I know I said I want to complete my fic, prank 1st before starting this fic. But the angsty temptation is too strong to resist. *sigh* sorry for my greedy self... i just really (like 100x really) want to post at least a chapter

It was happening again. It was happening yet again. Mir released a heavy sigh. As heavy as his heart. He curled tighter on his bed. Slowly, his hands made way to his ears in a failed attempt to block out that sound. The sound of things being threwn all over the place. The sound of GO losing it, yet again. It didn't work. It never work. The sounds were clear and acted like swords that stabbed deep into his chest.

It had been almost four months, but the wound left by Joon and Sanghyun never heal, instead, it became worse. And it drained blood from them. Drained life from GO. Drained life from Seungho. Drained life from him...

"Byunghee... You need to stop." Mir caught Seungho's muffled voice. He knew the leader was tired too. All three of them were exhausted. Depressed. But, as a leader, Mir could see Seungho was restraining himself from breaking down. As a leader, he tried to bear it all. And Mir saw the grief shadowing Seungho's eyes each time their gaze met. Oh... How he hoped he could help, but he was just as broken as Seungho and GO. The only thing he could do was to at least hid the broken part of him from Seungho because Seungho already had too much to handle. So he cried alone. He cried under his shielding blanket alone.

Mir choked a sob and winced as he felt twinge of pain over his chest when GO's wailing reached him through the wall. The main vocalist's cry sounded so sorrowful as if the person emitting the sound was having his heart quenched in a painful hold.

Mir shifted to his side and brought his knees to his chest. He hated this. He hated being broken. He hated his two hyungs being broken. And above all, he hated that he couldn't help any of them because he, himself needed help. They needed saving.

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He didn't realize when exactly he had fallen asleep. However, he did remember he had fallen asleep while listening to GO's distressed cry and Seungho's soothing words. Strangely, he could fall asleep in all that noise and yet he woke up in the silence of the dread night.

Mir rubbed his face and walked out of his locked bedroom. He stood in front of GO's room. Doubt coloring his face. Should he go in? It wasn't like he could do anything to help. It was hard to admit, but he was useless. He couldn't help any of his hyungs. He was too weak. And he hated that. He was useless... But, against all of his reasonings, he still turned the knob on the door, pushing open the door quietly.

Light was still washing over the room. He saw how messy the room was. Everything were threwn all over the place. GO's books and clothes were all over the place as if the storm just hit the room which wasn't that far from the truth. A storm did hit the room. A storm hit all three of them. A storm of emotion. 

Mir's eyes flickered to his side. The vase that used to be a home for a beautiful strawberry flower plants was already shattered near the wall Mir was standing at. The soil of mix brown and black was scattered all over the floor, dirtying the white marble. 

Mir stepped over the shattered glasses only to find another spot where glass shards were scattered on the floor. From a picture frame. He picked up the abandoned piece of a photo. It was a photo of MBLAQ. A photo where all five of them were smiling happily. A photo that had managed to bring back the thousands of sweet and bitter memories of them as a group for five years in one fast session of flash.

Shaking his head, he looked up from the photo and looked over the two sleeping figures on the bed. GO was sleeping with his head on Seungho's chest and the leader had his arms loosely wraped around the figure. Mir stepped closer.

The maknae bent over and picked up the crumpled blanket on the floor with one hand while his other hand was putting the photo in his pocket jeans. He spread the blanket over the two sleeping figures. He looked over the two for a few more seconds before he ran the tip of his index finger at the corner of GO's eyes. Dried tears were evident there.

"I wish we all can heal." Mir whispered brokenly but still, there was hope in his voice. Even when his eyes had no light, he still dared to have hope...

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Seungho woke up to the sound of his alarm. When he felt something moving in his hold, he peered down, taking a short moments to remember how GO ended up sleeping in his arms. He quickly reached for his phone and shut the alarm off, grateful the main vocalist's sleep wasn't disturbed.

Ever so carefully, he maneuvered both of them. He sat up slowly, bringing GO with him before he put his friend onto the bed and tucked the blanket around the sleeping man. He stood up from the bed, yawning and stretching. He was about to stepped out of the room when he stopped and turned back. The room... Was clean.

The books were all arranged neatly on the racks near the PC table and the clothes were also tidied up into the closet. He even saw new vase with the same strawberry flower stood under the morning sun by the window.

Knowing no one else could be cleaning the mess, a small sad smile stretched his lips. He trudged to the maknae's room and found the lump on the bed. A tuft of platinum blonde hair peeking from under the blanket. He looked over the wall clock in Mir's room. It was still early. Might as well let them sleep for several more hours.

Seungho had his early morning shower, wanted to start fresh and started making brekfast. He wanted to greet his two members with a bright smile. But, he wasn't entirely sure if he could pull it off, because he too was in depression. Not as bad as GO, but still, he was badly hurt. Disappointment and betrayal filled his void heart and he knew the other two were the same. They were hurt. They were broken.