Mir walked into Seungho's room without knocking and saw the older was half-lying on the bed, back against the headboard and a tablet in his hands.Seungho looked up as he heard footsteps. His brows furrowed.

"Cheolyongie?" He called and sat up, a bit alarmed when he saw the weary look on Mir's face.

Mir tried his best to smile and sat on the edge of Seungho's bed. "Hyung. Are you busy?" He asked.

Seungho put away his tablet and crossed his legs, giving the youngest his full attention. "No. What is it?"

Mir sighed and crawled closer to Seungho before he leaned his head against Seungho's shoulder. "Hyung... Do you hate them?" When there was only silence as answer, Mir was about to panic. He shouldn't have asked, should he? But, before he could speak again, Seungho finally answered with simple "no". Mir sat up and looked up at Seungho, unblinking. With a soft smile, Seungho ruffled Mir's silky locks adoringly and repeated his answer. "...No?" Mir asked again because he didn't really expect that answer.

"But I can't say that I wasn't hurt and disappointed. I do feel betrayed and I'm still hurt. I can't accept them for now. But, maybe one day." Seungho explained. "You miss them, don't you?" Seungho asked with a knowing look.

Mir's eyes traveled down and he fiddled with Seungho's pillow. "I don't." He mumbled.

Seungho chuckled and wrapped his hand around Mir's nape and pulled the younger against his chest and Mir just obediently let Seungho pull him. "You lied." Seungho commented. "You say that for my and Byunghee's sake." Mir shook his head stubbornly. "I'm happy to know you put Byunghee and me as your priority... But.. Sometimes, you have to think of yourselves. Put yourselves first. You'll break if you keep trying to follow my or Byunghee's pattern."

Mir's eyes looked distant as he replied, "We lived with them like a real family for years, hyung. It's only normal to have some sort of attachement. But, turns out, it's always one sided. I don't miss them. I don't want to."

"But even if it is one sided and just because you don't want to, didn't mean you didn't miss them."

Mir blinked and sighed as he buried his face into Seungho's warm chest. "Stop twisting my words." Mir whined. A soft chuckle from Seungho before Mir continued. "I'm hurt too, you know."

"I know. I'm sorry for hurting you." 

Mir wrapped his arms around Seungho's waist and just shook his head once. Seungho reacted by patting the maknae's locks gently. "No... I'm the one who should be sorry." He was really sorry... Because like Seungho just said, just because he didn't want to, didn't mean he really didn't. In all of his denial, he knew deep down, he missed them. He missed all those beautiful moments shared between them. He missed the beautiful past.

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Seungho peered down when he heard soft snores from the maknae. Smiling, he lied Mir down on his bed and spread the blanket on Mir. He crawled out of the bed and went into the living room. He leaned on the wall as he watched GO was sitting on the couch, watching the TV, well, more likr staring blankly on the screen.

"You heard him." Seungho said, knowing GO was eavesdropping his conversation with the maknae just now.

GO switched off the TV and his hand fall limp by his side. "He miss them." It was hard for GO to admit, but it was the truth. And not all truth was easy, most of them were filled with thorns, like this one. He tried to convince himself he was protecting Mir but that wasn't what was best for Mir. Mir loved all four of his hyungs. And GO had forced Mir to choose. Mir chosed him. True. But that was because Mir knew how broken GO was and now because of that choice, Mir was damaged.

"Tell that to him."

GO shook his head. "I can't..." He whispered. He knew it was selfish but he still didn't want Mir to go back to those two. Though he knew it wasn't true, something pushed him to believe that Joon and Sanghyun would end up hurting Mir again. Just like him.

Seungho sighed and approached his friend. "Maybe we should give them second chance."

"They don't deserve it." GO answered dryly.

"But Mir deserved it."

GO couldn't reply to that. He stayed silent. Mir did deserve that. But, it was hard. It was truly hard to accept back people that had betrayed you. A shattered trust wasn't easy to be built back. He was afraid of getting hurt yet again. The fear was already instilled in his mind. The fear of getting betrayed again. The fear of getting hurt yet again. He couldn't easily fight it.

"Byunghee... Do you hate them?" Seungho asked the same question Mir had asked him. He waited patiently for GO's answer.

"...I do." GO said in a small voice but his eyes were darting around the room. Doubt painting his features. GO wasn't as much sure that he still hated those two now. He didn't know anymore what he felt. But he knew he didn't want them back in his life or Seungho's or Mir's. He had been hurt and he didn't want to feel the same pain again. He didn't want any of them to had to go through the same pain again. Accepting Joon and Sanghyun meant he accepted the risk of being betrayed again. People do make same mistake sometimes.

"Are you sure?" Seungho pressed. When he got only silence as answer, he took GO's hand into his. "If you're not sure, then let's meet them." 

GO turned so fast to look at Seungho in shock. "But-"

"This will never end if we don't talk this out. We need to talk this out. And by talking, I mean with both Joon and Sanghyun."

GO swallowed back his retort when Seungho had this stern expression on his face. He knew Seungho well to read his expression. That wasn't a request. That was an order.