... what did you say?"

I smiled, playing innocent.

"Is not that a cute name? I like that; Jaeyoung. Lee Jaeyoung. It sounds perfect."

You nodded and I exhaled deeply.

"Are we really thinking about it, angel?"

"Apparently we are." You laughed softly.

I approached first, my lips touched yours and we lay on the bed. The smell of was in the air and it sinks into your skin, so, with my tongue into your mouth, I took your brave answer to grab you by the waist and pull you towards me so I never had to let you go again.

"You're so beautiful." I kissed you one more time, trailing down to your neck to drown in your scent. "Angel… can I touch you there?"

"Where?" You moan, your head falling against the bed as you feel my hands run over your body.

"Here." I said, touching the most sensitive part of your body.

The feeling of lust was a cloud that covered our thoughts as both began to remove the things we still have on. I straightened, my hands fumbling for the button and zipper of my pants as you watched me, feeling in my stomach the knot in anticipation for what's to come and the tingle between your legs as I picked them up, looking back at you as I pulled away the skirt of your white dress to kiss you there. My tongue ran through your folds so slowly that it makes you moan, your hands making fists as you took the blanket that covered your bed, your eyes closing to feel everything that only I have made you feel. A couple of kisses later and after a while, your mouth fell open and you covered it with one hand, your stomach flexing and your legs trembling as I had you on the verge of release when I was just using my tongue and fingers.

It was our first time doing this, but it felt like heaven watching you melt onto the bed like that before me. It made me feel powerful, I had to admit, because the things that I made you feel, you made me feel the same way.

And It was raw the way we made love; the way I pushed myself into you so easily. You brushed your hands through my hair as I kissed you, deeply, your legs tensing around my waist and tightening even more as I began to move inside you, giving you a pleasure that made you moan, causing me to groan every time you moved. My s got harder each time you started to call my name like you did the first time, and each time after we made love.

The tight sigh from your mouth was addictive and intense, angel, as intense as the pain in my back as you sank your black-painted fingernails into me as I hit the most sensitive spot on your body, kissing you hard as you kissed me.

My hand slide over your , pulling you slightly down and toward me to hit the center of your being once more, making you tighten your arms around my shoulders by the time I had you falling over the verge of . Your back was soft under my strong hands, and the sounds you made against my neck were an arousing melody, sounds you muffled against my body on your own path to much-needed release. Your mouth fell against my shoulder, drowning out the forbidden sounds that come from between your lips, the view of the world fading as you closed your eyes and your mouth opened on a hot moan as I made you , too, feeling me release inside you with a long, pleasurable , while, on the way down from that euphoria, your grip on my hair lost its strength. My touch on your sensitive skin was soft, and I continued to move slowly as my body relaxed inside of you, lifting my head to meet your eyes, brushing your hair behind your ear for one last kiss.

–––––– TO THE BEAUTIFUL YOU ––––––

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XOXO - V.