The screen read: [You have voicemail from Chaerin.]

I clicked.

And I waited.

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But somehow, a stale silence filled the air, and the sound of your voice never came on.

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I checked the volume of the machine, but nope.

It was already adjusted to its maximum.

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There was simply nothing to hear. What you left, was simply twenty-six seconds of emptiness. Twenty-six seconds of nothing… and it felt especially sad.

Did… you forget to leave a message…?

Or was the machine broken?

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Why was it this a blank state of aching silence?

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Maybe… it was because I had this strong and compelling need to hear your voice. And so, when I didn’t, the room seemed especially grey.

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Sometimes… hope is a stupid thing. In odd and completely different situations, somehow you’ll have some kind of hope. You will have a senseless kind of hope that things will get better, that things will be alright. You could be staring at your phone, and a peculiar feeling comes to you. You would think: Maybe someone will call. Or maybe someone will text.

Maybe… you would call again.

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Maybe… I should call you back.

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It feels like the weirdest feeling in the world as my finger hovered over the [Call] button. Somehow my stomach churns in bouts of uncertainty and nervousness.

It was just you. I told myself.

But then, it’s not just you.

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It’s someone that I love.

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Somehow that offsets the mechanics of everything I once knew. Should I just act normal? Act like a friend? Should I… say that I love you? Over the phone?

Why the hell did everything seem to escalate into such complexity?

In a state of whirling thoughts, courage got to the better of me and I pressed the button.

[Calling Chaerin…]

The phone started ringing, and the ringtone stuck in my mind.

Brrrr-

Brrrr-

Brrrr-

There was this crazy immense mix of feelings – excitement, anticipation and nervousness.

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I glanced at my watch, hoping that you’d still be awake.

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Brrrr-CLICK.

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My mind did a mental backflip.

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Hello, Oppa…?

Your voice filled the speakers and suddenly… everything feels okay again.

Suddenly, it feels like I’ve come home.

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I pressed the phone even closer to my ear.

I wanted to hear all of you.

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Oppa, are you okay? Was the concert really busy…?

Your voice came on a lot softer than I remembered.

But it was you, and that was all that mattered.

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Oppa…? Are you still there?

I caught the worry hidden in your voice and it was only then that I realized that I haven’t spoken. Mentally, I face palmed myself. Ugh.

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Hey, Chaerin-ah, I said, trying to keep my voice cool and normal.

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Stupidly, I smiled, as though you could see me right now.  

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Happily, I smiled.

I wished you could see me right now.

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…I wished I could see you right now.

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But being able to hear your voice would suffice for now.

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Oppa… somehow you sound really happy today.

Oh, really?

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I smiled even wider than I knew was possible.

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 …that’s probably because I am.

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I lay in bed that night for a really long time, staring at the ceiling, and feeling my heart smiling. It was like I had dipped my feet into a pool of blissful uncertainty. I love you, I think in my head.

…but I don’t know where I’ll go from here.

I don’t know where we will go from here.

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But for now, in this moment, I know you are here, with me.

And, really, that’s all that matters.

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Loud music boomed in the arena.

Tonight, we’re ending things with a blast. Tonight, I scream and the fans scream back at me, and the music is so loud. I lose myself in the lights and sounds and I am ecstatic. I am freaking ecstatic. 

We’re jumping, we’re singing, we’re dancing.

The speakers are deafening but my heart beats even louder.

And finally, with the last beat of the song, the concert ends.

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THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR COMING DOWN TODAY!

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The cheers from the fans strike back at me, and I feel this overwhelming wave of ecstasy.  

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My heart races like there’s no tomorrow.

But, deep in my heart, I know.

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There is a brighter tomorrow awaiting me where I will finally see you again. 

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