Name: Sandara Park

Age:23 trapped in a 34 yr old body

Status:Married

Year:2017

She’s sleeping…

I closed my eyes and pressed my cheek to the softness of her cotton shirt... Knowing how much she had loved me and at the same time the longing for something I knew I might never regain. She could never know how much her presence meant for me,  but if I do tell her I could only dissolve into a blubbering mess. Instead I wrapped my arms around her waist under her charismatic scent spread every inch of her cotton sweater. I hugged her closer, drawing on her strength being safe and well loved.

You're sound asleep..

I want to fix everything for you.. I want to make it all better make you feel better, but you know I can’t.. I’m helpless around you.. I remember a little how you make me smile, even with your sleeping face. My fingers trace the shape of your beautiful face down your chin . You smelled so fresh, inherently y , a real scent had no essence no cologne could hope to capture..

I remember how new we were to kissing..

I never had imagined myself playing aggressor especially with someone like you

--Flashback—

She leaned forward and pressed a kiss on my cheek and into my lips.. She was forcing not to linger to long playing lightly touching the softness of on the corners of my lips… Mingled a couple of seconds as she cupped my cheek to her palm and my legs went squishy on her

Chaerin:”That was so nice”

I smiled up to her

Dara:”Yes"

Chaerin:”Can we do it again”

My heart skipped in my chest, she blew me away by asking.

Dara:”Are you sure you want more?”

Chaerin:”I guess were about to find out." 

She came closer slipped her fingers deeper through my hair and held the back of my head’’ Guiding her kiss that landed at the very corner of my mouth. I could feel her warm breath on my cheek,  again touching the softness of not penetrating a tongue inside, making my heart throb  into a dizzying beat..When she pulled away, my eyes were still closed I wanted more.

Dara:”Again” I whispered feeling her breathe fanned on my lips

This time I met her halfway. although she was aiming for my cheek , I shifted at the last second and I opened my mouth and touch hers..Lust swept over me I lightly brushed my tongue into hers draining a bit of strength I have left from a long day of rehearsals. Drawing her even closer feeling the full weight of her kiss… Every nerve endings possessed as her fingers duged into the fabric of my tract suit…  it told me ‘Give me more’ no matter how badly she wanted it, settling a faster pace .. I was trusting her to be the responsible one, the one who kept her head.. Kissing in every way possible to let the lips linger on for another few seconds and slowly pulled away..I could feel her pulse throb against my cheek the feel of her unsteady breathing.

Dara:”Chae~”

Chaerin:”I’m okay” she said, sounding a little breathless “It was just enough”

I giggled, I didn’t know “JUST ENOUGH” fits anywhere in the dynamics of our relationship. Not for me anyway. We barely begun and already I was looking ahead to the next step...to ten next steps... I wanted to give her more space, not to push her

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Looking into you, my Baby-rin I'll never imagined i could feel fire, this feeling with someone..My love for you puts extra spin on things. I wanted to please you in everyway a good lover can.. I wanted to listen to every song and dreams and to tell mine to a future out our blended dreams. But most of all I wanted to kiss you again, and not just on the lips..

I can feel my face its hot, i'm so embarassed having lustful thoughts.. Now i could only touch you with my fingers on your tender sensual lips, remembering heat and sweetness of you.. I certainly never felt this way about anyone but you..  Its not fair you're making me feel this way while your sleeping”

You rolled over her back and pulled me across her heart and arms. A heart was thudding against my ear…  I knew that could never get tired of this, I could imagine doing this for the rest of my life                                                             

A faint gleam of half closed eyes.. I smiled knowing your vunerable within me sliding one hand around as I reached the spine and began to play along it  with my fingers  curling around the edge of the lacy material. Fresh bed sheet clung unto the heat of your unresponsive body even if sliding over your hips and down  slender legs..

I smiled lazily looking at you

"Still love me?"

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I love you