"nice to meet you jessica jung.."

maybe because she didn't take her medication he sounds exactly like yifan. she shook her head. her eyes snapped open. but nothing came out from . she watched his movement slowly with glint of uneasiness.

"how was your day in tokyo?" it was jiyong's question woke her up from her daydreaming.
"oh.. its. fine.. i guess" she answered, finally took her eyes off of another man. yet her feeling still clouding up. she can't find the best excuse to not thinking about the other man.

"well well guys, I didn't call you for witnessing you being lovey dovey okay? I know you guys miss each other so much but please respect us.. " jonghyun refer as both of them only man without couple. jiyong laugh and pull his hand from sica's shoulder.

"about the song, I will consider that in my upcoming album.. but for your information, I will do duet with a girl in next album" jiyong said, sica raised her eyebrow. she didn't know about this and honestly she didn't even interest with his duet.

but being his girl .. she couldn't help but feel annoyed when he show off about being with another girl.
"oh-uh.. i see" she responded and playing with her nail. jiyong smiled and squeezed her cheek playfully.
"don't be jealous, I will do duet with you though, jessica jung" at the mentioned name jessica couldn't help but to startled on him

"M-me?" she asked, pointing herself, confirming whether she hear it right or wrong.

jiyong nodded. "yeah, I recruit you. I asked SM and they agree.. they didn't informed you because I offer to said to you personaly, as albumwriter.."

yifan stood in motionless didn't even listening to both of their conversation. he is just miss her so much.. he just stared at her face with soft smile. and its enough. the way she laugh, the way she pout, the way she startled..

in one sentence, he misses her. longing for her.

feeling another man staring at her, she shift her eyes on him. bravely. no.. braving herself.

'he is not kris, he is not yifan..' she chanted on her thought. ".. Park Chanyeol, right?" she asked. and yifan finally pulled from his own mind. he nodded.

"I see..  so you are the great songwriter acknowledge by jonghyun?" she asked. yifan simply see her on her eyes, she replied him on eyes and caught on guard..

"you must be a great musician then.. if jonghyun acknowledge you" she shift her eyes on jonghyun instead. jonghyun nodded and show his thumb.

"you should listen to his song.." jonghyun said. jessica open her palm, "then show me.." she said.

yifan eyes rang in alarmed.

'no' he thought. 'if she heard that, she might know me and became sad again.. no..' he thought.

he ran forward and stopped jonghyun when he almost putting the cd into the player.
"don't.." yifan said. all of the eyes are focused on him now. even jessica. he fidgeted in uneasiness.

"why?" she questioned. he helplessly stared at her. and she somehow know what he is trying to say.

"okay, I will listen when I'm all alone.. is that okay?" she said. yifan gratefully nodded. 'atleast not now..' he thought. he didnt have courage.

....

Along the road she is droven by jiyong all she could do was staring off. Jiyong once in a while exchange his gaze between the road and his girl. until he couldnt take it anymore.

"whats wrong?" he asked in concern. whatever her problem jiyong always ready for helping her. but the girl just shook her head.
"maybe I just seeing thing.." she muttered to herself. jiyong raised his eyebrow. the BigBang leader currently worried over his girl than his work of project.

"seeing what..?" jiyong asked, overheard her whisper.
"ah.. no.. Maybe I need rest. My body never listen to me lately" she said. jiyong who work at the same field, understand her better than anyone else, even her parents know nothing about this. jiyong hand softly reacing out to her hand. she suddenly feels so guilty. she doesn't know why..

the very same feeling before she accept him to be her boyfriend.
Is she Selfish? for thinking another man when she is with her boyfriend now. guess.. she still has long way to go.

but seriously....

that park chanyeol.. is very much alike with her kris.

...

eventhough its not like it is the first meeting with him, but.. why does she feel like she familiar with him already? more than the feeling when she is with G-Dragon. she sat on the sofa and silently thinking over it, and over again. sunny watching her off from the kitchen table. she brings a bowl of Patbingsu toward sica's face.

"oi?" sunny waving her hand and the latter shot her a curious gaze.

"whats wrong?" sunny asked. a thin smile appears on her lips and shakes her head. she took the bowl from the shorter girl and scoot over so the bunny girl can sits next to her.

"where are girls?" sica asks. sunny shrugs and scooping her own bingsu.

"taeng and yoona are dating, tiffany shopping, sooyoung drama, and etc.." sunny boringly explaining. sica chuckled at how sunny sounds so envious with other.
"and you? dont you have date with jiyong?" sunny asks. sica nods.
"later.. mostly like business rather than date.." sica explains.
"reallyy???" sunny jumps on her seat.
"it isn't official yet but he asking me to be his duet partner.. we will promoting our song together, and it is the best for promoting YG and SM bestfriend relationship." sica says nonchalantly. sunny 'wow' sounds distant and envy. sica smiled at her.

"are you done with your brokenheart sun?" sica asked. sunny jabbing her spoon at the strawberry inside the bowl and pout.
"it took me long enough to realize the situation.. I decided to understand. we are talking about love anyway.. its about two heart, not only mine" sunny smiled bitterly. sica pat her lap and giving her an encourage smile.

"you sure are great woman sunsun.. find your happiness, whatever it takes, i will support you.." sica said.

yesterday, they found out that sungmin didn't really love her for her all. he declare that he want to get married soon. of course as SNSD sunny can't accept his offer, she need to prepare her heart and mind. but maybe his age can't wait too long for him to understand.. so sunny let him go, with his bestfriend.

it was so hard on sunny but she need to regain her power..

she is a public figure, she need to be a pro.

"sun.. I want to ask you a question.." sica asked. sunny shift her eyes from the bowl toward her.
"what is it?"
"what if.. suddenly sungmin oppa coming back to you when you have another man?" she asked. sunny frown.
"so...?" sunny's forehead creases.
"What i mean is.. what will you do?"

sunny stirs her bowl and take a spoonfull of patbingsu before answering her question.
"Its all about time sica.. if I have a lover at that time, so what is the problem?"
"dont you want to go back to sungmin oppa?"
"if you asking me now, I will.. but If you asking me some other time.. maybe yes, or maybe no.. but, all I know is, people change but heart not.." sunny said.

sica deeply listening her words. she remain in silent and sighs. realizing her sudden silent, sunny turn her body and facing her.

"is there something bothering you babe?" sunny asks. sica smiled.
"I was lately thinking.. what will i do if kris suddenly coming to me while I am with jiyong" sica said.

sunny frown.

"sica.. its been a long time.. and he is not coming.." she state the truth she know. sica sighs.

"and you are happy now with jiyong.. dont lose your compose again sica... please" sunny said.
"you know what sun.. lately, a person named park chanyeol always coming at me and it bother me, since he so much alike like kris.."

"but he is not, right?" sunny said.

sica look at her.
"he is not kris right.. you said kris gone at that accident.. and you never know where is him anymore.." sunny said. and suddenly she remember a very important thing she forgot.

"Right! he is gone..! and I didn't know anything about him! it doesnt mean he died....." sica jolt from her seat and running toward her room. sunny who clueless at her condition put her bowl down and run over her, just in case she does something weird in her room.

but all she do is just searching all over her room, and turn her room into a mess.

"what are you looking for?" sunny curious and speechlessly asking. she just doesnt understand what is the blonde girl thinking now. lost.. but still.. believe in no matter what she is thinking. jessica ignoring the shorter's question and move from her mini cupboard to her dressroom.

"yah.. sica" sunny who being ignored helplessly following the girl behind. but jessica jung is too busy to answer her. bags, she start rummaging all of the bags in her dresser. and her eyes finally catching a bundle of document inside the blue bag limited edition of Jimmy choo. sunny peek over sica's shoulder and clearly read the large words against the cover.

"Top Secret Medical Record" sunny absentmindedly re-read. she cutely scrunched her nose.
"is that medical record from Song Qian ?" sunny asked. jessica timidly nodded, still hesitating to open.
"Whose?" sunny asks.

jessica simply smiled. "kris.." she manage to whisper and sunny sighs. but she can no longer protest. jessica gaze sunny, as like asking permition. 

"go ahead.. if that can make yourself better" sunny gives up.

both of the girl move toward the bed surronded with mess and sit down.

Top Secret Medical Record
client : Wu Yifan (Kris)
Gender : male
Age : 19
Nationality : Canadian-Chinesse
Study : Elementary Student in Chinesse
           Junior High School in Canada
           Currently High Schooler in Seoul 
Case : Victim of Traffic accident    

both of the girl silently reading the biograph of kris. jessica tears streaming down from her eyes. suddenly she remember the last time they met. she was too happy to know that her boyfriend soon will be gone. 

"sica.. go on.." sunny giving her an encourage nod. and the girl finally turn the white paper to slightly yellowish paper.

Health Record: Half of body burned and identity couldn't recognize.

at the simple words jessica hand tremble. ironic. sunny pat her shoulder. giving her a silent nod. they both honestly don't really know what is written there since its full with medical words they don't have idea at all.

but what is they know is the little conclution at the end of the book.

..... Has been secretly moved to Taiwan Rehabilitation Center by request of US Ambbasy.

sica's body suddenly drop onto sunny's side.
"sica! sica!" 

...

"unnie.." the first thing sica see is yoona with tears. and seohyun at her other side crying silently too. so do with the other member. no one dare to start the conversation. just to wonder how will she feel?

year after year everyone said to her that kris gone.. weakening her faith, love and mind. no one dare to say anything. now they knew, sica's heart fully owned by kris.

the first thing sica do is put one of her arms to hide her teary eyes. finally.. finally.. I know you alive, kris. she slowly gather her sense.

"if.. kris really still alive like the record said, then why?" taeyeon start.
"maybe he has a good reason to not.." sooyoong respond.
"and what exactly it is?" taeyeon ask, hanging..

deep in sica thought she somehow know that he didnt has any other choice but to keep his distance. she pull her hand over her eyes and meet eyes with sunny.

"sunny ah.. can I ask you a favor?" sica asked. sunny nods. "can you go to this hospital and meet the doctor in term.." 

.......

it is almost mid in the night but still sica couldn't make her head clear. after all of this time.. she finally. she put her chin on top of her folded knees while eyeing the document over and over. seo joohyun is sleeping next to her soundlessly, thats why sica doesnt want to make much noises.

she softly smiled at the name of kris. softly she touches the ink which half fade away..

"sica..." she heard a low knock on the door and she know that it is sunny in front of there.

sica slowly climb down the bed and open the door, slightly feel sorry because she watches sunny with tired eyes standing in front of her room.

".. according to song qian, its true that he is still alive, and its true that he has been secretly moved to china.. but she didnt sure wheter the truth he can still alive with those bad injures. as we both know, he badly burn, and it was possible that he might end up die between the operation .. or for the better choice he alive but he change"

"change?"

"yeah.. he may be a totally different person. because according to his health record, his brain damage badly.. and the possibility to remember the thing when he alive is very small.." sunny sadly said.

jessica stared at her in blank expression.

"sica.. I may be false but, the possibility for him didnt recognize you is so big, and eventhough you passed next to him, you also possibly cant recognize him. this is so hard sica.." sunny said.

but the only thing caught sica's attention is.. his face change?

once again she left sunny hanging to her room. and once again sunny should following her behind.

"what are you doing again sica.." sunny following sica searching for something, again.
"what are you doing unnie?" this time seohyun woken up by shiftling voice next to her.

"... no way" sica hand keep fiddling with the bags she used to bring. "there is no way yifan die in the surgery.." sica said and her hand met a hard fabric, another document.

this time is

Park Chanyeol Health Record . jessica hand slowly turn the page by page and stop in pure english report. tears b on her eyes. both sunny and seohyun look obviously confused.

they both look at each other when suddenly the blonde move toward the dvd player after putting an unknown CD inside it.

"sica..? what happened?" sunny asked, no longer holding back her curiousness. sica's back slowly turn as a soft music playing behind her. she gives both seohyun and sunny an undesribable look.

Baby don’t cry tonight after the darkness passes
Baby don’t cry tonight it’ll become as if it never happened
You’re not the one to disappear into foam, something you never should’ve known
So Baby don’t cry cry my love will protect you

".......because he is still alive and always trying to approach me with his inability"

sunny and seohyun widened in horor. seohyun grab the new health record and watch the chinesse words paste between the document, they try to find the readable writing and thankfully there is a page full of english translation.

Korean Name : Park Chanyeol
Chinesse Name : Wu Yifan
Canadian Name: Kris

they knew the song perfectly, because jessica always turn on everytime she down or happy.. thats why both of sunny and seohyun surprised, why the song played from an unknown CD from a guy named, park chanyeol.

A/N : Hello everybody.. how was your day ?? for me.. it was a busy month for me.. since I already on my almost end semester. I need to submit my thesis and all.. busy and busy.. so here a little 'comeback' from me.. Please Comment ^^ Maybe there are error and mistakes here and there so please bear with it. after I get my rest time, i'll do editing later.. thanks guys for always supporting me