Koda's (Jongho) POV: 

I finally answered the phone call, and I heard a slight gasp, I couldn't help but roll my eyes as I laughed. 
"What is it Nini?" I asked.

For the first time, he didn't hear his brother complained instead his brothers next comment kind of made him feel his nervousness leave.

"Where are you?" Jongin asked.

"I'm at Gahi's company.." I asked.

I could almost see him blink before he smiled.

"So you're outside?" He asked.

"Yeah Why?" I asked.

"Would you like to meet somewhere? I'm done with practice early and I missed hanging out." Jongin asked.

I chuckled. "Is that the only reason you called?" I asked. I started to feel myself get more relieved, why did I think he would yell at me in the first place? 

"Yeah, why?" Jongin asked.

"I thought you were pissed at me at first," I admitted.

"Are you kidding me!" Jongin cried. 
I laughed.

"Okay, Okay. I know stupid of me, but why are you asking me?" I asked.

"I was wondering if maybe you wanted to hang out?" Jongin asked. 

I smiled, "Is that even a question?! Of course dude." I said.

Jongin chuckled, before declaring that he will meet me at this cafe we used to always go to after high school, after our after school stuff. Before we both hung up. 

Youngji's POV: 

Gahi finally calmed down enough to fall asleep, so I carried him to his bed in the room he has been sleeping in. I looked at him with a sad smile, as softly ruffled the hair from his eyes. 

He didn't move, and I was thankful, I knew he hasn't really been sleeping these four days. I signed to myself. 
I knew I had to do something about this sooner than later. 

I had to tell Yang soon before it got to late and we lose Gahi. 

We already lost two members, we don't need to lose anymore. 

????'s POV: 

   I signed for the seventh time, how was I supposed to get a hold of Youngji, if he wasn't answering my damn calls. 

I cursed at my best friend, Bang Youngji wasn't answering and I knew I needed to get him to hear the news I had and fast. 

I was already too late to warn him about the bomb attack on their hideout. I already lost my best friend Rei to that. 

I don't need to lose another, And I distance myself from my brother, Hongbin, and even Rei's baby brother Wonshik, I just couldn't face them. I failed Rei, I failed Nineteen. 

We were in the same force, SCS was actually the name of our forces. Although I wasn't in a group, I was the forces messenger, the person in between Nineteen and the other forces of the FBI. 

'Youngji please pick up!' I thought. 

No one's POV: 

   Kim Wonshik, mostly known to the public as Ravi. Was getting flowers at the flower shop, he was getting his hyungs favorite flowers. He didn't exactly tell the other members why he was getting flowers, he never said anything about having an older brother. Much less one that was well known to be in the strongest mafia group, that was actually under the FBI. 

Wonshik didn't see the point, his big brother was gone, even if he missed his brother dearly. That's why he was so protective of a little sister, not that he wasn't before when his big brother was alive. But it got worse, when his big brother passed away, after the bombing out his brother's groups hideout. Yes, he actually got to the hospital, the doctor couldn't save his brother. When he found out the news of his big brother he cried, he loved his brother dearly, looked up to him and saw him as a hero, even more than how he saw his dad. 

He blinked back tears that threatened to fall, as memories went in front of his eyes, of his big brother, that he tried to block for 9 years now. He always felt like a little kid whenever he thought of his big brother, he missed him so much it hurt.

He got back in the car, clenching the flowers. 

"So where are we going Wonshik?" The manager asked him. 

Wonshik told him the exact location. And s looked at him with concerning eyes. "Wonshik-" Hakyeon started. or as he was known to be, "N".

But Wonshik interrupted him. "I want to visit someone, I love there.." he mumbled.

But everyone heard him, yet they didn't saw anything. The manager started driving there. 

When they got there, Wonshik stayed looking at the place, his eyes watered, tears threatening to go down his cheeks again. But he forced himself to open the door and walk out. He hasn't been here in weeks, and he felt bad for making his big brother wait for him for this long. He slowly walked over to where he knew his brother was, and he could hear the others in his group following after. He didn't have the confidence to look over at them, just in case, he started to cry. 

Whenever he came here, he always felt like crying, always felt numb, almost like his heart was broken in two. He wished his big brother was still here to hug him when he felt down, he missed his brother's deep voice, his brothers bear hugs, his brother's hair ruffles and most of all, he missed his brothers singing him to sleep when he couldn't sleep and get scared. 

He finally got to the grave stone. His legs almost giving out on him when he looked to the grave stone. No matter how many years passed, he still didn't like seeing his hyungs name on the stone. Still didn't like that his big brother, his hero, his role model was down how many feet under ground? 

'Kim Shik Wong' ("REI") 

September 24th, 1987 - August 1st, 2006

Kindhearted Son, friend, and big brother. 

Wonshik sniffled, as he blinked back tears, He took out the old wilting flowers that were before asking one of the others to fill it. He didn't even look to see who took the flower vase, as he was too busy looking at the stone in front of him, It wasn't until the latter came back did he look back to realize it was Hongbin who had got the water for the flowers. He didn't care about s seeing his watery eyes. There was just something about being in front of his brothers grave that made him so emotional. He hated to cry in front of his brother, especially when s were here. He knew he promised to not cry, but he couldn't help when his eyes watered, and slowly tears fell.

He fixed the flowers in the vase. He touched his brother's gravestone, soft tears rolling down his cheeks. 

He sniffled again, as he choked out. "S-Shikwongie Hyung." 

He couldn't fight the tears anymore, of trying to hold back everything, he cried rivers of tears as he couldn't help but wish his brother was still around, "I-I'm sorry I took so long to come back.." He said between sniffling. 

"It's been nine years hyung, And I still can't.." Wonshik started, a slight sobbed racked his body. He felt someone softly bent down next to him and hugged him tightly. He knew it was Hakyeon, he knew it was his leader, he didn't have to look to realize it. He knew by the warmth and the slight memorable smell of the latter. 

He waited until he can talk, to open his mouth again, Hakyeon still hasn't let go of him, and he was thankful. Even if he knew he would never feel his brothers embrace anymore, he hasn't for nine years now. 

"I- I still can't seem to believe that you're gone. I miss you so much Hyung. I wish I wish you were still around, to watch me complete my dreams. I didn't want you to die so early Hyung. Not when I.. When I haven't. E-even got close to making you proud of me." Wonshik said between sniffles. He could hear the others around him was sniffling, trying to hold back tears, he knew even Leo couldn't hold back the fact that he felt sad. He didn't have to look at them to realize that. 

"I wanted you to be there for my graduation from middle school, my graduation from high school, I wanted you to watch me achieve my dreams. I wanted you to give me advice when I needed it, scold me about my health like you always did, I wanted you to ruffle my hair when you were proud of me." Wonshik knew he was talking to someone he knew would never answer him, but words just kept coming out of his mouth and he couldn't stop it. 

He didn't want the others to see him like this, but he couldn't help it, He missed his brother so much it broke him apart every time he remembers that his brother isn't there anymore. He was only 12 years old when his brother passed away, and even now it almost seems like it just happened. 

"I- I miss you so much Hyung. I wish you were still here." He sobbed out, He felt the others join into the embrace, but he didn't do anything, He could feel s were silently crying, in fact, he can hear Hyuk sobbing softly. Even though they never met his big brother, they could still feel the way Wonshik really loved his brother.

He didn't have the strength to push s away and he didn't want too. He needed the embrace, he needed the comfort. He was a mess, sobbing in front of a gravestone of his big brother, that he missed dearly. It may have been nine years, but Wonshik still felt the wound in his heart never healed. He is far from accepting his brother's death. He tried to, he really did. He's been having a lot of wholehearted laughs, smiles, and memories with the others that came with him today. But his heart and mind knew that there was still something inside of him that felt broken, deep down he knew part of him died with his big brother. 

No matter what people thought though, he didn't blame any of Nineteen, he didn't blame Gahi. He was very close to them still, if it wasn't for Youngji he would have given up long ago. But the leader of Nineteen wouldn't leave him alone, always having Koda and Gahi track him down and bring him to the hideout so he wasn't alone. 
He was thankful that they cared enough to make sure he was okay, to make sure he was healthy. Even till this day he still gets dragged back to their hideout to hang out by Koda and Gahi, those two Dongseangs just wouldn't leave him alone. But he was thankful for that. He knew they all wanted to stay close to him, and to the other siblings of the late members, they lost. If they really wanted to, they could not have cared, and Wonshik wouldn't blame them. But yet they cared enough to text him if he was alright, drag him to their hideout, and Youngji even gave him a scolding on the phone when the latter found out that Wonshik wasn't having proper rest when VIXX was having a comeback and he had to compose songs. It made his heart swell that those people where his big brothers second family, his brother's brotherhood that loved him dearly like he did. 

He can see the sadness whenever Wonshik just couldn't take the pain anymore and broke down crying, but they didn't make fun of him, in fact Koda and Gahi wouldn't let him go, hugging him tightly in their embrace. Their Maknae, who was a year younger than Hyuk, was trying to lighten his mood by making jokes, and although it didn't really work, he felt touched that the kid even tried, he knew the kid was genuine. Trying to make him smile, he hated seeing people hurt.

Wonshik was the same most of the time, but sometimes he broke down almost whenever he randomly thought of his brother.

He was thankful when s didn't let him go until they were sure he was okay. He stayed bent down, even if his legs hurt. Just looking at the stone, He unconsciously touched the dog tag that was passed to him from Youngji, that used to be his brothers. It comforted him to have it with him, it almost felt like his brother was there by his side and made him feel much better in facing the future without his big brother. He knew it was hard for Youngji to pass the necklace to him, of his other best friend, but he was thankful that he did. The necklace had become important to him.

When he was sure he spent enough time with his brother he stood up, he looked around, after wiping tears away for a second to see s were looking to him with concerned faces, he smiled softly, a genuine smile at that. Before he looked down the grave stone. When his brother passed away, his brother was actually the same height as Youngji and seeing the latter was still taller than him by almost two heads, he knew if his brother was alive he would still be taller than Wonshik. 

He didn't cry anymore, no it wasn't because he didn't have any more tears, or even that he was worried about s worrying about him more. The reason why he didn't cry was cause he knew if he cried even more than he just had, he would worry his big brother, who he knew was here watching over him, even if he didn't see him. He could somehow feel his brothers presence. He always did, he always felt it, ever since he was a kid, in junior high.

He smiled softly, one stray tear coming down his cheek, he wiped it away.
"Don't worry Hyung, I'm done crying for today. I know this won't be the first time I break down. But I know, If I give up-" He started. He felt Hakyeon squeeze his shoulder to comfort him. He stopped to think of the right way to say what he wanted for now until he came back to visit. 

"You would never forgive me. I know, I'm far from accepting your death, even though it been nine years already. Even so, I'll keep going hyung, I'll keep walking to my future. Because I know, that you would want me too, wouldn't you?" He stated. He smiled, as soft stray tears came down. But the smile never left his face, though it's not as big as the smiles he was known for, it was a soft, small smile, but it still reached his eyes. 

"Although I don't have you here to lift me up when I break down anymore. I know you're still around, and even that makes it a little easier. I would never get over the fact that you're gone, But I think I can smile more knowing you're at a better place; watching over me. I still from time to time miss your smile and embraces, but I know I will see you again someday." Wonshik paused. 

To wipe little more tears that kept falling, but it wasn't as much as earlier. 

"So do me a favor Hyung.-" Wonshik started. 

"Wait for me. And don't worry, It won't be until I'm done here. But When the time comes, I hope you welcome me with open arms when the time comes." Wonshik finished that statement. As he paused to say something else. 

"But for now, I will keep going hyung. I promise. I know it won't be easy. Without you here, but even so I will keep my head up," Wonshik held out his pinky even though he knew it was useless, it was just a habit of his and his brother. 

"I promise hyung, So don't worry about me Hyung. I'm not alone, I have my second family here. So you can stop worrying so much hyung. I'm in good hands. Although I miss you dearly, I will keep going." Wonshik paused for the seeming thousandth time, as he held to the dog tag in his hand. 

"I Love you Hyung, till I see you again," he finished. He softly smiled once more. Before he finally turned around, but not before he heard the others one by one talk to his brother. The last one he heard was Hakyeon, their leader. Who told his big brother that he would take care of Wonshik no matter what. 

Hearing that, made Wonshik tear up, but he was smiling. He wondered how his brother was taking it, He laughed silently as he can probably see his brother smiling widely at that, knowing that his brother had someone who would take care of him when he wasn't around. 

Before he left the cemetery, He thought he felt someone ruffle his hair. It may have been just the wind, but he thought he heard someone silently tell him 'I love you too.' And thinking that, he smiled softly, and kept his head up high because he knew his brother was still watching over him and he would never truly be alone. 

'Thank you Hyung, I think I feel better now.' Wonshik thought. 

As he looked at the gravestone, for the last time that day, as he silently promised that he would visit again soon.

He turned and climbed into the van, but not before turning to give a flying kiss to his brother. He can practically hear his brother laughing at him. As he laughed himself at that thought. 

But what Wonshik didn't notice was a figure was standing by the grave, an invisible figure, His brother. 

Who was smiling widely, the smile reached his eyes, as he chuckled? Fondly looking at the figure that was his brother, his baby brother.

You could almost see him cry softly, tears of happiness, his brother was doing a lot better, he knew that pretty soon his dear baby brother would finally move on. Yes, he knew Wonshik would never truly be whole without him, but he wanted his baby brother to stay strong. He never liked it when his brother cried, it broke his heart. 

"Don't give up kid, stay strong. I'm still here, even if you don't see me," he whispered. He knew no one can hear him, but he hoped his brother can atleast feel his presence. He knew that his brother still had a long way to go before he can finally accept his death and move on. No. He didn't want Wonshik to forget him, but he wanted his brother to not cry so much. And to know that as long as he kept him in his heart, Shikwong would never truly leave his side.

He knew it would be easier, with his own crew along with VIXX helping his brother, and soon he would smile a lot more.

A/N: Yes, VIXX is now in the story. And I planned from the very start to have Rei be Wonshik's (Ravi') big brother. And if you can tell already Hongbin's hyung is also in here, although I didn't say his name. He is technically in Nineteen, but he more notable to be "The Lone Wolf". Hope you guys didn't cry to much at Wonshik's Point of view. Though I found myself crying silently a little just writing that part. And it actually turned out the longest point of view (POV) on here. 

Catch you all later!~ 

- Nic <3