As soon as Minhyuk is gone from their sight, N starts looking anxious, as if he doesn't know how to act around s. He feels awkward. 

He pushes his chair back and was about to stand up when Hyuk speaks up. 

 "Please eat with us, hyung. You don't want to dissapoint Minhyuk-hyung, do you? "

N thinks twice about leaving and grudgingly sits down again just as their meals arrive. 

They eat in silence. Well, only N eats. The others merely shove around their food as they secretly steal glances at the leader. They couldn't hide the fact that only N's presence make them feel like a complete group. They realise N has always been the one who bonded the group and make they understand each other well. 

After they finished eating,Ken offered to take N back to his hotel in which doesn't protest to.They barely left the resaturant when N speaks up after being so silent for such a long time.

"What is it you want to talk about?"the question took s by surprise as they wonder if Minhyuk told anything to N about their plan.

"W-what?"Ken stutters,completely not expecting the question.

N smirks.""Do you seriously think I'm that oblivious?You guys planned all this with Minhyuk,didn't you?"he asks.He pretty much figured it out when he was eating.Everything was too 'perfect'  to be true although he admits that he missed eating together with s.

"Hakyeon,we--"

"No need to be so nervous,Taekwoon.Since when does talking to me make you like that?"N teases when he see Leo playing with the hem of his shirt.

"Hyung,we're sorry.for everything we did to you.We never meant any harm.It was all a joke but we never realised that we've gone too far to the point where we hurtyour feelings."Ravi speaks up with what little courage he could muster,trying to help Leo out.

N smiles a sickly sweet smile which creeps s out.They know that smile means nothing good after knowing him for years."Wonshik-ah,saying sorry is very easy.But that word won't heal all the pain you caused."

"Then what can we do to make you forgive us?We want you with us,hyung.We want you home."

"Home? "

"Yes, hyung. Home. Our dorm. "

"I see. Well. There's nothing you could do except wait. I might forgive you or I might not forgive you. It depends. "

"On what? "

"On me. And you. On time. And condition. Many things actually. "N says casually, like it's nothing important. "Besides, what function do I give you now? You guys can manage yourself good enough."

"Just drop me here, Ken. Thanks for the lift."he says before any of the members can reply his words. 

As soon as he arrives at his hotel room, N lies down on his bed and let his tears fall. He wanted to go home. He wants it so badly but he's scared. What if the members treat him the way they did before?What if they never learn their lesson after he forgives them? 

He doesn't think he could handle anymore heart break. He thinks he might just curl up and cry himself to death if the members hurt him just one more time. 

He's already so broken. 

"Please stop hurting me... "