12.01.2015-16.01.2015

I swear I heard Squishy calling out for me when I was having dinner alone in the mall near the shop. Dimple boy wasn't with me since he had something on. I looked around enthusiastically, hoping to see Squishy, but no matter how much I looked, there was no sign of him.

I quickly finished my dinner and went off in hopes of finding him, but much to my disappointment, he was nowhere in sight.

I got accepted into BASK! Seoul, here I come!

By the way, Hwajae got accepted into School of Performing Arts in Seoul too! Well, at least I won’t get lonely there since we plan on renting a place together there. Maybe Kai could stay with us too, since he agreed to join that entertainment of his.

In all my excitement, I forgot to include dimple boy in my plans. I seriously need to get my head straight. I really haven’t thought this through.

He suggested that we could try a long-distance relationship, but that’s why I broke off my relationship with Squishy in the first place. I can’t keep him hanging, though I mentioned something about giving me time to think about it.

I don't know what I should do now. Should I break up with dimple boy? But we’ve only been dating for a little more than two weeks. Should I form a long-distance relationship with him? But that will be unfair to Squishy.

Decisions, decisions, decisions. Why can’t someone else make them for me?

I had the thought of breaking up with dimple boy, but I didn't have the courage to every time I saw his face. My rehearsed lines were forgotten once I saw him approaching the shop.

Kai noticed that I was more fidgety than usual, but I didn't tell him about my internal struggles. I want to face them myself.